Eating disorders are so irritating because one day you could be laughing, eating a pint of ice cream and 7 pieces of pizza with your friends, thinking you’re completely recovered and then the next you could be crying in the bathroom wanting to purge because you ate a salad for dinner.
AKA saying things like “WHAT is going on with you!?” or “you ate that last week with no problem at all!” to someone who is affected by an eating disorder will not do any good. If you’re confused about their actions… imagine what it’s like to be the one feeling like they’re less than everyone else because of how back and forth they feel. Living with an eating disorder is already stressful enough, and pointing out the unsteadiness makes it all the more overwhelming.
Staying true to yourself is not about staying the same. It’s not about making a goal to be the exact individual whom you were since day one. Staying true means expressing what you think, feel, and value; regardless of when in your life it arises. You may not be the exact same person who you used to be, however that’s completely natural. You have simply grown and deepened your self image since then.
Don’t put off seeing a doctor or specialist about your mental health/wellbeing.
A lot of the time, mental health disorders will lie to you and make you believe you’re not ‘sick enough’ to get help. They make you believe that it’s not real, that you’re making it up, or that there are other people out there who are ‘sicker than you’ so you should just put up with it.
But just listen to me for a minute, from someone who’s been there and knows what it’s like to think those things.
If you’re crying for days at a time and you don’t really know why, then please speak to your doctor.
If you’re feeling empty with no motivation or excitement, please speak to your doctor.
If you’re constantly hearing horrible thoughts about yourself in your head, please speak to your doctor.
If frequently you find yourself alone and scared and hiding from everyone, please speak to your doctor.
If you feel overwhelmed and you can’t carry on, please speak to your doctor.
If you have a gut feeling that something might be wrong, even if there’s only a 1% chance, please speak to your doctor.
You don’t have to keep going through this. You don’t have to feel this way. Please seek the help you might need.
It’s absolutely amazing we each have that one thing, or couple of things, that we completely fall in love with doing. If it’s art, writing, soccer, or whatever it may be, we just genuinely love it. The important thing is though, that you can’t let it turn into a chore. Let it blossom at its own pace as supposed to trying to speed it up past its time. Love what you do, and do it simply because of that.