so i’m doing this thing lately to embrace my ethnic features and to try and recreate in art when i can because i spent so many years hating it and being told that not only was it not pretty but it was ugly and unfeminine
and like basically for a very very long time going back hundreds if not thousands of years the ethnic features of Jewish women has been held up as the epitome of ugliness and unfemininity
and i grew up in a community that really idolized the white blond goyishe look and really the standard of beauty was not something that most of us would ever achieve because the standard of beauty didn’t take into account Jewish genes
but the part that i am having a hard time getting the olive skin tone cause like i can’t get the shade right i either don’t get that undertone or i do something wrong and get like the color of an actual olive
i’m finding pastels are more forgiving in get the shade right, but still i’m getting very annoyed with myself
Thank you to all my followers. As of today there are 60,000 of you, an incomprehensible number. I wanted to make some sort of statement - that I would try to be worthy of your trust or whatever - but everything sounded so pompous. Let me instead just thank all of you for helping to keep not only the memory of Old Hollywood alive but also the artistic and social significance of these films for us today. We are not only involved in nostalgia but in the reclamation of a great art form.
Simultaneous fascination and disgust with the reclamation, refashioning, repurposing of art in a digital platform. Thinking a lot about how the internet lets me see the way that others interact with my work, especially in ways that don’t sit well with me. Does the artist have any control over work made public? Does the artist have any justifiable claim to it once it is out of their hands? Is it my work after you have made it yours? Art is a conversation, and I can’t help but yelling.