reclaim power

When you find yourself drowning in self-hate, you have to remind yourself that you weren’t born feeling this way. That at some point in your journey, some person or experience sent you the message that there was something wrong with who you are, and you internalized those messages and took them on as your truth. But that hate isn’t yours to carry, and those judgments aren’t about you. And in the same way that you learned to think badly of yourself, you can learn to think new, self-loving and accepting thoughts. You can learn to challenge those beliefs, take away their power, and reclaim your own. It won’t be easy, and it won’t happen over night. But it is possible. And it starts when you decide that there has to be more to life than this pain you feel. It starts when you decide that you deserve to discover it.
When you find yourself drowning in self-hate, you have to remind yourself that you weren’t born feeling this way. That at some point in your journey, some person or experience sent you the message that there was something wrong with who you are, and you internalized those messages and took them on as your truth. But that hate isn’t yours to carry, and those judgments aren’t about you. And in the same way that you learned to think badly of yourself, you can learn to think new, self-loving and accepting thoughts. You can learn to challenge those beliefs, take away their power, and reclaim your own. It won’t be easy, and it won’t happen over night. But it is possible. And it starts when you decide that there has to be more to life than this pain you feel. It starts when you decide that you deserve to discover it.
early 2000s movies that deserve to replace shrek as the go-to “joke movie”
  • wild wild west
  • the austin powers series
  • master of disguise
  • napoleon dynamite (its time for this movie to reclaim its power)
  • donnie darko
Companion Fade Fears

Below is a list of the banter between the Fear Demon and our lovable companions while stuck in the Fade. 


Like Blackwall. Ah, there’s nothing like a Grey Warden. And you are nothing like a Grey Warden.

Blackwall: I’ll show you a Warden’s strength, beast.


Are you afraid, Cole? I can help you forget. Just like you help other people. We’re so very much alike, you and I.

Cole: No.


Dirth ma, Harellan. Ma banal enasalin. Mar Solas ena mar din.

Solas: Banal nadas.


The Qunari will make a lovely host for one of my minions. Or maybe I will ride his body myself.

Iron Bull: I’d like to see you try.


What’s it like living as an apostate, Vivienne? Do you really think you’ll reclaim your power in the Circle … at your age?

Vivienne: Not one word.


Greetings, Dorian … it is Dorian, isn’t it? For a moment, I mistook you for your father.

Dorian: Rather uncalled for.


Your Inquisitor is a fraud, Cassandra. Yet more evidence there is no Maker, that all your faith has been for naught.

Cassandra: Die in the void, demon.


Sera, Sera, Sera … If you shoot an arrow at me, I’ll know where you are.

Sera: Out of my head, Bitch-balls!


Once again, Hawke is in danger because of you, Varric. You found the red lyrium. You brought Hawke here.

Varric: Just keep talking, Smiley.


Did the King’s bastard think he could prove himself? It’s far to late for that. Your whole life, you’ve left everything to more capable hands. The Archdemon, the throne of Ferelden … who will you hide behind now?

Alistair: Is that all it’s got? I’ve heard worse than that from Morrigan.


Teryn Loghain Mac Tir, the brilliant commander. Pity the one time you tried to rule, you failed so miserably. You had to be beaten, humiliated, lest you destroy your own country. You even doomed the Wardens by bringing the Inquisitor down on them. You destroy everything you touch.

Loghain: Is that all you’ve got? It’s nothing I’ve not said to myself.


Warden Stroud. How must if feel to devote your whole life to the Wardens, only to watch them fall? Or worse, to know that you were responsible for their destruction? When the next Blight comes, will they curse your name?

Stroud: With the Makers blessing, we will end this wretched beast.


Did you think you mattered, Hawke? Did you think anything you ever did mattered? You couldn’t even save your city. How could you expect to strike down a God? Anders/Fenris/Merrill/Isabella is going to die, just like your family, and everyone you ever cared about.

Hawke (Diplomatic): Of course, a Fear demon would know where to hurt us most. We must ignore it.

Hawke (Humorous): Well that’s going to grow tiresome quickly.

Hawke (Aggressive): I’m going to enjoy killing this thing.

YIN AND YANG PRINCIPLE: WITHHOLDING AND RECLAIMING POWER

All of Hindu and classical Zen literature is full of the principle of reclaiming power - taking whatever energy we are given and altering it to its opposite component. For example, pleasure and rage are two coexisting potentials in the first chakra. By allowing ourselves to experience the ecstasy of “hedonistic” pleasure, we actually create the synaptical capacity for converting rage. Then when rage rises up within us, we can move that energy, that rage, into the pleasure center by tilting the pelvis slightly forward and moving the energy up. It is then used to regenerate our bodies instead of causing destruction. One of the classic Tibetan drawings of the chakras has a yin and yang in each chakra; this drawing is a precise representation of the refocusing of power and allowing it to turn back into its opposite, should one choose not to use it in its original form. In this way, there is no suppression of power. It is a much healthier process.

It often seems that there is no appropriate place for expressing many kinds of feelings. To avoid experiencing those feelings in the second chakra, many of us tend to hold back the power of the first. The result of this suppression is a first chakra that runs counterclockwise. By running this chakra backward, we do not lose those unexpressed feelings but keep them suppressed. As a result, we do not have access to their power. In other words, instead of sending energy up the system, it is dissipated into the ground. We are losing a vast amount of energy and power. If we can turn the chakra around, then energy will again begin to flow appropriately, giving us access to our power once more.

Power is ours, but to understand it we have to use it. “Use it or lose it” is a contemporary adage that applies here. This cannot be an intellectual process; we have to feel the fire, use the power safely and wisely. We must be conscious of how and where we use it, and while doing so, we must also give that same life force back to others. We have to allow others their own power and their own use of it. Until each of us has more power, the success of one will threaten another. We can change this dynamic if, in our success, we empower others, particularly our friends, by giving them energy. This is the secret to energy work. We must always remember that the universe is the source of unlimited energy. This source is inexhaustible, and we can always tap into it to keep ourselves from being drained by others.

Persephone

Persephone is the walker between worlds. The underworld is where she felt her fate was- that was where her meaning was. She reclaimed her power as the one to bring light into the dark, and be the guide to those who are alone and scared. Persephone sees both light and dark; she does not choose dark over the light. Rather, she chose to walk among both, to integrate them, to work in cycles. For six months Persephone is reunited with her mother, Demeter, and the fruitfulness of the earth.

She brings that, because her inner light is innate. She chooses to bless and celebrate the earth, to honor and rejoice in life and light. And the six months she is in the underworld, when the earth feels her loss and changes, she brings with her all the life and light to those who are without it in the underworld, those who need it, perhaps more than the rest does.

She is the one who brings light to the shadows. She is Balance. The power of life is within her still, even in the underworld. She never chose to give it up. She chose to reclaim her power as a possessor of light and life- and share that warmth equally among all.

Persephone was afraid at first, hence her screams as she was taken to the underworld. She was being taken from all she has known, and she had never seen darkness, nor sickness, nor pain. In the underworld she learned that there is suffering in the world, and her ignorance/naivety was once and forever gone. Once she saw pain, suffering and darkness, she realized her purpose as the one containing light, the one bringer of life, one who walks between the worlds. She realized her power and transformed from Kore into Persephone, the Queen, who realized her responsibility and reclaimed her power to share equally among all in balance- in the lightness and in the dark. This ties in to witches reclaiming their innate power- how they are tranformed as she was, and at a crossroads of choices. They can ignore the suffering and live in ignorant bliss. They can face fear and suffering and choose the healer’s path of balance and restoration. Or, the last choice which would be if she stayed in the underworld, becoming consumed by power. 

Persephone chose the middle path.

Because the city keeps me disconnected, because art school is a privilege, because my community has a special beauty, because I developed my own spiritual practice, because its a non judgmental space, because i need to practice humility, because its stormy outside, because this is how I interpret natural law, because I need to keep reaching for more of my own culture, because I live outside the sacred mountains, because I keep something from my ancestors alive, because I project energy in a special way, because I reclaim my power

Mural in Baltimore by the great Ernest Shaw. To me, the true essence of art is disintegrating the senses to raise consciousness as forms of resistance to reclaim power rooted in love. Imagine when kids pass this and ask who these people are. This opens that narrative, which shows the power of the arts–igniting agency and action to break down walls and thrive in resiliency.

When you find yourself drowning in self-hate, you have to remind yourself that you weren’t born feeling this way. That at some point in your journey, some person or experience sent you the message that there was something wrong with who you are, and you internalised those messages and took them on as your truth. But that hate isn’t yours to carry, and those judgments aren’t about you. And in the same way that you learned to think badly of yourself, you can learn to think new, self-loving and accepting thoughts. You can learn to challenge those beliefs, take away their power, and reclaim your own. It won’t be easy, and it won’t happen over night. But it is possible. And it starts when you decide that there has to be more to life than this pain you feel. It starts when you decide that you deserve to discover it.
—  Daniell Koepke

-  In a fiery lair the beings raised in fire embrace the chaos that generates their nature and they delight in the power of the flames, nevertheless of some hiding of the universe different species in soul and heart reclaim such powerful energy that does not belong to them extracting the breath That sustains the life of the beings of fire

- This time I bring back my series of illustrations called “worlds”, I love to fantasize what kind of life could take places with different compositions in the universe and what kind of difficulties or benefits they obtain, we are currently so limited knowledge about it but in a Universe where there are more stars than grains of sand in the sea the possibilities are endless

(Tiesha’s script)

This past weekend I did an intensive self-study on the basics of Graphology: the science/study of handwriting. It’s fascinating that our handwriting can contain so many insights about our subconscious.
As teastained women I see Graphology as another opportunity for us to Journey Soulfully and make artefacts of our journals. It is also a way of reclaiming the power of encrypting/decoding ourselves: if we know how to read the meanings encoded our intuitive fonts, our self-scripts, then we can read a comprehensive narrative formed by the palimpsest of unwritten and written sentience in our journals.

Another level of Journeying Soulfully.

In such a world, it is no wonder that young women are increasingly fans of horror films. Identifying with the sadist’s world is a way of trying to be part of that world, to gain control within it, to soften it, to deflect its power, to reclaim it. I know that women have some influence within the horror genre, and that they can and do create films which subvert its innate misogyny. But there are many women and girls who also completely misunderstand what it is that they are watching and what it represents about the male psyche. They earnestly believe that the films are egalitarian and equally meant for their viewing pleasure. They even write earnest blogs about whether these films are feminist or misogynistic, which shows how confused they are.

Anna Billiard really collectively snatched our wigs with this one gals…

WinterShieldShock : Omegaverse!AU

Darcy Lewis always felt disconnected from her own body, like something wasn’t right since her birth. When she receives a mysterious box filled with a key and a map, she realizes that maybe, the family she never knew is full of wackos. How else to explain the two hot guys claiming she’s the long lost werewolf queen of North America who had her lupine heritage sealed from her by a curse? Now, the three of them are going on a trip to her family estate to reclaim her powers. Darcy Lewis is the ultimate Alpha (ah!). Once her true nature is finally coming to her, the need the claim as mates Omega Bucky and Beta Steve become too strong to ignore,  she realizes her two protectors don’t want her to. The triad will have to unite several packs together and fight pissed off witches along the way (totally normal stuff).

Harry Potter’s family isn’t only at Number 4 Privet Drive. Unaware to even Dumbledore, an upheaval is approaching. The Ancient and Noble House of Black is reclaiming their power and changing the future of the magical world.

The Reclamation of Black Magic, Chapter 1

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This first chapter comes with a heavy disclaimer. This story will be EPIC long. Because of that, I’d like to have more chapters written before I start posting it regularly. Since I also have two other stories I need to finish, this one is not at the top of my life. However, there’s been significant interest in it on tumblr recently, so I thought I would post this first chapter to give everyone a taste. This story will be told from the POV of four separate characters, and will cover at least 1986-1998. While it’s not classified as a Romance, it will eventually be considered a Harmony (Harry/Hermione), so if that’s not your cup of tea, I’ll take no offence. Enjoy this little sneak peak ♥

But if we don’t have experience with solitude—and this is often the case today—we start to equate loneliness and solitude. This reflects the impoverishment of our experience. If we don’t know the satisfactions of solitude, we only know the panic of loneliness.
—  Sherry Turkle, Reclaiming Conversation: The Power of Talk in a Digital Age