recently**

i have this theory that every time we dream, we see an alternate reality. after all, in string theory, all universes exist. i have died many times there. i get déjà vu a lot. i wonder if i am in someone else’s dream, and she has just woken up. maybe she’s screaming at me to stop, to move a little to the left, to watch out. when i wake up i always wonder if i’m the same me or i’ve been replaced by the girl in my dream. if i died there to get a second chance here. or maybe here is where i’m learning how not to die so violently. i don’t know. i don’t get much sleep. 

look …… i know that connor murphy is a fictional character,, but i just ? miss him /// so much \

Deaths Barry Allen has directly witnessed

In order….

  • Nora Allen
  • Clyde Mardon (Weather Wizard 1)
  • Danton Black (Multiplex)
  • Unnamed man killed by Leonard Snart
  • Bette Sans Souci (Plastique)
  • Tony Woodward (Girder)
  • Farooq Gibran (Blackout)
  • Hannibal Bates (Everyman)
  • Jake Simmons (Deathbolt)
  • Nora Allen (take 2)
  • Eddie Thawne
  • Eobard Thawne (Reverse Flash)
  • Ronnie Raymond
  • Al Rothstein (Atom Smasher)
  • Eddie Slick (Sand Demon)
  • Joe West (Earth 2)
  • Ronnie + Martin (Deathstorm)
  • Cisco Ramon (Reverb)
  • Eliza Harmon (Trajectory)
  • Griffin Grey (no alias)
  • Numerous members of the police force
  • Dante Ramon (Rupture)
  • Henry Allen
  • Hunter Zoloman (Zoom)
  • Wally West (? did he die in Flashpoint? seems ambiguous)
  • Nora Allen (take 3)
  • Edward Clariss (The Rival)
  • Iris West (future)