reblog it if you want one i guess

hey so you know that vicious cycle of mental health making you unproductive which makes your mental health worse? don’t worry friend I am here with something that can help

just get one thing done. break the cycle. it doesn’t have to be some big task. in fact it’s better if it isn’t. decide on something that takes five minutes or less. keep it tiny and manageable - the key is to feel like you’ve accomplished something, so when your brain is all, you can’t even do a single thing all day except lay in bed being useless, you can be like, oh but I did do something, brain, suck on that. it might not seem like much at the time but it helps a lot to have something tangible you can point to

do you have dirty dishes in your bedroom? get rid of ‘em. you don’t have to wash them, just put them in the sink with soapy water. done. easy.

do you have a pile of empty water bottles sitting there? good for you staying hydrated. but you don’t need a mountain of plastic reminders. throw a few in the trash or in recycling. don’t worry about chasing down every single one, just pick a number. get rid of 5 or 10. easy, manageable even if you feel terrible. done.

do you need to do something early tomorrow? get something ready now. just one thing. lay out an outfit. fill the coffee maker so you can just press a button tomorrow. pack your backpack or purse. bonus benefit, future you will have an extra few minutes to breathe in the morning.

do you have a pet? spend 5 minutes with your pet. cuddle them. play tug of war. make baby noises at them. your pet loves you. I bet they miss you when you’re sad. you’ll both feel better.

has it been 3 weeks since you did laundry? pick your clothes up off the floor and put them in a laundry basket. don’t actually wash them or even take the basket anywhere. just collect the clothes for later so they aren’t spread all over. it’ll make actually doing them that much easier when you have more energy

did you manage to wash your clothes but not put them away? fold something. fold another thing. and one more. put them away. three things. you got this one.

did you do your one thing? good. I’m proud of you. even if it didn’t make you feel better, guess what? you did a thing. you got something done, you can be done now. you can go back to bed if you want.

Introducing TD and Chastity Play, What i did wrong......

To me FLR has SO many different angles and when introducing your partner its important to be careful. See where as i took my time, slowly introduced more and more bits into it before eventually plucking up the courage to put the cage on and show her, i still made some real big mistakes.

See my wife is not a Domme, i dont really want to know about her previous life before me but im kinda guessing im the first person that really wants to explore all these roads and possibility with her. I originally made this Blog to share things i found sexy in some way shape or form with her and looking back now i should have kept it more Vanilla and slowly introduced my interest in things like pegging. See you follow all these people then one day they reblog some Sissy stuff, some Anal Torture, Some Ball Busting. From my wife’s perspective she probably sees that and thinks FUCKING HELL.

The reason i am writing this is because somethings have been lost in translation, see she was under the impression that i wanted to become her bitch, a groveling sissy whore who wanted to wear her clothes and make up and suck strapons all day long. Now if that’s your thing im all for it but that wasn’t what i wanted.  

I came across chastity play and tease and denial play a while back, i have always been aware of bondage and always had a thing for tying or being tied up sexually. I saw it as a fun way for a male and female to have a laugh, be intimate and grow together as a couple. As much as i love her Locking me up, tying me up, teasing me and laughing as i quiver on the bed in a desperate need to cum only to deny me for another day i also would love to do the same for her. Its about exploring each others bodies, each others fantasies.

Its only fun for me if its fun for her, if she wants to lock me for a day, a week, a month or a year ill play the game as long as she finds it exiting and gets a kick out of it. If she doesn’t want it its just not going to work. But don’t give up that easily pick it up and put it down, its keeps it exiting. After a chat with my wife in the week she said she likes the cage but doesn’t want a bitch of a husband, so i explained the above and below to her and now i think it makes sense.

I am writing this because i get lots of messages from people asking how did i break the news? how did i get her on board? Truth is we are still working on it, still exploring it. I haven’t been in the cage for months, as real life is more important. This morning after our chats and fun this week i put it on.

I guess im very lucky to have such an amazing wife, i put it on gave her the keys and she smiled. That’s all i wanted. She is one of a kind, trusting and fucking gorgeous.

For anyone out there toying with this i hope this has helped, below are few images i have stolen from others. I hope they don’t mind. Good Luck and go have some fun.

I love making her moan, and its true i work harder when my dick is locked up and im working to earn a release, its common knowledge you put more effort into thngs if your getting something in return. (Or at least you think you are) 

Then there is this, after a night of teasing and a great time she didnt let you cum, your going to wake up in the morning and WANT to do this for her because your still super horny. You know your not going get to cum but pleasing her is at least some sexual activity.

Then on the other hand there is nothing sexier than doing the same to her, make her feel how you feel, i remember once back in the early days i edged my wife and then just turned the wand off and said nah, night night. She was mortified, grabbing my cock, trying her hardest to get me to fuck her. In the morning she woke up horny and we fucked. But it can work both ways.

This is also one that i agree with, the lust i have towards her, the want to constantly touch her, to kiss her its just amazing. Then once you cum its takes a good few days to get that back. Its the strongest drug i have ever felt and its awesome. 

I love it when she feels sexy the sexier she feels the more she glows the better the experience. 

Turn it into a game, a guessing game and have fun with it.

Tease him, if he is anything like me he will enjoy it.

But most importantly talk about it, discuss it find out what you both want from it and just have fun.

I guarantee it will bring you closer together. 

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i put extra work into this one and tried to improve some things i found wrong in the first part and since it’s my first time drawing a comic of course i’d make a mistake or two xp , and i want to thank @beanpots and you awesome people for reblogging , here’s part 2/3 

can you guess what kind of flower was it XD? and get ready for the last part since it will be longer and more colorful i hope?? lol i will try to finish it this friday or saturday 

 for part1 | part3

no one talks about that Great BPD thing where you perceive all non-positive responses as negative and aggressive. there are 2 emotions people have: happy, and angry

if someone responds to you with just “OK” or “yeah”, there’s no way to apply a neutral tone to it you just?? feel that its angry and intimidating and they’re just telling you to go away

no one talks about this?? there are so many BPD symptoms that get brushed under the rug but this one is so huge because you know you’re being illogical and you know they’re being neutral but there’s no logic in this sort of thing you just feel that fear and shame and internalize it and let it keep happening

idk i saw a post in depth about BPD and it mentioned that and i was really happy about it.

Spyro ask meme

I think these are neat and it’ll be good to have one for Spyro. 


1. Which Spyro game is your favorite?

2. Who is your favorite character from the Spyro series?

3. Which Spyro games have you played?

4. What Spyro game did you play first?

5. What “era” of Spyro is your favorite? (Insomniac, Legend of Spyro, the in between time)

6. What is your favorite level from a Spyro game?

7. Which of Spyro’s many designs is your favorite?

8. Favorite voice actor for Spyro?

9. Would you consider yourself a part of the Spyro fandom?

10. What is your opinion on the Spyro fandom as a whole?

11. What have you contributed to the fandom?

12. Do you read any Spyro fanfiction?

13. Have you ever played a Spyro fan game?

14. If you could live in one level/world from a Spyro game which would it be?

15. Favorite boss in a Spyro game?

16. Do you own any Spyro merchandise?

17. What’s your favorite piece of music from the Spyro series?

18. Which game has the best soundtrack, in your opinion?

19. Which game is your least favorite? 

20. Any characters you hate or just can’t stand?

21. Have you ever had a Spyro related dream?

22. Which Spyro game do you think is the most difficult?

23. Which game do you think is the easiest? 

24. Do you have an unpopular opinion related to Spyro?

25. Which one of Spyro’s breath abilities is your favorite?

26. Do you have any Spyro related headcanons?

27. Favorite line of dialogue from any game?

28. Have you ever 100% completed a Spyro game?

29. Anything in a Spyro game that makes you angry?

30. Favorite speedway/flight?

31. What’s your opinion on the enemy names in the first 2 Legend of Spyro games?

32. What would your perfect Spyro game look like?

33. Do you ever mess around with glitches in any of the games?

34. Have you ever seen a speedrun of a Spyro game?

35. How often do you play Spyro games?

36. When was the last time you played a Spyro game?

37. What’s your opinion on the Skylanders franchise?

38. Are the 5 gems from the first 3 Spyro games blue or purple?

39. Which of the playable characters in Year of the Dragon is your favorite?(not counting Spyro)

40. Which home world is your favorite?

41. Do you ever use the cheat codes in any of the games?

42. Favorite final boss?

43. Which game do you think had the best story?

44. Do you own multiple copies of any of the games?

45. Do you like the skateboarding in Spyro 3?

46. Which one of the 4 elemental dragons from the Legend of Spyro is your favorite?

47. Have you ever played Dawn of the Dragon with someone else?

48. Who do you prefer to play as in Dawn of the Dragon? Spyro or Cynder?

49. Which Fury attack from the Legend of Spyro is your favorite?

50. Which one of Hunter’s designs do you like the best?

51. Have you ever played a Skylanders game?

52. Do you visit any Spyro fan sites? (darkSpyro, spyroforum, etc.)

~hiatus extended to [TBD]~

READING SLUMPS AND HOW TO GET OUT OF THEM

I’m in a reading slump so regularly, it feels like I hardly read anything at all. They’re honestly one of the reasons why I’m a slow reader and why I don’t read that many books in a year.

Weeks go by where I don’t pick up a book and it’s sad that I don’t want to do something I love. Soon as I’m in a slump, I’m in no mood to read, I’m not tackling my overflowing TBR and things are spiraling out of control!

I feel like I’m being over dramatic but I can see the pile of ARCs and review books I need to read…
People ask how I manage all the ARCs that need reviewing and the truth is, I don’t. I just have to take my time and read whenever I feel like it.

I’ve noticed a lot things can easily put me in a slump and affects how much I read or if I want to read. But I have some tricks I try when I feel like that. Sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t but I thought I’d make a post about them - it might help if you’re prone to reading slumps like me.

Here goes!

1. Sample A Chapter

If there’s a book you’ve been meaning to pick up for a while, or there’s a few books on your TBR that have been there for ages - pick it up and read the first chapter.

I have this strange habit or reading the first few pages whenever I get a new book, just to get a taste of what it’s like. And usually, those few pages make me want to keep reading.

Just sample the first couple pages to see if it hooks you right away. If it does and you find yourself wanting to read more, that’s great! But if it doesn’t, just put down and read the first chapter of another book.

This isn’t starting and DNFing a book
just after one chapter so, don’t think of it as that. Because in future, you’ll pick it up again and possibly enjoy it a lot more than you would have in a slump. 

So, if that chapter isn’t working for you, don’t keep reading it or forcing yourself. You’ll dislike the book just because of your slump and it’ll ruin what potentially could have been an amazing book if you’d read it any other time. 

Just reading a first chapter has helped me a lot. Not every book with be interesting, so I pick up another one hoping it’ll keep me reading. It’s like letting the book give a 60 second pitch as to why you should read it next. Maybe it’ll work for you, maybe not.

2. Re-read A Favourite Book

There’s something comforting about re-reading a favourite book because I know I’ll love it, and I’m always excited to dive back into a familiar world. I’ve picked up the Harry Potter books or The Infernal Devices since I love those series and it would get me back into a routine of reading again.

If you have a favourite book that’s comforting, just pick it up and read it. You’ll be happy to be back with those characters. I feel like I could grab any Harry Potter book and sink into the story, I don’t need to go in chronological order if I don’t want to, but just enjoy the familiarity.

It probably won’t help reduce your TBR and you might not like re-reading when you have so many new books to get through, but there’s something about re-reading a book you really love.

Can’t find a new book to read? Might as well enjoy one you know and love.

3. Listen to Audiobooks

I will always stand by Audiobooks since they’re a fantastic way to read. They’ve helped me out of slumps, and made me read more and quicker than I usually do. I even recommended listening to books on my Being A Slow Reader blogpost so, make sure to go check that out if you haven’t. 

I always listen to music when I’m out, on the bus, or on my way to work that I’ve started listening to books instead. I can read a chapter, maybe more during my journey and it’s such an efficient way to read.

It can help with slumps too. You can multitask whilst listening, or maybe you’ll enjoy the fact someone is reading the book to you as it can be quite calming. You can bump up the speed and read a book faster.
Because it’s such a quick way to read by listening, you’re instantly immersed in the book and you’ll be hooked before you even know it.

Honestly, just listening to a book has gotten me out of slumps without realising it. I always found myself putting my headphones in to continue the story.

You should give audiobooks a try. It’s a new format of reading and maybe you’ll like a change from physical books or ebooks. But remember to sample the narration before getting an audiobook and make sure you like it. It’s something I always do because the narration can make a difference to your reading experience. 

4. Pick A Hyped Book

I see hyped books all over my social media. New releases or upcoming books that people are loving. I’ll see this book popping up everywhere and everyone is raving about it, for good reason.

Whenever this happens, I trust a book to live up to my expectations. It’s so highly praised, I know there’s a bigger chance of me enjoying it like everyone else did.

I’m not saying everyone loves the same books, there are plenty of popular books I don’t like. But the book’s been getting great reviews for a reason - and a good book that’s been getting 4 and 5 stars is what you need to get you out of a slump. 

I read Caraval by Stephanie Garber after a ton of people could not stop talking about it and telling me how amazing it was. I ended up reading it and yes, I loved it. My timeline was filled with praise for Caraval that I went in with high hopes, trusting that I would like it and I did. After I started reading it, I couldn’t stop and now I’m waiting for the sequel. 

Pick up a book that everyone’s enjoying and hopefully, you’ll love it, too. It’s worth a shot!

5. Don’t Force It

Don’t force yourself to read when you’re in a slump. You’re already in no mood to pick up a book and making yourself read will feel like a chore.

You can try these little tricks in this blogpost but if they don’t work, you’ll have to wait until you naturally feel like reading. 

This last one isn’t a tip but some advice, I guess? It’s like when you had to do required reading at school and it was the last thing you wanted to do. Forcing yourself to read isn’t fun.

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And that’s it for my tips!
I hope you found this helpful, or let me know if you already do some of the things I listed. 

I’d love to know your thoughts or how you get out of your reading slumps if I haven’t mentioned it above.

Thank you so much for reading, I really appreciate any likes, reblogs and comments!

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COLLAB?? WHO WANTS TO JOIN?!?!?

AAayyy- look how pathetic I am right now :‘DDD Anyway I’m PLANNING on something SO POINTLESS AND PROBABLY STUPID!! SO WHO WANTS TO JOIN????

Here’s some info/rules to keep in mind:

- Read all the rules!!

- You need to draw a digital art

- It’s your choice if you want to draw your persona, oc or anything else.. But furrys are more preferred

- I only need 1 character from each person but if you want to do more, then remember I can’t do more than 2

- But if there’s not enough characters then you’re allowed to draw more.. If you want of course.. Write “Back up” if you would like to do more drawings

- Need full color and clean line art!!! No sketches, no color aren’t allowed (unless your character is dressed in black and white, that’s fine c:)

- No nswf kind of stuff..

- Must be kind of cute/chibi

- Reblog this to join

- If you have read all the rules then write in your reblog “Legendary Lettuce” xD

- I’ll check some of your arts before I’ll let you join

- If I accepted I’ll message you myself with more info on what exactly to draw

I need REALLY a lot of people to join this.. So when I get to that certain number I’ll reblog this and tell you if it’s closed yet or not.. When I get enough people to join this I’ll tell when the deadline will be..

Anyway I think this is all.. Oh and remember this is for FUN!!! So please don’t murder me if you find the idea too stupid.. Join only if you want ^w^.. (I’ll be a bit inactive too.. So I’ll probably be doing this only..)

me: ah what a completely average day, my mood has been pretty decent all day

my brain out of literally fucking nowhere: ah yes but remember that you are actually a huge manipulative baby who has never done anything right. everyone hates you because of that, remember?

me: ah yes silly me how could i have possibly forgotten. thanks brain.

Its the year anniversary of the Gravity Falls Finale. I’m carrying a boombox, a bouquet of roses, and a bottle of straight vodka mixed with 8 Capri suns into the woods. I locate the spot where bill cipher’s shitty stone corpse is sitting. I set down the boombox and press play. A bass-boosted version of No One Mourns the Wicked blares out into the twilight. I place the flowers on his hand, take out a lighter, and set them on fire, then chug as much capri-sun-vodka as I can. I pour the rest out over his eye and whisper “to the sips you’ll never take, babe”

anonymous asked:

Are your commission prices still the same as your post in February? Sorry if someone already asked something similar!

kinda? im not doing head , and my prices flux a bit more now (but i ve mosty been getting scene commissions so ofc they flux) 

i guess 10 -20 for smth like these

and 15-25 for stuff like this

scenes are almost always above $50 now tho

send me a dm if you want a commission or if you wanna talk about prices!! also i trade art for: used/new clothing, dried herbs, used/new video games, used/new game consuls (even broken ones if they might be fixable or are classics), music rights, or anything i might need

supporting each other

I’m seeing a lot of people get harassed all the way off Tumblr right now, or really struggling just in general.

I came across an old post today where classic rock fans on Tumblr organized a “secret Santa” that was just sending positivity and nice things to the person you were assigned.

I think we could really use this in our community so I propose:

April Showers Of Support

The idea is that you’ll anonymously compliment/befriend a tumblr user who is randomly assigned to you and in turn, you will be assigned to someone else.

@vaspider​ has volunteered to help match people up, so that if someone has me blocked they can still participate! 

How it works:
From now until March 25th 2017, message/inbox me or @vaspider saying you want to participate in April Showers.

It’s more fun if you have anon asks turned on, but you can still participate if you don’t.

You’ll receive a message back telling you who to send positivity to. 

You will start messaging your person, ANONYMOUSLY *if possible*, whenever you get assigned one, and you can keep going until April 15 or as long as you want! 

If you are doing it anonymously, you can reveal yourself on April 15, and will (hopefully) have made a new friend.

I also highly encourage participants to send a couple of extra compliments or nice gifs or whatever to random people you see reblogging this post throughout the month, to keep them guessing about who their person might be, and to spread the love.

You can send your person whatever you want (as long as it’s nice), your goal is to make your person feel happier!

(Some ideas: give their posts extra attention; tell them things you appreciate about them or their blog; send virtual hugs; cute gifs; posts you think they’d like; fun facts; things related to their interests… What else? Feel free to reblog this with ideas about what you’d enjoy getting!)

Some people might get more than one person or be assigned to more than one person, because many unexpected things can happen and I want to make sure that everybody will have a pair. We’ll ask you before giving you more than one, you definitely don’t have to do extra!

A FEW THINGS TO REMEMBER:
* If you’re not able to message your person at least a few times a week - DON’T SIGN UP. We want everyone to have a good experience.
* If your person has not contacted you in over a week, message me and I will gently remind them or find you another one.
* THIS IS FOR FUN! April Showers is designed to make new friends and meet people you might not have normally had contact with.
* It’s useful to have an easy-to-find “about me” page so that your person will have something to talk to you about.
* Please try to keep a note of who you’re assigned to!
* IF YOU CHANGE YOUR URL DURING THE PROJECT PLEASE LET US KNOW. If you don’t let us know about your new url, you will no longer be a part of the project, because your person won’t be able to find you!
* If you have any questions or want to ask for advice, do not hesitate to message me or @vaspider.

PLEASE REBLOG AND LET EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT IT!

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I actually finished an animatic! Granted it’s short and in a simple style, but congrats to me for finally finishing one of them, hahaha.

Kravitz is having war flashbacks to the first time he met Taako.

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EDIT: if you want to see more TAZ stuff that I like and reblog, follow my TAZ blog. @litches-get-stitches ;)

It cracks me up sometimes to get tagged in a post I can’t reblog because the original poster has blocked me. Nine times in ten we’ve never met and it’s likely that OP just knows they don’t want someone with my readership reblogging them, which is fair, no hard feelings, I just go about my day. 

But then there’s that tenth one where I can guess they didn’t like something I said, and I’m like “Good on ya, successful spite block! You have thwarted me as was your desire!”

Then you check out their blog and sometimes it turns out that in addition to being full of petty spite – which I get, I’m full of petty spite myself – they’re also an idiot and an asshole, and that’s even more satisfying. Because then I find myself thinking, “Man, I hope you choke on the fact that I was tagged in your post. I hope you stare at that @copperbadge in your reblog notification for days, ya creep. I wield my name like a sword!”

TLDR a fascist blocked me, which means I must be doing something right. 

COMPLIMENTS & PROMOS

okay so guess who hit 2k? yussh i did and honestly i’m still dying from the shock of it all !!!! unfortunately i can’t do anything too big to celebrate bc i still have an intense amount of edits to do fkjhskg so instead i’m going to do something simple and sweet :)

offering:

  • compliments
  • promos (released in batches of 5)

rules:

  • mbf the trash princess (lol obvsly)
  • reblog this
  • send me an ask with what you want (pls try to choose one because i don’t wanna be too swamped kthanks :*)
  • maybe check out things in my updates tab
  • also check out my edits & i will worship you

Remember when I said I would cut out your favorite emblem into MDF? 

GUESS WHAT I JUST DID. @nightpiercer my gift to you, my friend.

BUT WAIT

IT’S DOUBLE SIDED

Sadly, this is not the one I’m going to give you, on account of it’s various flaws, but once I perfect this thing I’ll send it! 

I’m planning on selling these as custom commissions! I don’t know a price, so the benchmark is probably gonna be around $15 per pendant? Leave a suggestion for what the price could be in a reply or reblog!

Want a high resolution version of your favorite emblem (And the possibility of having it laser blasted into medium density fiberboard and sent to you for $15)? Leave a reply on or, more helpfully, reblog my original post!

ACOTAR fic, part 2

As I exited the dining hall, I loosed a breath, and I began to walk back to my chambers-not fast, so’s not to draw attention to myself. I passed many faces on the way to my rooms, High Fae, lesser Fae, I gave them all bland smiles, being the High Lord’s pretty pet they all expected me to be. As I was beginning to near my chambers, I heard footsteps behind me, and turned to see Lucien standing there, the sun shone through the glass panels at the end of the hall and it made his skin glow and his red, coppery hair shine so brightly it looked like it had been set alight.

He stepped closer to me, and I gave him a genuine smile. He seemed to be just as shocked as I was at this. Had he again been the only one to notice how miserable I had become in this place? As I stared at him, I waited for him to say whatever he came to find me for.

Another second passed, as we just curiously stared at each other. “Care to take a stroll in the gardens with me?” Lucien asked casually, but in his face, his eyes, it seemed as though he wanted to say more.

I needed to prepare, prepare how I was going to reveal all the truths that had been hidden these many, many long months. But his eyes seemed to plead with me, whether he was aware of his silent begging I was unsure. I gave him a curt nod, but asked him to wait a moment while I went into my bedroom to recieve a shawl. I entered my rooms and looked towards my bed and saw something lying on it; a dress-from the Night Court, a pair of silk slippers and a crown that sat atop a black velvet cushion. I sucked in a breath between my teeth as I saw the note that lay with it, with a pen lying beside it this time. I quickly shoved all of this in the closet, delicately so’s not to damage the crown or rumple the exquisite dress. I shoved the note into one of the drawers of my desk, and reminded myself that later, later I would send Rhys a reply asking him why in hell he would send these here when anyone, any member of this court could have walked in and saw what was blatantly a Queen’s crown and dress, worse, an enemies crown and dress.

I quickly remembered to grab a shawl that I came into retrieve and rushed outside into the hall where Lucien was still leaning on the wall. He nodded his head towards the stairwell to indicate which way we would go. We walked in comfortable silence, down the stairs, and then out of the manor completely. We carried on walking in silence until we reached the spot in the gardens that was farthest away from the manor and the space that also happened to be surrounded by hedges that towered around us, when he gently grabbed my elbow, silently asking me to stop. He looked around as if to be sure that there no one else was around.

“I know what you are, who you are.” He said, not a question, but a statement. I stared back at him with an innocent expression as if to say I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Lucien started again, “I’m not afraid of you, I won’t tell them, him.” I waited for him to finish what he desperately wanted to say. “I want to help you. Help you with… whatever these plans you have been scheming.”

I didn’t say anything, I stayed silent, calculating the risk of telling Lucien-my friend of my plans. Lucien stared at me incredulously while i was still debating.

“Please,” that word clanged through me, “Please, Feyre, I want out of this court. It’s not right what they’re doing here.” He didn’t need to say their names for me to understand-Ianthe and Tamlin, planning for the arrival of Hybern’s forces. “I want to see her… my mate.” his voice, so vunerable, at this my eyes softened.

I may have been stupid, but the way my friend looked at me, he reminded me of myself in a way. Trapped in a place he no longer wanted to be, I refused to keep him here, I wouldn’t let him break-break like I did. So I told him everything, what I planned to reveal tonight.

After I was finished I looked at him and I could see that he understood, understood why I came back here. As he turned his back to me to walk to the manor, I said “One last thing Lucien,” It had taken me a while to accept his actions, but “I forgive you. I know you had tried, and I forgive you.”

I recieved a small smile from him, he nodded his thanks but his eyes still seemed to say sorry, sorry for not trying harder to save me.
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Once I returned to my rooms, I slid the lock home on my door so no one could disturb me. I pulled the note out from my drawer, and read my mate’s writing. For my Queen, I wish I was there to see how delicious you look.
I blushed, how was my mate able to make me blush when he was on the other side of Prythian? I wrote back to him, Anyone could have walked in and saw this lying on my bed. before the note could vanish I quickly wrote I wish you could see me too.
Within seconds the note had returned with the words Have you missed my irresistable touch? I sat there, and i could imagine the smirk that was across his face as he wrote that.
Prick. I watched the note vanish, back to my mate.

I stood and headed towards the closet, which held my Night Court attire. I first pulled out the gown, it was a blue black colour which sparkled like the night sky, and it had a plunging neckline. I carefully put it on, and I was hit by smells of my home, of Rhys that clung to it, and I embraced that small comfort. Next I slipped on the black silk slippers, and I once again felt comfortable, wearing the clothes I adored so much. I sat before my vanity, using the tricks Mor taught me by darkening my lashes and sweeping a line of kohl at the outer corner of each eye. I painted my full lips a bloodred colour, almost identical to the shade of Amren’s drink of choice-Lamb’s blood. I arranged my hair into loose curls, and sweeped some away from my face with combs that were near invisible in my hair.

Finally I stood up and walked over to the chest of drawers I’d set my crown upon. I stared at it for a moment, at the sheer beauty of it, the power it seemed to exude, and I thought about how once something like this would have scared me, but not anymore-I embraced it, the power, I knew it wasn’t something to run from, to hide from. I picked it up and delicately placed it upon my head. I took long, elegant strides towards to mirror, and glanced at myself, and after so many months, I finally recognised myself, and I felt beautiful.
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I slipped into Tamlin’s mind, and looked through his eyes to see Ianthe and Lucien loundging across the settee in front of him. Once i knew where they were, I winnowed to them bringing the darkness, the shadows and the stars along with me.

I stared each and every one of them in the eyes, and turned the corners of my mouth into a small, cruel smile that I knew could terrify even the strongest warriors. “It seems as though the High Lady of the Night Court has infiltrated your walls.”

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So this is part 2 I guess? I want to thank everyone who read, liked and/or reblogged part 1, it meant a lot to me! I’m not a confident writer so it did mean a lot, thank you. I hoped you enjoyed this part as well :)
Also I’m not sure howto link part one, so if someone could help me out that would be appreciated lol

Eric.

I guess I gotta get this out of the way, so happy birthday, asshole. I hope you’ve finished rotting and settled into some comfortable void of existence. I hope you figured it all out by now, sorted out all that manic god-complex shit or whatever. I’m glad you’re not around to see the world like it is. I’m sure you would’ve been pleased with the steady crumbling of humanity. I’m glad you died when you did. Not really with the events leading up to it, but since you died then, you couldn’t go on to reign terror on all of the central United States. If you weren’t so bright, I’m sure you would’ve bottomed out and landed somewhere dark and dirty and dead after awhile, driving slowburn, aching terror into everyone around you.

I guess this analysis of you isn’t fair; I never knew you. No one did. We like to think we did. You’re kind of a legend around here; an iconic being frozen youthful and damned in the snapshot of America. I’m sure you would’ve gloated in all the attention you’re still getting, nearly twenty years after the dust settled.

I’m grappling with two polarizing views of you. I’m clutching them both and trying to be okay with it. On one hand, you were a cold-blooded bastard son, a murderer more profound on several levels. You were a ruthless, psychotic being with empty eyes and a soul ripped to shreds. You were worthy of nothing less than eternal damnation.

On the other, I know you were a child, a teenager, a son. A friend, student, a warm supporter. People loved you, you had people you loved. You were a person. I hate knowing that. It’s so easy to just screw our eyes shut tight and chant over and over again that you were a monster, that you couldn’t be worth any affection, that you couldn’t possibly process it or show that to anyone else.Go to hell, go to hell, go to hell. We don’t let each other humanize you, as if you weren’t a human at all.

I still don’t know which perspective is right. I still don’t know which one I want to believe more.

You killed people, but you killed yourself the same way. There’s a very fine line between your mental illness and your actions and how far it can justify it all. All of us are still trying to figure you out. We won’t ever fully understand you.

I don’t know how the idea of something so unimaginable and hellish could reside in a human heart, capable of charity and honesty and love and tenderness. It shouldn’t seem possible.

In the end, Eric, I’m curious. You left the world with so much mystery in shards of glass and bullet holes. I wonder if you’ve grown at all after being dead. I wonder if by now you could’ve peeled off that toxic, malicious persona and healed. It’s been eighteen years since you last laid your eyes on us, but we haven’t stopped staring into you. I hope by rotting you learned your goddamned lesson.

I don’t think dead guys get birthday wishes. So I wish, on your behalf, that your soul somewhere has matured and understood the impact you’ve made on the world. In the end, I guess you got what you wanted. No one will ever forget you.