reasons for being alive

Meta Post: How did Shiro get his scar?

So a few days ago I did a post about Shiro’s prosthetic arm and the response was amazing! Many of you also showed interest in me doing one on Shiro’s scar as well, so here we are. This one took me a lot longer to make because it’s not as cut-and-dry as the arm. There’s a lot of variables and speculation. We can’t really know for sure what DID happen, but we can most likely deduce what DIDN’T happen. (WARNING–I’m going to discuss some graphic stuff, blood/gore/injuries, etc. So be aware.)

In this post we’ll go through the possibilities and see which ones are the most likely to occur. There will be one numbered point per general option, and I will narrow them down to the ones I think could happen. I would love for you to share your thoughts on the matter! At one point most of us, myself included, assumed Shiro got the scar on his face during battle, so this brings us to the first option:

1. The scar is the result of a sword or other blade swipe during battle

Let’s take a look at what would have to happen for this option to be the case. There’s an easy way to visualize this in 10 seconds or less.

Keep reading

The “Lug isn’t real” theory

It’s come to my attention that people haven’t heard about the Lug discourse, so I figured I’d make a post highlighting what exactly was going on with this! Warning: I’m pro-existence, so I may be a bit biased

What is this all about?

There’s a popular theory going around that suggests Lug does not actually exist, because:

  • She is never directly addressed
  • Only Anode seems to respond to her
  • All her lines could be taken out without changing the narrative in any way (apart from her scenes with just Anode, of course)

The theories around how exactly this happened (so far):

  • Lug has always been fake, an imaginary friend
  • Lug is a ghost
  • Lug is the ghost of the protoform Anode killed
  • Lug died in that first scene with the necrobot
  • Lug died in that first scene with the necrobot and Anode is suffering from time sickness and imagining her

Of course, there are reasons to imagine her being alive. Such as:

I won’t shame you if you think Lug doesn’t exist; in fact, I would love to hear all your thoughts on the subject!

#lugisreal

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I wanted to do something with my life. I wanted to help people. Not, necessarily, as a zombie psychic who eats murder victim brains, but still, I so nailed it today. I’ve spent five months bemoaning all that was taken from me. It never occurred to me that I’d have something to give. A way to contribute. A reason for being not alive. (iZombie, 1x01)

me: yeah i quite like yuri on ice i’m not like obsessed with it tho

me lowkey: *stands up* don’t stop us now *screaming* the moment of truth *punches a hole in the wall* wE WERE BORN TO MAKE HISTORY *kicks down a door* WE’LL MAKE IT HAPPEN *headbutts the person next to me* WE’LL TURN IT AROUND *sets fire to my house* YES WE WERE BORN TO MAKE HISTORY

Why is no one talking about the fact that Credence Barebone literally cheated Death for more than ten years.

Why is no one talking about Graves saying “The child is dying, Credence” while talking about the Obscurus.

Why is no one talking about Credence’s power being so strong that it’s the only reason he’s still alive?

Why is he still alive?

And more importantly, how much time does he have left?

Every child with an Obscurial is dead. Credence is an Obscurus, and Credence is not dead, but he should be. Is he living on borrowed time? Will it catch up to him? Has the attack led by the Aurors on him weakened him? If so, how much? What if he’s clinging to life by a thread? Does he need saving and if yes, then how to save him?

Gakuen Bungou Stray Dogs 2017 Character Profile and Q&A

i’m so excited for this new anime! the visuals look great and i can’t wait uwu

(i’m not an active part of bungou fandom, but i saw this on twitter and i decided to try my hand at it! also can someone please let this grandma know how to put this all under a read more, that would be much appreciated)

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Our spring is still young and a little painful! The return of Bungou Seishun Graffitti! 

Nakajima Atsushi
A very normal high school student except for the fact that his white hair stands out. He became a member of the Armed School Council (as an assistant) due to certain reasons and helps solve fights at school. According to Dazai, he’s “a man of love and justice”.

Dazai Osamu
A mysterious young man who’s tall and has disheveled hair. He’s the secretary of the Armed Student Council, but never does any paperwork. His hobby is committing suicide. Because he keeps going in and out of the hospital, his real age is unknown.

Oda Sakunosuke
A student teacher who was assigned to the school. It seems like he’s acquainted with Dazai, but the details are a mystery. His usual breakfast is Canadian bacon and scrambled eggs. His favorite food is mixed curry.

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke
Known as “Prince of the Infirmary”. He wears a frilly piece of cloth around his neck, but even he doesn’t know what it’s called. Since he coughs often, he’s frequently in the infirmary.

Nakahara Chuuya
A delinquent transfer student who wears a black hat and knows about Dazai’s past. His hat was confiscated on the first day of his transfer because it was against the school’s dress code. Short.

Sakaguchi Ango
A prefect who’s trademark is his glasses. He doubts if Atsushi’s white hair is natural. Known as “Professor[-like] Glasses”.

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Question 1 - Please introduce yourself.

Atsushi: My name is Nakajima Atsushi. Other than the fact that my white hair stands out, I’m just another normal high schooler. I became a member of the Armed Student Council because of certain reasons. My favorite food is chazuke! Being alive is such a wonderful thing. It’s another new day after you sleep and wake up, and you get to eat! 

… Um, my hair is actually natural?

Dazai: Introduce myself? A self introduction… what do you want to know about me? My name? It’s Dazai Osamu. I’m the secretary of the Armed Student Council, though paperwork is rather annoying. I spend my days looking for good ways to commit suicide. Since I’m always in and out of the hospital, I’ve had to repeat the school year for a number of times… 

Hmm? What is it? So… you’re curious about my age. I’ll leave that to your imagination.

Akutagawa: I am Akutagawa. I am a mere high school student who learns at school and lives on the streets. I suffer from a respiratorial disease, so I unwittingly spend half of my time at the school infirmary. I know more about the arrangement of the medicine cabinet than the school nurse. I am greatly troubled by the fact that someone has started calling me by the nickname “Prince of the Infirmary”. I would like to ruthlessly get rid of useless hindrances and people who create needless havoc, but at this point in time there are no such people for me to get rid of at school.

… That frilly thing on my lapel? I know not of it’s name.

Chuuya: Aa? Why the hell do I have to introduce myself. It’s damn annoying. 

… Ugh! Fine! I just gotta do it, right?! I’m Nakahara Chuuya. It pains me to say this, but I have something like an unfortunate acquintance with that asshole Dazai. That hat that I like… is at home right now. Like hell I’m letting the school confiscate it because it goes against the dress code!

My height…? If you treasure your life then you sure as hell better not say any more than that.

Ango: I’m Sakaguchi Ango from Class 3B. My height is 178cm, and my weight is 62kg. I am currently appointed as a school prefect. It seems like the recent transfer student has a very striking hair color. He claims that it’s natural, but whether or not that’s true…

Pardon me? … Wait, this is a mole. It’s not dirt.

Odasaku: A self-introduction? My name’s Oda Sakunosuke. My friends call me Odasaku. I’ve been assigned to this school as a student teacher, and I teach Literature. I don’t think it’s anything particularly worth mentioning… Is this enough [for a self-introduction]? Ah right, I eat curry rice three times a week. It’s not that I like it specifically, it’s just a habit of mine. The curry rice that I eat has vegtables that would melt in your mouth and beef tendon that’s been stir-fried with garlic. It tastes light. I cook that with an excellent blend of spices, then mix it all up with a lot of rice. I eat it with eggs and sauce.

… Hmm? Dazai? Dazai is… 

Aa, sorry looks like it’s time for the staff meeting. We’ll talk more about that later.

Question 2 - Tell us your favorite class.

Atsushi: My best subject is Physical Education! Today we had a joint-PE class with Dazai-san and the others, but Akutagawa had to leave for the infirmary in the middle, and Nakahara-san picked a fight with Dazai-san, then Dazai-san disappeared all of a sudden… It’s a pity it didn’t seem like a Physical Education class anymore. It’d be great if I could do sports properly next time…

My favorite subject is probably Literature. I don’t really understand some of the more difficult things, but I’m happy that I get to read a lot of books!

Dazai: I don’t particularly like class. I already know these things without having to be taught, so why do I have to go out of my way to be locked up in a small room just for that. It’s not even a good way to kill time. Especially Physical Education, since it’s still so cold during this time of the year that I’d rather sleep in the infirmary. But Akutagawa-kun’s there in the infirmary… and Yosano-sensei would find out that I’m skipping class. Kunikida-kun would start nagging at me too.

But during joint-PE class today I passed by Odasaku. That wasn’t bad.

Akutagawa: Due to the fact that I spend half of the school year in the infirmary, I lack enough information to form a proper opinion of my likes and dislikes of the classes. In general, I don’t dislike any of the classes. Though I’m rather stumped over the calculation of definite integrals [in mathematics], I’m satisfied with the classes overall. 

I would like to join swimming classes once.

Chuuya: … Class? Not interested. It’s just that I can’t stand to be worse than that asshole Dazai. Even though that jerk’s literally just a bandage attachment, his brains piss me off…

That’s why it’s not a matter of liking or disliking it. This is a showdown between me and Dazai. And if it’s a fight then there’s no way I’m falling behind. That’s all there is to it.

Ango: I don’t really understand the point of this question. To like or dislike it, I’ve never thought of class from that point of view. It’s because class is something you’re always supposed to attend. It’d be troublesome to constantly skip class the way Dazai does. Ah yes… to be good or bad at it, if it’s from that perspective then I understand. Anyone would have a tendency to score well or score badly in particular subjects.

Naturally I don’t have any subjects that I’m bad at.

Odasaku: My favorite class? I’ve never thought about it. I don’t decide to do things based on whether I like something or not. For most things in general at least. I’m a teacher, and since teaching is a job where it’s required for me to conduct classes, then that applies even more. If we’re just talking about likes and dislikes, then I don’t dislike my job as a teacher. Though I don’t look like it.

Speaking of, I passed by Dazai on campus today. It seemed like he’s actually attending class for once, though I wonder how long he intends on staying a high schooler.

Question 3 - Please tell us what you had for dinner tonight.

Atsushi: I had chicken chazuke today! Umeboshi topped with shredded nori, and also yesterday’s leftover chicken. When you take a bite of that together with hot soup and the little strips of konbu floating on top… that’s the best! Every day I get to eat, go to school, and work for the Armed Student Council even though it’s a little tough. I’ll work hard tomorrow as well!

Ah… um, I really have to go talk to Sakaguchi-san… He probably won’t believe me even if I tell him that my hair’s natural. I’ll go ask Dazai-san for advice…

Dazai: Hm…. How annoying. If Odasaku’s there then I’ll have to properly go to school, so I might as well go to sleep. But I’m hungry… But since we had Physical Education today I’m exhausted… And I hate having to boil water. I want my food to come to me…

Hey fooooood – cooooooome –

Akutagawa: Western-style food. I designed a menu that considers nuitritional value and prioritizes nourishment to the respiratorial system. However, as I do not have a large appetite, I do not consume very much.

I hate mikans, but I occasionally crave some after meals.

Chuuya: Boiled spinach with mitsuba and miso soup. The ingredients [for the miso soup] are tofu and green onion. And grilled fish. And rice. Then I might as well make the side dishes for tomorrow’s bento. That fucking Dazai always steals from my bento…

I’ll definitely make him cry tomorrow.

Ango: Since I have to prepare the paperwork that’s due for submission, I don’t really have time to cook. When this happens I eat energy bars that I bought from the drugstore with other nuitritional suppliments… 

Haa… I’d like to have a warm meal.

Also, Nakajima Atsushi-kun. Let’s have a proper talk tomorrow.

Odasaku: I was gonna go with curry but I’ve already had that yesterday. I made nikujaga today. I was thinking about things while making it so I made a bit too much. There are a lot of things to think about in this world, and whatever you think about wouldn’t necessarily come to a good conclusion. Since it can’t be helped, I brought the extras to Dazai’s place. He probably thought that preparing a meal was too troublesome and was rolling around on his bed anyway. Dazai’s been living next door for a while now. Hopefully he found the food before it got cold.

I’ll see you tomorrow then. Don’t be late because you stayed up all night.

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if you thought akutagawa’s answers sound weird, it was deliberate because he is literally an old man and hey, it’s april fool’s. hope y’all enjoyed this and lmk if i messed up anything o/

tiger-warrior  asked:

If you hate heavy rain's story, what about Indigo prophecy or Beyond two souls?

Heavy Rain is the best Quantic Dream game in terms of gameplay and story. Heavy Rain is awful in terms of gameplay and story.

Everyone has already criticized the “you can’t die” aspect of Beyond Two Souls and the for-no-reason non sequential storytelling, so I won’t bother too much there.

Indigo Prophecy splits up the gameplay between a man trying to escape from the police and the police hunting him down. This is a problem. Why wouldn’t the player want to sabotage the police’s attempts to track down Lucas?  The player wants him to succeed… or they wouldn’t have gotten far enough in the game to be able to control the police. It’s like playing a game of cops and robbers where you’re both the cop and the robber. It doesn’t make sense, and I’ll bet that a good fraction of the players did try to sabotage the cops.

Also Indigo Prophecy is one of the worst stories I’ve ever heard, ever. A story about a man who is literally possessed to murder someone and must get away becomes a game about… I honestly have no idea. Eventually there’s a Mayan doomsday cult and a mute girl who is like… a living personification of the internet, or something? Then at some point Lucas falls off of a rollercoaster and dies. But it’s okay, because he’s alive for some reason. And then despite being a zombie, he has sex with one of the police officers who tried to track him down. And she gets pregnant. Also, the temperature gets so cold that it would kill most people just like how Heavy Rain has a city that gets more rain in a week than the entirety of Hawaii get in a month because Quantic Dreams doesn’t know how numbers work. In their next game, someone is going to lose like 100 liters of blood at once because “the higher the numbers, the more tension there is”

100 reasons NOT to kill yourself

1. we would miss you.
2. it’s not worth the regret. either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. it does get better. believe it or not it will eventually get better. sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. there’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5. there is always a reason to live. it might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. so many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. you ARE worth it. don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. you are amazing.
9. a time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. you will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. because things always get better.
10. what about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? what about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? you can’t do them when you’re dead.
11. i love you. even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
12. you won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
13. killing yourself is never worth it. you’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. there are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. you’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. how do you think your family would feel? would it improve their lives if you died?
17. you’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again.
19. you’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. listening to incredibly loud music.
21. being alive is just really good.
22. not being alive is really bad.
23. finding your soulmate.
24. red pandas
25. going to diners at three in the morning.
26. really soft pillows.
27. eating pizza in neww york city.
28. proving people wrong with your success.
29. watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. being able to help other people.
32. bonfires.
33. sitting on rooftops.
34. sweing every single country in the world.
35. going on roadtrips.
36. you might win the lottery someday.
37. listening to music on a record player.
38. going to the top of the eiffel tower.
39. taking really cool pictures.
40. literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. hearing crazy stories.
42. telling crazy stories.
43. eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. more harry potter books could come out, you never know.
45. travelling to another planet someday.
46. having an underwater house.
47. randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. trampolines.
50. think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
51. think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke.
52. tour survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. people do care.
54. treehouses.
55. hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse.
55. snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees.
56. i don’t even know you and i love you.
57. i don’t even know you and i care about you.
58. because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. you won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. starbucks.
62. hugs.
63. stargazing.
64. you have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
65. you’ve changed somebody’s life.
66. now you could change the world.
67. you will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
68. no matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. you have the chance to save somebody’s life.
70. if you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. making snow angels.
72. making snowmen.
73. snowball fights.
74. life is what you make of it.
75. everybody has a talent.
76. laughing until you cry.
77. having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. the world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
79.its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. be yourself, don’t take anyone’s sh*t, and never let them take you alive.
81. heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. be your own hero.
82. heing happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. it means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. one day your smile will be real.
84. having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. eating crazy food.
88. staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. sleeping in all day.
90. creating something you’re proud of.
91. you can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit.
92. being able to meet your internet friends!
93. tea/coffee/hot chocolate.
94. team starkid.
95. cuddling under the stars.
96. being stupid in public because you just can.
97. if you are reading this then you are alive! is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years.
99. people care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. but, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen!

& if that isn’t enough:

-depression hotline: 1-630-482-9696
-suicide hotline: 1-800-784-8433
-lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
-trevor project: 1-866-488-7386
-sexuality support: 1-800-246-7743
-eating disorders hotline: 1-847-831-3438
-rape and sexual assault: 1-800-656-4673
-grief support: 1-650-321-5272
-runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
-exhale: ater abortion hotline/pro-voice: 1-866-4394253
-child abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK HELPLINES:
-samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090
e-mail jo@samaritans.org
-childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111
-mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393
e-mail: info@mind.org.uk
-mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463
legal@mind.org.uk
-b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open mon-fri 10.30am-8.30pm and saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk
-b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open mon-fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, saturday 1pm-7pm)
-cruse bereavement care: 08444779400
e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk
-frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600
-drinkline: 0800 9178282
-rape crisis england & wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm)
e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk
-rape crisis scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight
-india self harm hotline: 00 08001006614
-india suicide helpline: 022-27546669
-kids help phone (canada): 1-800-668-6868, free and available 24/7

SUICIDE HOTLINES;
-argentina: 54-0223-493-0430
-australia: 13-11-14
-austria: 01-713-3374
-barbados: 429-9999
-belgium: 106
-botswana: 391-1270
-brazil: 21-233-9191
-china: 852-2382-0000
(hong kong: 2389-2222)
-costa Rica: 606-253-5439
-croatia: 01-4833-888
-cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67
-czech republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908
-denmark: 70-201-201
-egypt: 762-1602
-estonia: 6-558-088
-finland: 040-5032199
-france: 01-45-39-4000
-germany: 0800-181-0721
-greece: 1018
-guatemala: 502-234-1239
-holland: 0900-0767
-honduras: 504-237-3623
-hungary: 06-80-820-111
-iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90
-israel: 09-8892333
-italy: 06-705-4444
-japan: 3-5286-9090
-latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292
-malaysia: 03-756-8144
(singapore: 1-800-221-4444)
-mexico: 525-510-2550
-netherlands: 0900-0767
-new zealand: 4-473-9739
-new guinea: 675-326-0011
-nicaragua: 505-268-6171
-norway: 47-815-33-300
-philippines: 02-896-9191
-poland: 52-70-000
-portugal: 239-72-10-10
-russia: 8-20-222-82-10
-spain: 91-459-00-50
-south africa: 0861-322-322
-south korea: 2-715-8600
-sweden: 031-711-2400
-switzerland: 143
-taiwan: 0800-788-995
-thailand: 02-249-9977
-trinidad and tobago: 868-645-2800
-ukraine: 0487-327715

just in case you’re having a hard time.

stay strong.

I hope someone makes a list of all Aloy’s little comments about…well, pretty much EVERYTHING. Cause they’re half the reason she feels alive as a character.

“So much for being careful!” When she’s scapering down a steep hillside.

“Snow, white as bone. Heh, that thought got dark.”

I swear she took a good hit from a Ravagers claws once and said, “I’m gonna feel That in the morning. If I survive.”

1x03 was bullshit

I’m sorry but drugging, handcuffing, and threatening a stupid ass teenage boy is not girl power. It’s literally the dumbest thing ever that people are trying to justify a boy writing down who he’s slept with being reason enough to drug him and threaten to “boil him alive” and then proceed to push his head under the water. What those boys did wasn’t cool, but neither was what Betty did. I did not feel empowered as a woman. I felt uncomfortable and ashamed. That wasn’t justice, that was vengeance. It was vindictive and creepy and cruel. I get that they did it to exhibit and further introduce Betty’s mental issues and instability, but fuck, stop glorifying what she did. Just because a show talks about feminism (purely because they know that teenage girls will eat that shit up by the way) doesn’t mean it’s being represented in the right way. I myself am a huge advocate for feminism, but tonight’s reaction to the show was disappointing. The end result, them getting kicked off of the team, great, awesome, perfect. They deserve it. But threatening their lives is too much. And it’s fine that the threatening was in the show. It’s fiction and who cares? It was a great way to show how fucked up Betty is, but glorifying it like it was totally reasonable is absolutely absurd.

Sherlock Vday challenge: Day 9

Sherlock x reader

Am I the only one who noticed how much Sherlock seems to spend most of his time being stangled? Like, does he love this or something? Or maybe it’s the only real way to kill him? ‘Cause we’re proven he won’t die of a fall, nor from a gunshot so…. Anyway…

So I’m kind of late for this one but yeah… here’s yesterday’s prompt for @prettyxlittlexwriter​‘s Sherlock Valentine’s day challenge. I might try to do the one for today later this evening. Today’s Yesterday’s prompt was “Yes. But I’ll never admit it.” And as per usual, thanks to @prettyxlittlexwriter​ for the ending, I seriously sucks at writing those x)

If any of you wants to read more of these, or try the challenge with us, check for the tag #Sherlock VDay Challenge. There will be every kind of fics, from inserts to ships, both from 2 lists, a general one and a smutty one.

Anyway, Enjoy!


Air. He needed air. Quickly. His lungs were crying, screaming for the much needed oxygen, as the cold fingers were tightly wrapped around his neck, choking him. Desperately trying to free himself from his aggressor, who had tackled him on the ground and was now on top of him, the man tried to call for his friends, but no sound could leave his throat.

“Oh stop doing this will ya?” whispered the strangler, leaning over him. “It would be over quicker if you just let me do my job…”

Everything was darkening around the poor man, as he tried to remember how exactly he had ended up in such a predicament.

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“I got it!”

Sherlock’s face lit up as he finally found the solution to the difficult case he had been working on lately.

“Oh! You’re still alive? I was starting to think you had died.” Deadpanned his friend, who was laying on the couch, reading.

The detective had spent the whole day in this state, simply staring in front of him, deeply lost in his mind palace. Of course he had thrown everyone out of the flat with the exception of dear Y/N. The only person whose presence would never trouble him.

“So, who’s the killer?” asked the woman, sitting correctly as she placed the book on the coffee table. “It’s the one with the dog, isn’t it?”

He smiled.

“Not at all dear Y/N, not at all.”

“Then it’s the mailman? The cook? The gardener? The father maybe?” tried his friend.

“No, no, no and no.” he answered and then extended a hand to her.

“Then who is it?” she sighed, handing him his mobile.

“You’ll see when we catch him.” told the detective, texting.

“Sherlock. Please tell me you remember the day…” pondered the woman.

“Hum… February 14th if I recall, why?”

“You are kidding, right? We’ve got a date tonight Holmes! How could you not remember it?!” she exclaimed.

“Don’t worry Y/N, will be back right in time, I swear. We will catch him in no time, John will meet us there, are you coming?” insisted the dark-haired man.

“What if we get injured? Or worst, killed?!” she objected.

“It won’t happen, trust me. And what would you do anyway, staying here all by yourself? It’s way more fun to go on a chase and you know it.” Retorted the man, blue eyes shimmering with excitation.

“I guess I don’t exactly have a choice…” sighed the woman, following him out of the flat.

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And as soon as they arrived, the killer took them by surprise with his accomplices. John was currently battling with a man twice his size, and Y/N was trying to push away the one with the small knife.

The world was blurry around Sherlock, his heart beat fastened as he rolled on the ground with the man, weakly trying to unwrap the long and pale fingers around his neck before he would run short of air for good.

“Y/N! John!” he tried to scream, his hoarse voice barely above a whisper.

“Tut tut tut Mr. Holmes. There is no need to call for your friends… Besides,” he turned his head to them, “they’re far too busy to hear you…”

His head was spinning, his throat aching, everything seemed farther and farther from him. The pain was horrible, inhuman, the abyss was calling for him, the temptation to give up and definitely close his eyes, powerful.

BANG.

All of a sudden, the man on top of him fell limp, as the pressing from his fingers stopped. Coughing, Sherlock stayed on the ground, trying to understand what was happening.

“Sherlock!” exclaimed Y/N, holding a gun, the man with the knife now on the ground, either knocked out or dead. “Oh God please, don’t tell me I shot you!”

She ran to him as John finally got rid of the last criminal, knocking him on the ground too. She knelt down beside Sherlock and pushed the body off him, giving the detective a concern look.

“Are you alright?”

“I’m fine.” He told her in a raucous voice, still trying to catch his breath.

“I told you this was a bad idea Sherlock, but as always, you didn’t listen to me! You’d be dead if I chose not to come! You are an idiot Holmes!”

“Am I?”

“You know you are.”

“I’m with Y/N on this one.” Laughed John.

“… I might be, yes. But I’ll never admit it.”

She rose on her feet and offered him a hand, rolling her eyes.

“Lestrade is already on his way.” Said John. “Next step?”

“Dinner.” Answered Sherlock, giving a look to Y/N. “I swore we’d be in time.”

“Sherlock, you were nearly just killed!” John exclaimed.

“All the more reason to celebrate being alive,” Sherlock said, reaching for his girl. He pressed a quick kiss to her lips. “Besides,” he said, pulling away, “I fear that if I cancel this date, I might not survive my next brush with attempted murder.”

“He’s not wrong,” Y/N joked. “I bought a new dress and everything.”

John rolled his eyes and shook his head, but decided to let this one go. They were alive, they were happy and it was Valentine’s Day. There was little more he could ask for.

Let me tell you about being lonely. Humans are a social species; we rely on connections to survive. Even the most basic social interactions help keep us alive. And let me tell you, there’s all kinds of ways to feel lonely.

I’m not talking the garden variety lonely-in-a-crowd lonely. That’s everyone, every day. And it’s not that when-will-I-find-love kind of lonely, or that the-popular-kids-are-mean-to-me kind of lonely. Popular kids are always mean—that’s how they get popular. I know, ironic, old news.

The kind of lonely I’m talking about is when you feel like you’ve got nothing left. Nothing. And no one. Like you’re drowning, and no one will throw you a line. When you’re that kind of lonely, you reach for anything, no matter how silly it may seem.
—  Hannah Baker, 13 Reasons Why