Imagine being the Winchesters' friend and falling back into old habits after Zachariah told you Castiel no longer loved you.
“You are nothing but a maggot inside a worm’s ass. Do you really think someone as important as Castiel would ever love you?”
Zachariah’s words floated around your head for the millionth time today. The glowing blue necklace around your neck couldn’t even distract you from the angel’s words. Maybe he was right. Maybe Castiel didn’t love you.
Castiel is the only reason you’re alive, and even the Winchester’s know that. He came to you in your time of weakness and showed you where to find the light at the end of the tunnel again. He pulled you from the edge multiple times. You had him to thank for the beating of your heart. For a while, life was good up until now.
“Y/n?” The familiar voice brought you back from the depths of your thoughts just in time before the tears came falling. Quickly, you jerked your sleeves down to hide the pain from the night before. If Castiel saw…it’d break him. “What are you doing? Are you okay?”
“What? Of course I’m okay,” you smiled, but your words didn’t add up with your appearance. Sitting on the edge of your bed dazing off while your eyes were in a dead stare at the ground didn’t seem too okay. Even an angel with no experience with human emotion could see that.
“Why didn’t you tell me you made it back home?” he asked.
You shrugged. “Figured you didn’t care.”
His ocean blue eyes faded to a dark stormy sea. “Y/n, what are you talking about? I thought we were in what you humans called a relationship?”
“We are,” you scoffed, “but-”
“I don’t think you love me.” There. It was out. There was no taking it back.
The angel’s head cocked to the side in confusion and shock. For the first time in a very long time, he felt the true pain of sadness. The heartbreak of love. “Why do you think that? I thought I clarified that you are the only human that has ever made me feel this way.”
“But why? Why do you love me! I am nothing but a maggot inside a worm’s ass and you are actually someone…someone that is needed…You, Castiel, have a purpose. I do not. I am a poor excuse of a human being.” Hearing those words in the air once again caused the damns to break. Staring your lover in the eyes, tears fell onto the floor where the two of you danced on your anniversary night.
“Why say such terrible lies about yourself?”
“They aren’t lies-”
“Yes they are, Y/n,” Castiel insured. His tone was one not to be argued with. Hearing you say something so awful about yourself caused Cas’s blood to boil to the point of snapping. “I love you, and I am sure of that. You mean more to me than I could ever imagine. I thought all humans were horrible creatures until I met you. You showed me that there is still hope for this Earth!” He stepped forward only to wipe away a tear that was making its way down your streaked cheek. “You are important. You are needed. You are loved. Without you…I’m nothing. Don’t you understand that?”
“But, Zachariah said-”
“Forget what he said. Listen to what I’m saying. I fell for you. I burned in the fiery pits of hell for you…but I’d do it all again."
Requested by @heirofthejedi