Summary: It’s been 4 years since the love of Bucky’s life died a horrible death in the hands of Hydra. He has slowly moved on, forming a new relationship with Natasha and his heart has started to heal. The Avengers are dispatched on a mission only to discover that Y/N was never truly dead. Y/N returns into Bucky’s life but she is no longer the same woman he fell in love with. Bucky is forced to make choices between the woman that he loved and the woman he is falling in love with.
Author’s notes: This chapter is just flashbacks mostly. Just to get a better understanding of what happened in the past. Let me know what you guys think!
Natasha tossed and turned, trying to drown out
the screaming coming from Bucky’s room. She knew it was none of her business
and she was never close to him, but she knew how much he loved Y/N and how hard
he took it when she died. After a couple more hours of hearing Bucky’s night
terrors, Natasha found her way to Bucky’s room. She could see his shirtless
body on top of the covers, his body was covered with sweat and his flesh hand
was handcuffed to the bedframe. Natasha cautiously crawled onto his bed and
woke him up.
“Y/N?” Bucky looked at Natasha, still half
“Shhhh. Go back to sleep Bucky.” Natasha rubbed
his back slowly, like what Y/N used to do.
“Y/N. I thought I lost you. I was so scared.”
Bucky, convinced that the dark figure above him was Y/N, wrapped his arm around
“It’s ok Bucky, I’m here.” Natasha cooed. Ever
since that night, Natasha came into Bucky’s bed and pretended to be Y/N to calm
his nightmares. Bucky seemed to not remember what happened the next day, so she
kept doing it, until he woke up one night and found her sleeping on his bed. Their
dynamic changed from then on and they started to see each other as more than
Bucky loved Natasha, he really did. He adored
her strong will and her relentless need to make sure that he was happy, but it
was never a love that took over his heart. His love for Natasha could never
trump his love for Y/N. He tried, but no matter what happened he always found
himself thinking about Y/N. Maybe he could never love anyone as much as he
loved Y/N, maybe Y/N was his peak. But he did everything he could for Natasha.
Showering her with love and giving her gifts after every mission. But it was all
to compensate for the guilt he felt for never loving her with his full heart.
Natasha knew she was living in Y/N’s shadow.
How could she compare against her? Y/N was beautiful and innocent, like a real-life
Disney princess. It saddened her, seeing Bucky’s face when Y/N’s name was
mentioned, or when he accidentally says Y/N’s name when they make love. Natasha
let it all go because she knew that eventually, Y/N would become a distant
memory to Bucky and that their love for one another would eventually overpower
his love for her. Eventually, Bucky would love her more than he loved Y/N.
4 YEARS AGO
Y/N woke up sore and bleeding all over. She
laid face first in the sand, her hands cut open from the trip through the
monolith. As she stood up, her head started to spin. She was in a desert, with
nothing but sand dunes for miles and HYDRA had given her nothing to survive on.
She can’t remember how many hours she walked in the scorching heat, but she
accepted her death has she felt her body weaken with dehydration and her legs
buckling from exhaustion.
Mr. Hyde’s men found her lying in the sand in a
pool of her own blood. They hauled her onto the back of their horse and took
care of her until she was strong enough to walk on her own. She thought it was
a blessing, until one of them men got injured and she used her powers to heal
him, to show her gratitude for saving her. Their dynamic changed then. The men
had found a girl with extraordinary abilities, she was not longer just a
helpless girl lost in the desert, she became an asset to Hyde’s gang.
They tied her hands with rope and pulled her
along with them like a dog on a leash. She walked for 3 day until they reached
the basecamp, and then she was presented to Hyde, like an offering. Hyde liked Y/N
right away, she was beautiful and there was a sense of innocence about her that
he was attracted to. Mr. Hyde had always taken pleasure to turning innocent
people into self-hating monsters, that was his specialty. But Y/N was different,
she wasn’t afraid of Hyde at first and she stood up for herself despite his
threats. Maybe it was Stockholm syndrome, but the two of them formed an
Y/N escaped when Hyde forced her to marry him.
She declined his proposal and he got angry. He had turned into the monster they
said he was, she was forced into a wedding dress and forced to sleep with him.
Despite claiming to love her, she knew that Hyde only wanted to impregnate her,
so that he could have a son as an heir. When she got pregnant, she was afraid
for her child’s life. She didn’t want her son to grow up with hate and god
forbid if she had a girl, she didn’t want her daughter to be traded and sold
like playing cards. Y/N didn’t see any other option but to stab herself in the
stomach, to protect the child and herself. It broke her soul, she was never the
same person since then. Hyde, in his anger, locked Y/N up and forced the
doctors to experiment on her. He wanted to make her stronger and expand her
abilities because he believed that his future heir would gain the abilities she
has. She escaped two weeks later and developed an immunity to fire She’s been
running from Hyde ever since, afraid of his anger.
Y/N stood in the flames, like a phoenix who had
been reborn. Everyone was still engrossed in the scene before them that they
didn’t notice Natasha pointing a gun towards Y/N. Bucky was the first one to
see the bullet fly through the air and head straight towards Y/N’s head. As he
screamed for Y/N to get down, Natasha was pinned down to the ground by SHIELD
agents and put into handcuffs. Flames built a wall around Y/N’s naked form,
melting the bullet as it passed through. With a sign of relief, Bucky made his
way towards Y/N and she stepped out of the flames. He covered her with his
jacket and took her to the Avengers compound via quinjet.
“I know who you are!” Natasha yelled as Y/N
looked back at her with horror.
You guysssss. What do you think Natasha knows? Who is Y/N? Are you team Natasha or team Y/N? Let me know! And tags are always open!
part 1 of: i love this fandom and you guys make me emotional
Everyone is being so sweet and adorable and emotional today and I just felt like I should add my valentine’s sugar to it too.
I got this blog almost two years ago, not coincidentally when I moved to Texas with just my boyfriend, from Florida from where I had spent my entire life in. I was very alone and since I’m not the coolest of cats, making friends has been…extremely difficult lol.
But getting this blog, and joining this fandom, I’ve really found myself looking forward to come home and see who’s posting on the dash, see who’s chosen to grace me with their follow, or who’s left me a tumblr message (remember, before the IM system haha).
@sinuyasha and @inukag were the first people to welcome me and reblog my writing and just became my overall points of contact for anything fandom related. I felt accepted and wanted and this was the only corner of the entire internet I could really call home. I can’t thank them enough for always being genuine and kind and beautifully forgiving ladies. On top of the fact they’re funny and gorgeous so I really lucked out befriending them. I owe my entire blog to them, and my activity, and my heart.
Later on I’d come to meet my squad, @kristicles@thequeenwillruletheboard@narkik@mirsan and @ohstarfire, and grow an overwhelmingly wonderful bond. I mean dudes, we went to Disney AND Universal Studios together. I’m pretty much married to them. (Which does mean you guys have to give me half your shit in case of divorce). I’m keeping it short for ya’ll cause I don’t care about you at all (I would set fire to myself if you thought for one second that was true). You are my people. You are my shots of whiskey in the dark.
To the fandom:
I really would have never expected to feel love radiating from some of you towards me. I feel in my heart I don’t even deserve it. I have done nothing (or everything wrong). And you guys posting your fics and your art, and your edits, and all you’re LOVE and you’re FRIENDSHIP, it holds no value because it is PRICELESS. But I feel it towards all of you. I get it. It’s weird it’s unheard of maybe for a small anime fandom, but I FEEL IT. I love you guys. I would never want a single one of you to leave, or if you do have to leave, just please stay in touch. Please keep updating your fanfiction.nets, please keep updating your artwork online when finished, I just…
If you’ve been in this fandom for the past year, you get it. And it almost feels like we’ve all collectively been through some drama here and there together. I’ve made mistakes, I regret getting involved in things all the time, but I appreciate every single one of you who hasn’t deleted me from their life. I appreciate how I can still turn around and count on you guys to be there for me. And I will always be there for you. I love that after a giant cloud of darkness shrouded us, freaking @inuyashapositivity pops up like a ray of sunshine. We are an amazing incredible wonderful fandom and we are loud and vibrant and beautiful.
@onikik, @little-known-artist@wreathoflaurels, @arnavsinghraizada, @gobodosama, @artistefish@meselfandwhy, @inuijiness @starzki@scribefigaro@smilebomber@kaze-ranna@412rebelled@hanmajoerin@ashcanvas (SHHHH…ASHLEY I DIDN’T JUST ADD YOU THIS MORNING BECAUSE I HAD A BRAIN FART LAST NIGHT…ILY) you guys have seen me at my worst and for some inexpiable reason you’re still my friends and I respect and admire you so so much. I really can’t put into words properly, but my respect for you is something that can and will never vanish. I consider you guys a huge reason why I enjoy the Inuyasha fandom as much as I do. I’m comfortable around you guys and I hope you feel the same way around me. I love you guys, and I would do anything for you. I’d end someone’s life for you. I’d jump into battle for you. I’d throw all my money at your face if I knew it would make you happy. Thank you for being my friends. Really. You are my inner-circle, and without you, I am just a square.
I’ve met some new people in the past year, who maybe I don’t talk to but I feel like I’ve gotten to know more simply through the small interactions we have, and whom I’m so so so happy joined tumblr to grace us with their content, their presence, and their overall humor and love and joy.
@grapefruitwannabe, I remember I was in a stream with you and someone was urging you to post your sketches and you were reluctant about it, and god now look at you. Your art is incredible. It’s unique, it has a style, it has movement. You give a tremendous amount to the fandom and you never ask for anything in return. You are so nice too? You know how rare it is to find kind people who are just the sweetest creatures ever? You are a precious cupcake too good for this earth, and we so blessed to have you.
@sess-kik I knew from the moment you made the taylor swift/kanye west meme, that I regretted not being considered one of your friends. You are fucking oustanding. You are hilarious. You make my ribs hurt. You are like a baby beyonce. I mean that. Picture yourself as beyonce’s’ child because that’s how I view you.
@justafewsmallsteps you know what’s crazy is that I followed and admired you from afar for so so so long. I am a huge fan. I mean. HUGE. I mean, ridiculously huge. I mean I may have printed out your art and have it stored in my cabinet so I can look at sometimes because I was that (maybe i still am idk) obsessed with your work, and to find out you are a shining ball of sunlight and positivity and love and friendliness. You know…what that feels like ? It’s like meeting a Disney Princess in real life.
@coquinespike HAHA LOOK SOMEONE TAGGED YOU AGAIN. I’M SORRY. Listen I actually always see you in my notes. I always read your tags cause they’re fucking hilarious. Your comments on things are A+. I don’t know why I didn’t start following you sooner. I am an idiot, what else is new. Cheers to the future.
@keichanz what took you so long to join tumblr, i keep asking myself this question. EVERYONE KNOWS THE KEIZ FROM FF.NET. You are always supporting InuKag and the fandom and there’s a lot of bloggers that I know would not be the same without your presence. I see names all the time that were just quiet little daisies, and you watered those plants and now look at them. You’ve inspired so many people, and you are always just so generous and so loving. Thank you for writing, thank you for participating in events, thank you for being the oil in the inukag gears. Quite literally.
@lovely-taijiya GABY. DID YOU KNOW THAT I THINK ABOUT YOU ALMOST EVERY DAY. Okay well. Now you do. I get so happy when I see your art on my dash. I get full of butterflies and good feelings. If you were around I would hug you constantly and hold you close to my heart, because you deserve unnerving amounts of love.
@kag-san you are a gift granted to us by the gods. you are an angel. you are a walking living breathing version of the virgin mary and I would weep at your feet if i could because I think you deserve everything in life and more. Trust me when I say the people who ship things, make me ship things harder. And this candle for KagSan is now a torch and it’s setting my house on fire but I couldn’t be happier.
@piggy-in-pink you are like Sesshomaru. And by that I mean you are silent and we may cross paths and look at each other and I would be totally fine with you killing me because I admire you just that much. But no honestly, you are wise and clever and I love your work and your existence a lot. Thanks for never changing your url also, it makes life so much easier. (TAKE NOTES PEOPLE)
@mmhinman I remember the first time I went to your blog. You submitted a bunch of wonderful art for InuKag week late, and it blew my mind. I couldn’t believe someone would submit SO LATE but also have it be SO QUALITY. Haha. Your art brings me life, and I can’t thank my lucky stars enough that fate pushed you my way and onto my dash. Thank you thank you thank you.
@macabre-and-cheese you know that really cool girl in the lunch room who sits with her posse, and is immensely more awesome than you and dates all the attractive people, and knows all the cool songs and she could say “frosty” once and it becomes a meme catchphrase, okay yeah, you know that person? that’s you. on my dash. that’s you. I’m always like “if i reblog this onto my personal, my personal blog gets that much cooler” and I think I have 80 followers on my personal blog now and I owe that all to your and your coolness i swear to god I do.
@kago-make-dean-some-pie YOUR URL IS SO LONG. EXPLAIN IT TO ME. I love that I’ve gotten to know you better and your AMVs are the bomb dot com. You are so willing to make others feel amazing and wonderful and I hope you feel that way every single day of your life. You are so down to earth and I love you very much.
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