reading at school

Help with getting a diagnosis

I’m 24 and in law school, and I need help. The majority of the daily assignments are approximately 40 pages of reading per class (and then discussing the readings in socratic lectures), often adding up to 80+ pages plus other assignments and studying. I have a HORRIBLE time trying to focus on the readings. I’ll begin reading, but my mind wanders somewhere else, even if I’ve eliminated all distractions. I’m frustrated with myself constantly because I catch myself not focusing and have to redirect myself, but even then I might read a sentence over and over and not comprehend a word. When I can manage to focus, I can understand the reading assignments easily, but it can take me hours to get through even ten pages because I just can’t consistently focus. I’m frustrated, my brain is getting fried, I’m struggling to meet deadlines, I hardly have time to actually study because I’m spending so much time just trying to do the basic reading assignments… I’m really worried.

I went to my campus psychology center to get tested for ADHD. They found my IQ is high, so I’m capable of understanding the materials, although I displayed a processing speed much lower than my other IQ category scores. On the ADHD tests, I scored average, low, or borderline, but the scores apparently weren’t low enough to be considered for an ADHD diagnosis. Furthermore, I don’t remember my childhood well, but I’ve been told I was a very well behaved child with no obvious behavior issues. The center interviewed my mother to see if she knew more, but she reported I was literally a perfect child (which is likely influenced by an unhealthy attachment to her children and a variety of her own mental illnesses and disabilities). I was told I do not have ADHD, but am just studying ineffectively, and was given campus resources to learn better study skills.

After weeks of vigorous (obsessive) research, I feel pretty convinced that I have primarily inattentive ADHD. Looking back, I can see what look to me to be signs all along: never paying attention in class; constant fidgeting habits all my life; dislike of reading because it’s difficult to focus on; erratic train of thought; difficulty paying attention when someone speaks to me; and when I reached a level of academics in late high school and undergraduate college that I could no longer pass without paying attention, I struggled immensely to learn better study skills and get through assignments, taking hours to do an assignment that would take others much less time to do. I have a lot of good coping skills, which I believe helped me remain successful in life and academics up to this point (using a planner religiously, finding ways to switch tasks a lot so I’m not bored, giving myself study breaks, etc.), but now that my academic career hinges on being able to do long, often boring reading assignments, I’m struggling a lot…

I know this is long and very personal, and I’m sorry for that. I hope it’s not repetitive of someone else’s ask; I looked through the tags and didn’t see anything similar. I see a therapist for anxiety and depression already, but she has been out of town for weeks, and I intend to talk to her about it when she returns, but right now I’m so consumed with anxiety and frustration over this issue that it’s even harder for me to focus on the work I need to be getting done. I would really like some guidance, if anyone is willing to help. Am I just self-diagnosing incorrectly? If my experience sounds like it could actually be ADHD, what can I do? I don’t have a lot of money to spend to go to lots of different providers looking for help, but I’m desperate. Are there any tips for managing the kind of issue I’m struggling with?

Any help at all would be greatly appreciated!! Thank you!

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I am wondering if audio recordings of the readings would help you with that part.

Followers, do you have any other ideas?

-J

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today was so good!! i really liked how my makeup turned out this morning.

ALSO the 2 kiddos that i read to every thursday on my lunch break made THANK YOU CARDS for me!!! and it melted my heart in a lil puddle.

kinda funny when english teachers say stuff like “i can tell if you didnt read the book” or “i can tell when people bs their paper”

no you cant.  you can tell when people are bad at bs-ing their paper.  i didnt even read the sparknotes and i barely skimmed the wikipedia and you gave me an A.  you kneel before my throne unaware that it was born of lies

Saturday, July 22nd, 2017 


Here are some of the very best apps for students; either in highschool or in college. I have used many of the following apps, but not all of them. Some, I have just asked friends about and they suggested those ones. 

Please enjoy the apps below, tell me how you like them, and feel free to add onto this list :)


  • Focus: SelfControl, Forest, MindNode, FocusBooster, FocusWriter, Think, StayFocused, Freedom, Cold Turkey, Anti-Social, Time Out, SmartBreak, Balanced


  • Productivity: Evernote, Any.do, MyScript Nebo, Outlook, Trello, Droptask, Basecamp, Pocket, Gyst, Doodle, Pen and Paper, Wunderlist, Toggl, Asana, Wolfram Alpha


  • Sounds: Tide, WhiteNoise, Chroma Doze, Coffitivity, Noisli, Brain.fm, NatureSpace, Noizio, Rainy Mood, SimplyNoise, Spotify, Slacker Radio 


  • Language Learning: Duolingo, Memrise, Busuu, Babbel, Livemocha, Living Language, Tandem, MindSnacks


  • Games: Lumosity, Sudoku, TanZen, GeoMaster Plus HD, Speed Anatomy, Star Walk, LeafSnap, Splice: Tree of Life, Vismory, Pigments, Viridi, Sunshine, Nota


  • Revision: Gojimo, Revision App, iMindMap, Exam Countdown, Penultimate, Clippet


  • Test Prep: Khan Academy, Magoosh ACT Flashcards, The Grading Game, Math Brain Booster, ACCUPLACER Study App, CK-12, NRICH, StudySync, Quizlet, StudyAce, That Quiz, Brilliant, Synap


  • Planner: Timeful, Remember the Milk, Listastic, Finish, 2Do, iStudiez Pro, MyHomework Student Planner, My Study Life, ClassManager, MyLifeOrganized, Daily Agenda, Schedule Planner, Todoist


  • Writing: EasyBib, ProWritingAid, Bubbl.us, WiseMapping, yWriter5, Storybook, Q10, Write 2 Lite, Writer, Diaro, Note Everything, OmmWriter, Draft


  • Health: MyFitnessPal, Lose It, Endomondo, FitNet, Sworkit, Daily Yoga, Yonder, Fooducate, SideChef, Rise, LifeSum, Meditation Studio, Happify, 7 Cups, Clue, Start, Power Nap App, Fit Radio, Calm


  • Courses: Corsera, PhotoMath, Udemy, HowCast, SimpleMind+, Open Culture, Canvas, Schoology, Alison, CourseBuffet, Degreed, Instructables, InstaNerd, Big Think, Yousician, Pianu 


  • Books & Reading: CampusBooks, Scribd, Pocket, Wattpad, GoodReads, Readmill, Audible, Prizmo, Blio, Kindle, Overdrive, BlueFire Reader, Nook, Kobo, Aldiko, Cool Reader


  • Note Taking: SuperNotes, StudyBlue, Bento, QuickOffice, Google Keep, Zoho Notebook, Simplenote, Bear, OneNote, Box Notes, Dynalist.io, Squid, Notability 


  • Inspiration: TED, Lift, Believe It: You Will Achieve, BrainCourage, Get Inspired, iFundamentals, Reinventing Yourself, iWish, Pozify, Positive Thinking - The Key to Happiness, The Gratitude Journal 


  • Other: WiFi Finder, Mint, Zwoor, Brain Pump, Curiosity, Ready4 SAT, GradeProof, edX, Mendeley, Due, CamScanner, IFTTT, Square Cash
Classic Books List

“Why read the classics? A classic is a book that has never finished saying what it has to say.” These are a few recommendations, books everyone should read. Don’t let yourself be convinced they are good: read and decide for yourself!

(no particular order intended)

  • Don Quixote - Miguel de Cervantes
  • The Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
  • North and South - Elizabeth Gaskell
  • Hard Times - Charles Dickens
  • The Karamazov Brothers - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
  • Wuthering Heights - Emily Brontë
  • The Waves - Virginia Woolf
  • Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
  • Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
  • Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
  • Hamlet - William Shakespeare
  • Richard II - William Shakespeare
  • Little Women - Louisa Alcott
  • The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • The Picture of Dorian Gray - Oscar Wilde
  • Emma - Jane Austen
  • Anna Karenina - Liev Tolstói
  • Jane Eyre - Charlotte Brontë
  • Romeo and Juliet - William Shakespeare
  • The Age of Innocence - Edith Wharton 
  • Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
  • Lord of The Flies - William Golding
  • One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel García Márquez
  • Persuasion - Jane Austen
  • War and Peace - Liev Tolstói
  • Macbeth - William Shakespeare
  • The Tell-Tale Heart - Edgar Allan Poe
  • Dracula - Bram Stoker
  • The Facts in the Case of M. Valdemar - Edgar Allan Poe
  • Frankenstein - Mary Shelley
  • The Metamorphosis - Franz Kafka 
  • Moby Dick - Herman Melville
  • Mrs. Dalloway - Virginia Woolf
  • King Lear - William Shakespeare
  • The Fountainhead - Ayn Rand
  • Nineteen Eighty-Four - George Orwell
  • Jean Barois - Roger Martin du Gard
  • Wives and Daughters - Elizabeth Gaskell
  • Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
  • To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
  • The Catcher in the Rye - J. D. Salinger
  • Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
ways to stay productive in summer-

1. learn a new language-

ah, all the time in the world we all have during summer! currently, i’m trying to learn Italian, which isn’t too hard because my first language was Spanish. if you all want a different post on how i got started tell me!

2. start a bullet journal-

with no school in your schedule, you have time to make your bullet journal as complicated or as simple as you’d like. i recently bought a journal and used it as a bujo. i love it!

3. practice your handwriting-

i know many people hate their own handwriting, but how are you going to like it if you don’t practice! i’ve changed my handwriting completely this summer. if you guys want a post about it let me know.

4. make a studyblr/blog-

that’s what i did! i’ve started my studyblr, instagram, and blog (all are linked on my tumblr page ;) )

5. practice calligraphy-

i’ve learned how to do calligraphy with Crayola markers. it’s very easy once you get the hang of it. There are plenty of tutorials online.

6. clean your room-

it’s a great time to clean your room! i know when it’s the school year i never have time to be cleaning my room. you can do a deep decluttering because you probabaly haven’t in a while…

7. DO YOUR SUMMER HOMEWORK-

please for the love of god, do! your! summer! homework! if! you! have! it! i finished my summer homework a couple weeks ago, but my friends still haven’t started. i’m saving their butts by helping them with it. i know plenty of people are going to start doing it two days before school starts. please don’t be one of those people.

8.read!-

i know a lot of people don’t like to read but maybe with your summer boredom you’ll get so bored that you’ll want to read? currently, i’m reading Lord of Shadows by Cassandra Clare.

9. try to prepare for the upcoming school year-

look up your classes and research about them. it’s good to start preparing for what you’re going to learn. it helps so when you go over those subjects in class, you can excel in it ;)

10. relax-

this is summer. your free time. relax and get ready for another stressful school year <3

I love staring at my bookshelves. Not because of the aesthetic, but because there’s so many stories, worlds, characters, and places that are full of love, heartbreak, and real emotions and at any moment I can take the dive into any one and immerse myself in the words.

  • Slytherin: There's this really great show I think you should check out!
  • Ravenclaw: Okay, I will.
  • Slytherin: *three years later* Oh, did you like that show by the way?
  • Ravenclaw: Oh, I haven't started it yet.
  • Slytherin: Are you fucking kidding me?

Signs having an existential

Sits with their head in their hand, staring off into space, their life plays on rewind behind their eyes: Virgo, Cancer, Libra, Gemini

Has deep revelations as they think about why they’re eating ice cream at 2am on a school night: Sagittarius, Leo, Aquarius, Taurus, Capricorn

Screams into the void while running around in the dark and questions all their life decisions: Pisces, Scorpio, Aries