being an anxious person means trying to be in control all the time. unfortunately, we can’t control every single thing that happens in our lives and that drive us mad. there is, though, something we can control and it’s our reaction to a bad situation and how we try to make the best of it. remember, it won’t get better unless you make it better.
i run on adrenaline and anger and when i’m done, when i don’t have anything left to give, i feel completely dried out, empty and useless. like a star that has given up shining because no one bothers to look up at the sky anymore.
We feel an overwhelming sense of loss because we have created a genuine connection to someone that makes us emotionally attached to the relationship.
This someone became your emotional comfort, and now, you cannot be comforted by him anymore because he’s the source of your sadness and pain. You don’t know who you will run to because you made him your entire world. You become emotionally attached and dependent. This someone made a huge impact on your life, and you used to live most of your life with him.
Break ups are like losing a piece of your identity. You feel it’s still within you, but it no longer exists. The absence of the relationship and everything in between will become a strong memory to you. It will haunt and kill you every single night.
It hurts because you lose the person you weren’t willing to give up just yet. You invested so much of your time, energy and emotions to that someone and all of a sudden, it’s all gone. Once upon a time, you were happy together, and now you’re not. You’re all alone again.
I want to make a mess. I want to break rules, break hearts, break plates and glasses. I want to scream into the void until my lungs ache and rip my heart out of my chest. I crave chaos so I can convince myself that what I actually want is not you.
2. I miss you.
3. Can we talk?
4. I hope I’m not annoying you.
5. I want to see you.
6. Please tell me you’re doing fine.
7. I’m worried about you.
8. Let’s listen to our favorite song.
9. Do not let other people bring you down.
10. I hope you’re truly happy.
11. I love you. I really do.
We started from 1 and I felt 11. Sometimes we do 8 with comforting silence. You used to remind me about 9. And I will always be grateful about everything we’ve had. Wherever you are, and whoever you’re with, please always remember 2, and 10.
ma.c.a // 4 but 7,3,5 and 6 : An Indirect Message From Me