read by john green

anonymous asked:

So I saw your recent reblog and so for a confession I have to ask, what's the stupidest thing you've ever done?

Oh my god, buckle yourselves in because this is ridiculous.

Basically when I was a young innocent lass of 13 years, I read that book which is so beloved by 13 year olds around the world: The Fault In Our Stars.

Anyway, I thought my parents at least knew the names of the main characters, which was my downfall.

I was at school reading it, and I got to Gus’ death. Being a dramatic child, I texted my mum saying “Gus is dead, I don’t know what to do :(”, assuming that she would realise this was a fictional character I was talking about.

She thought someone at my school was dead, I was banned from reading John Green books, and my family is still prone to asking how I’m coping without Gus.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.