Black nylon stockings
on a bitter night,
tightly wrapped around my thighs-
and a swoop neck
low enough to show
the scarred skin-
and rocks for shoes
slowing my steps to nothing-
paralyzed by that night.

And like the tare
on my left leg-
I wanted to run,
and run,
even if there was no repair
I could run from it,
from the despair.

And like the cool air
that bit and beat my transparent skin
I wanted to be invisible
but still tough-
even if it meant I could never feel
his touch again-
because maybe then I’d never know
that pain again.

And like my heavy shoes-
I wanted to be strong enough
to keep you-
to keep you away from me
even if it meant I never would know
the taste of your lips against mine
because maybe then I wouldn’t know the feeling
of your grip on my heart too.

Like the dissipating time
of tonight’s long hours,
I wish my memories of you
would disappear too.

—  SNM

a sloth dress #whatthelibrarianwore #submission

“What you’re supposed to do when you don’t like a thing is change it. If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it. Don’t complain.”
― Maya Angelou, Wouldn’t Take Nothing for My Journey Now

clogs #whatthelibrarianwore #submission via instagram: nyberlanche

“Our ability to adapt is amazing. Our ability to change isn’t quite as spectacular.”
― Lisa Lutz, The Spellmans Strike Again

high pony + bright patterns #whatthelibrarianwore #submission via instagram: lularoejessicles

“Begin at the beginning,“ the King said, very gravely, "and go on till you come to the end: then stop.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

red floral #whatthelibrarianwore #submission via instagram:lularoejessicles 

“Before I can live with other folks I’ve got to live with myself. The one thing that doesn’t abide by majority rule is a person’s conscience.”
― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird