Time to get this post out before I die hyperventilating into my “Raven Reyes” paper bag because I honestly don’t know how to deal with her anymore, but here we go. You know that moment when Raven breaks down in front of her friends and how Bellamy then calmly speaks to her to build her up again?
I didn’t know how much I needed that type of scene until I saw it to be honest - I was fully unprepared let me tell yall lmao - but now that I’ve seen it and have witnessed in which context it unfolded itself it’s honestly become one of my favorite moments in the episode, because Raven gains back her strength through the presence of all her friends in that one minute of total weakness.
Like, the writers really do love to rough it up for our characters during very critical situations, but in this particular case it’s very touching because it’s seriously not a moment created for the kicks, but the kind of moment that wants to make room for “optimism” that brings this wild set of characters even closer.
And I love how we dial down through the stress there, especially when focusing on Raven, because her breaking point is the catalyst for the unity. I absolutely could go on and on about how significant that short conversation between Bellamy and Raven is for me alone, as he inspire her the same way he inspires Clarke or the others, but I am even more affected by the fact that Raven truly isn’t able to hide herself anymore, but, as I’ve said above, works herself out of her own insecurities with the help of her friends and gains back her strength.
I mean, just look at this moment when she gradually starts to snap while standing in the middle with everyone surrounding her, watching her:
Or how she ends up so bound and buried deep inside her own fears that all she feels she can do is sit down and hate the situation she finds herself in:
It hurts and GOD I love it here, because Raven’s feelings carry the kind of realism that many can relate to, she hates failing and she hates not being able to pull things off so she puts distance between her and the issue by practically giving up. But the point of this scene as a whole is not that Raven isn’t smart enough - as she states - because she got rid of ALIE’s code in her brain. We are actually past that already. What this scene communicates on a fundamental level is that Raven comes to realize that she is not alone in this.
In fact, all of her friends are by her side:
The “We need you” line is so important for Raven (and me obviously), because it creates a very dramatic call-back to that one time when she wanted to leave camp in season one. You know that time when Finn - the boy she loved and pretty much considered her only family - couldn’t even see why she was doing certain things (like working on the bullets) and how useless she felt because of that reaction she got from him - essentially tried to shut herself completely off from everyone around her, because they, as she believed, didn’t *need* her. Bellamy though, our heart’s guy, is the one who reminds her that they do need her with intense honesty, twice - back in season one after her confrontation with Finn and now in 4x13 when she believes she is not enough.
Being faced with the full array of cards against you is one thing, Raven has been through that ever since she landed on the ground, especially thanks to Finn and how their relationship changed on earth, but actually coming to consciously develop a sense of “team culture” through emotional connection with her friends is something else for her since Raven used to have only one person to turn to and that person failed her back then. Bellamy does what Sinclair used to do. He doesn’t simply apply to Raven’s ego, instead the writer’s manage to open up a path to her heart through faith, love and understanding.
And that pushes her forward. That love she receives from Clarke, from Bellamy, hell even Murphy (4x09), that is the game changer for her in this moment. Raven loving herself and the things she’s capable of doing is otherworldly, but expanding that love and stretching it out over this little group of messy people - that’s what she really wants, not just for herself but for everyone in this lab:
So Raven goes for it. Through the presence of her friends
she not only learns as much about having people to rely on and consider a family as she can, and resolves to continue operating in a way that not only shakes everyone free - which essentially creates this sense of teamwork because there is unwavering trust radiating from every important team player here and if ALIE, a computer, can do it, so can they - but it also makes her a leader in her own right.
She’s prepared to face these obstacles with them just in time, as she’s confronted
with a more mature set of challenges with her friends - the emotional progression - and inspire everyone in the room to get back to work.
And it’s beautiful. In season one she came down for a single person, now in season four she goes up and back to space with and for all of her friends.
She’s more than just an awesome person. She’s a growing,
dynamically self-improving one, someone who is able to establish these deep connections with all of these people, who can navigate and bring in optimism as well as pragmatism, who is still in the process of learning, and will only
get better at doing what she does - not just by herself, but with her friends, her family.
friendly reminder that richard gansey was only 17 and willing to lay down his life so the rest of his friends could survive and so a demon didn’t unravel the universe and that that is an awful thing to have to think about and do at age 17
i keep meaning to make meaningful posts about other characters than just raven and murphy (and emori) right now, but i honestly can’t bring myself to do that because these two took over my heart in a way that people should’ve warned me about and i can’t escape these feelings. so, since i can’t talk about anyone else I’ve been re-watching their last scene and… i cant help but wonder how much murphy had to think about the way his and raven’s positions have switched and it’s her now who is going to die alone (up in space) - something he always dreaded - and him who is going to survive with the others.
its pretty interesting to me, because when murphy comes face to face with what raven is up to we get a very deliberate process of how he gets to that information, with the camera revealing all important pieces he needs before he even talks to her
its a pretty rough reveal in my opinion, because murphy didn’t see this coming, but now he stands there and sees raven work next to a not-real-body that wears a spacesuit… (you know, the same dummy we have seen in becca’s office that murphy was in when he repeated luna’s words to himself after his fight with raven - episode 6). he is aware of her hallucinations/interactions, but there is also the fact that he doesn’t see anyone else around her.
even at the height of the playfulness that comes with her line “tell them i floated myself” and raven hugging him goodbye it’s just a deeper hit into the heart, because again… raven chooses death and she is going to die alone.
and when he leaves he looks back
and it just hits me how symbolic the “don’t want to die alone” theme was for murphy the whole time and how now it’s raven who spirals right into it. i hope i’m not wrong about this, but i truly believe that raven’s friends will come back for her. she said it. my bibi is too awesome to leave behind. and knowing how much murphy cares for her makes me want to cry even harder.
I really love Blue Sargent because she is quirky but fun, feminine but badass, small but savage, sweet but commanding. She breaks down all these societal walls and I love her so much. Blue Sargent can sTep oN Me.
Thoughts on the bellamy/raven scene at the end of 4.13?
okay, bear with me. it’s late and my mind is not really functional past 3am but i’m going to type this up anyway, because i’m a bit (actually very) emotional.
i was super impressed by it to be honest, especially because I had no expectations as to how some of the character arcs would come around and create this full circle of growth that they underwent in the past four seasons.
there is a lot to be said about raven and bellamy themselves in that scene of course (which i will), as individuals, but its quite fascinating how these two usually develop this triangle unit with clarke too, who plays another key factor in that scene despite her absence now (yea, believe it or not but bravenlarke, narratively, comes in trio writing and that scene is no exception).
on another note, and I’m not sure if i’m the only one who actually thought of it, but the way the scene between bellamy and raven ends (before we cut to the 6 years and 7 days time jump) reminds me a lot of the scene where Finn expresses the line “Always” himself when raven, after forgiving him for the things he has done to her, tells him that they’ll always be family in season two:
the thing with finn and raven is that while this moment brings forth all of their history and makes a point about how far they have come since they landed on the ground while also showing to us that finn is indeed the only person raven has ever actually considered “family” (she is the one reaching out to him upon realizing how affected finn is by the things he has done that happen to be tied to clarke mostly, if not all), it represents the end of their journey together too, as finn decides to sacrifice himself not much later to save his friends from war.
“always” in that sense is a very short-lived moment for them as raven loses finn by the end of the episode (through clarke’s hands no less, and note that 2x08 is a very heavy bravenlarke ep as well) and has to start to find a way to live without him and deal with the fact that she couldn’t stop this from happening.
so, in one way or another you can make an observation about dysfunction in that scene since “always” (the promising aspect of the moment in itself) gets broken when finn says goodbye to raven - “may we meet again” - and gives himself over to the grounders, shredding the physical idea of “always being a family” because his sacrifice means death and death means absence. there is no emotional preparation for this from an in-universe sense, literally none of his friends see his “i’m gonna turn myself over” moment coming, you know… the turn that essentially even manages to drift many relationships apart.
with bellamy and raven we have to whole idea of “always” turned upside down:
it’s interesting to see how clarke’s “death” serves as a catalyst for this moment for sure, but it’s also important to note that bellamy is the one reaching out to raven here and not vice versa, because while i’m sure that many believe bellamy will focus on his head heavily now (with clarke gone) i feel like this scene communicates that he is starting to find balance between his heart and mind himself like clarke told him to. this is not a “i don’t know who i am anymore” moment for bellamy. in fact, he knows exactly which position he needs to take on without clarke by his side (the baton is a really nice visual touch to the whole idea of that new balance), which adds a more hopeful tone to the tragedy overall, since bellamy, even though he tried to fight against it up until it was too late, got emotionally prepared for this by clarke herself - the possibility that she could be dying on this day and that he would have to take over a complete new role without her (mix of head and heart). like, just think about how this scene unfolds and where it heads to: raven is the one questioning whether they can do this without clarke or not while bellamy is the one who happens to ground raven in that thought process and tell her why they can’t let that happen.
yes, he just lost one of the most important people in his life and he is plagued with an immense sense of guilt up until the moment he and all of his friends actually survive on the ark (when they breathe in air again), but it’s also fascinating to see that he makes that one step towards raven when he says “You with me?”. he makes room for teamwork here, room for the fact that he needs raven in this - the other part of the triangle unit - and heal. there is no point made here about “loss of control”. is bellamy affected by clarke’s “death”? absolutely, no doubt. but he is also ready to not let clarke’s death be in vain. he’s been there and has done that without her before and it made him turn to the wrong side, but now he is going to do better than he did yesterday.
and raven is not going to let clarke’s death be in vain either, but will support bellamy after this loss, because she feels the exact same thing he feels - her worldview in terms of family has expanded beyond what raven ever imagined she could have besides finn, but she has found these people and wants to work with them as much as rely on them, too. and it’s that realization she makes here for herself: they all left clarke behind in a situation that was inevitable, clarke died for them “she saved us again”. so, in retrospect, the groundwork for this moment is that the “promise” that comes with “always” brings new life into raven’s character instead of making it die down in her own hands like it once happened. when she so desperately wanted to save her “family” (e.g finn or even sinclair whom she later tells “you’re always with me” in 4x11, coming to terms with his death all by herself).
its as clarke said, survival is a team-sport. and that’s what they all did, together.
raven’s answer, in hindsight, marks down the beginning of a new
journey, not the end. while clarke literally rises from the ashes on the
ground, raven and bellamy do so in front of the window up in space when
they look down earth:
and i think that’s pretty great.
bellamy and raven survive alongside their other friends on the ark, with help from clarke, which just shows that they are all a family, even when she (clarke) is not around to physically be with them anymore. or in other words: she lives on through them the same way they live on through clarke on the ground.