Sometimes I feel really down and I feel a swelling in my skin that wasn’t there before and I’m aching all over because when I’m down, I’ve also never felt so alive because I can finally feel something more than just blades to my wrist and paper to my lips and for once, I’m sad but I know that I won’t be for long and that’s so fucking terrifying because as agonizing as it is, I’d rather feel infinite amounts of pain than finite amounts of nothing.
I need some opinions ??? Do you guys think I should cut my hair? I mean, it took me about 3 years to get it to the length it is now, but it’s so dead and idk I’m leaning towards a cute a-line cut where the back is shorter and the front is a tad longer than shoulder length???? UGH IDK HELP ;~;
I don’t think people understand the severity of anxiety sometimes. Not being able to breathe SUCKS. Not being able to attend class SUCKS. Not being able to interact with people you don’t know fucking SUCKS. Feeling your heart rate accelerate and pound out your chest until you feel like you’re dying fucking SUCKS. It really fucking sucks. It’s not a choice. People don’t wake up one morning and ASK for this. People don’t ASK for panic attacks because let me fucking tell you, if I could be completely normal, I WOULD DEFINITELY CHOOSE THAT and I would really appreciate if you were supportive af to people who are struggling through this instead of saying some bullshit “everyone gets anxious !!!! get over it !!!!” Like seriously, fuck that mentality and fuck you.