This question never ceases to exist inside my mind whenever my subjects challenge me to the highest level. I know that the road I’ve chosen is hard, REALLY hard and I have always wondered why I have picked this path.
There were countless opportunities when I was about to enter college. I was accepted to take up nursing in this university I’m in and my father really wanted me to take up that course. When enrollment day came, he really tried to change up my mind. He told me how the nursing department had so much space while enrolling was taking place unlike in the crowded engineering department wherein hundreds of students were lined up. What made me stay? The over population of unemployed nursing student graduates discouraged me and so I refused to be one. BS in Biology was in the list of my interests because I was thinking I could become a doctor or a lawyer somehow. Fashion Designing was also one of my dream course, tourism and literature too. So many choices, so many what ifs, so many things to decide and think about.
So, why did I choose engineering? Why did I choose to be one of those sleep-deprived students, those stressed-with-no-social-life-when-exams-are-on people, those intelligent-species-in-school guys? My answer is quite simple. I wanted to become an engineer. You would probably think I’m stupid, but before I stepped into college, enrolled in this course, I never really knew what to expect. I didn’t have any idea that this course would be so full of mathematics, so full of calculations and analyzations. I wasn’t equipped with knowledge of these; what burned through my veins to conquer this endeavor was my strong desire to become an engineer, to finish what I’ve entered myself into, to never fail my parents and to prove to myself that I am capable of deciding things for myself.
This reason may not be enough to some people, but it’s enough for me to keep me moving forward. I may not finish on time but I will do my best to finish what I’ve started. I will become an engineer someday. I will make my parents proud of me. I will prove to myself that I chose the right path. I will succeed in this race and when that time comes, I will be proud of myself for the very first time.