random things that go through my mind

The Reality of Getting Intimate With An Sugar Daddy for the First Time. (Part 1)

Originally posted by btvsladies

I feel like no talks about this. Social media is a cultural preference on how we only perceive the happy and successful parts of our lives. Tumblr is a wonderful example of showing off our money, bags, shoes, vacations from our Sugar Daddies. Life is just perfect, right? But what’s actually going through your mind when a Sugar Daddy gets intimate?

Are there hot sugar daddies out there? Absolutely! However, most are not for the price you want. 

Tonight I went out with Mr. Louboutin. He’s a short, older man, 48 salt and pepper hair, big nose, old man stash… Very sweet and I enjoy conversations with him. Not to mention his pay outs have been pretty good. They range from $500 per meet up (so far) but this was the first time I got intimate with him. 

1)  Acceptance. 

When you first start out as a Sugar baby, you only look for attractive guys. Then slowly but surely it turns into what you can tolerate for the money. 

When I met Mr. Louboutin I thought, yeah sure, I could fuck this guy. The conversation was there, attraction? Eh. it was okay, but for the price and what he offered? Piece of cake. 

2) Anticipation. 

When going out to dinner with an SD you’re not really attracted to, you make up all kinds of bullshit smalltalk to prolong the night so you can escape easier saying, ‘It’s getting late.”  You may also order another drink, dessert, ect.  We’ve all done this. 

Mr. Louboutin and I left the bar and he wanted to “drive me back to my car” even though it was literally a 30 step walk. I got into his car and he started driving around. I wasn’t sure what he was going to do at this point until he drove by a parking garage and said, “We could go in here for a few minutes.” Every story we went up my stomach just turned, like “Oh god… here we go.” 

3) The pep talk. 

Does anyone else do this? You give yourself a little pep talk to prepare you for what’s to come. You think about what exactly you’re going to do, what HOT GUY you’re going to think about when your eyes are closed kissing and doing things, how fast you could probably get him off and how. These were all things going through my mind. 

4) Avoidance. The fight or flight. 

There have been a couple times where I would flight. I just couldn’t and make up some random excuse not to sleep with them. This happens and it’s OKAY. 

This is where closing your eyes and picturing someone else comes into play. You try to tune out their sounds they’re making, or seeing their crusty old dick. (sorry) Since I was in the car I just kept making out with him, or if my eyes were open while getting him off with my hand, I kept my eyes on his. I swear if I would have saw his dick I would have just thrown up. 

5) The Payment 

Thank god most older guys get off pretty fast and the relief is almost what makes it all worth it. $500 for 10 minutes? Not too shabby. 

*** read Part 2 (click for link to post) with my thoughts on this. 

Oscars Red Carpet (Shawn Mendes x Reader)

Originally posted by danks-gif

« How much glamour, fame, and excitement can one red carpet take? Welcome everyone to Hollywood’s biggest night, the 89th Academy Awards, welcome everyone to the Oscars!” Robin Roberts shouted to the camera.


“Okay Y/N, here we are!” Your manager and close friend, tapped your shoulder excitedly. It was your first Oscars and first ever nomination. So, the butterflies in your stomach were definitely fluttering like mad and they have been for the past two weeks.

Your phone beeped, and you opened it to a text from Shawn.

Hey baby, I’m so sorry I can’t be there for your big night. Just know that I am so fucking proud of you and everything you’ve worked for. I’m staying up all night in Japan to watch ya.

An “aww” slipped from your mouth as you smiled.

Are you watching live?

Yep, did you get to the Dolby Theatre yet?

Yeah I’m in the car. Stepping out right now. Look out for me ;) hint: my dress is (favourite color)

Trust me, I will be. You’re going to be the most beautiful on the whole red carpet x

“Alright, time for us to go!”

You took a deep breath, fixed your hair and stepped out. The second your foot stepped on the red carpet the cameras started flashing.

You walked your way onto the carpet. Your manager’s words and instructions going through your head. Go on the carpet. Pose. Keep on walking. Then go talk to Robin.

And that’s exactly what you did.

You felt like a real princess. You walked down the carpet, slowly, your long dress trailing behind you magnificently. You smiled to the cameras, twirled, and of course; you couldn’t help but goof around a little. That’s just who you are. Spotting one of your best friends, you decided to have a little red carpet fun.

Hailee Steinfeld posed in her white dress, giving the cameras long seductive stares. Suddenly her serious expression turned into a terror-stricken one as she felt two hands clutch at her shoulders.

“OH MY GOD Y/N!” She yelled, turning around to see you. You tried your best not to let your tears of laughter slip out knowing that would ruin your makeup.

“Hiii. Don’t you look fricken fabulous?” You said to her.

“UM I can say the same about you.” She grinned.

You took a few pictures together, then carried on the red carpet, saying hi to some of your favourite actors.

Nearing Robin’s platform, you looked up at her and she spotted you grinning.

“Oh ladies and gentlemen I see Y/N Y/L/N approaching!”

You mounted the little step and hugged her.

“Hi Y/N wow this is so fun meeting you!”
“Hi hi, likewise!”

“So, first Oscars huh? Who’d you come with?”

“Oh I came here alone haha. Yeah Shawn’s in Japan and my friends got school.”

“Oh right, Shawn Mendes, you two are really Hollywood’s couple huh!”

“Well I think so.” You giggled.

“How’s it going with him?”

“It is going wonderful. I um can’t ask for more.” You gushed.

“Aww did you guys hear that, can these two get any cuter? Seriously though, do you guys ever fight?”

“Hahahaha, we do, little ones. They’ll usually be small bickers over stupid things. Like actually once, Shawn got pissed at me because I showered too long and started saying random stuff and bringing up the ecosystem haha.”

“Hahahaa. So what would he say if he was here?”

An idea came through your mind.

“Oh my god! Well actually he’s watching right now, hi babe!” You waved at the camera. “Wanna try FaceTiming him? Can we do that?” You asked the cameramen around you.

“What a fun idea! Let’s do it.”
You pulled out your phone and rang him. Surprisingly, he picked up. He was in his PJs and a Japan hoodie. He looked positively overjoyed.

“Hi babe!” You said to the phone. The cameras zoomed into the screen.

“Hi darling! How are you? You look gorgeous.”
“Thank you.” You blushed.

“HI I’M HERE TOO.” Robin popped up from behind your shoulder.

“Hi!” Shawn grinned. “So what do the Oscars red carpet look like?”

You took your phone and gave a 360 view of what was around you.

“So Shawn how does this feel like, your girlfriend being nominated for an Oscar?”

“Oh my god, it’s surreal. I’m so proud you know, each time someone says Y/N Y/L/N I can scream: She’s my girlfriend!” he said.

You chuckled.

“Alright we gotta go, text you later!”

“Bye Y/N, I love you and good luck baby. Bye Robin!”

“God you guys are too cute.” Robin said once again. “Alright let’s move on to Lara!”

The cameras zoomed away, as Robin continued to talk to you.

“You look great really.”

“Thank you so much Robin, you too!”

“So, what would winning this mean to you?”

“Oh my god, it’d mean the world. Like literally. Um, all my life I have struggled and I remember in my teen years, my dreams would seem so far you know? And just the fact of being here is a dream come true, and it proves to 15 year-old me that as long as you work you can do it. And hopefully teens will watch this and this’ll prove it to them as well.”

“Now that is a winning speech right there.” Robin smiled, touching your arm friendlily. “Well it has been awesome having you, but oh my we must be getting on the show is going to start! All the luck tonight, Y/N.”

“Thank you, so much.”

All the luck, Y/N.

Will you win the Oscar? To be continued when the show actually begins hahahaa I am writing live here!

Dances and Kissing

Summary: Archie Andrews invites you to the back-to-school dance, hoping that this is finally his opportunity to take your friendship to the next level.

Word Count: 2,150

A/N: My first Archie/Riverdale fic! I had a blast writing this out and I hope you all enjoy it just as much. Feedback would be greatly appreciated too, folks :-) 

Originally posted by dailycwriverdale

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um I don’t really know how to start this. I was sexually assaulted last Friday.

you don’t have to believe me, just listen.

last Friday, I went to a friend’s house for a party. she has a huge house and a bunch of people had come. that night, a random guy I’ve never met came up to me and asked for my number and I said no thanks. 

he proceeded to grab my ass. my immediate reaction was to slap him, so I did. he grabbed me by the waist and started dragging me into a bedroom and a bunch of things were going through my mind. what if he rapes me? what if he kills me?

he could’ve fucking killed me. my anxiety started going all over the place and it really scared me. luckily, one of my guy friends was there and quickly punched the guy and told me to run. and so I ran all the way back to my house.

the next day my entire body felt numb for ten minutes and I couldn’t get out of bed. it felt really weird. I finally got up and checked in with my guy friend to see if he was okay, he was. I checked my waist and there were a couple red marks from the guy’s hold. I started sobbing uncontrollably. I told my parents and they’re getting the guy charged for sexual assault.

so if you’re reading this and you’ve been sexually assaulted, this is the sign to tell somebody. tell your parents, teachers, guardians to let them know to do something about it. you could save lives.

this is also kind of why I’ve been out of it the past few days. I didn’t leave because this is my safe place, my home. don’t feel bad for me or look at my blog and think of me differently please, I’m still Sofia.

 and again,

if you ever see sexual assault or it happens to you, speak up.

you could save lives.

My top 10 of things Benedict Cumberbatch has been in

More like random 10 things he’s done that came to mind when I was going through all my files while compiling this list but I do love them all.

10. Starter for 10

Patrick Watts

The prettiest geek on campus.


Originally posted by shayna-winchester

9. Star Trek Into Darkness


David Letterman said to Benedict after seeing a clip of him as Khan: “No offence to the rest of the cast but you really don’t need much more than you.” I concur 100 %.

So good:

Originally posted by whenisayrunrun

8. Penguins of Madagascar

Agent Classified

Because AWESOME.

And brilliant:

Originally posted by the-bus-called-graveyard-8

7. Fortysomething

Rory Slippery

Such a cutie.

And a meeting of Sherlocks:

Originally posted by loveisastatisticalanomaly

Originally posted by kate221b

6. Cabin Pressure

Martin Crieff

Yellow car!

Oh and:

Originally posted by geraldinejuels

You’re able to enjoy the whole thing here.

5. The Hobbit Trilogy


Because he’s A BLOODY DRAGON.


Originally posted by thedreamerie

4. Third Star

James Kimberly Griffith

Because I’d go camping with Jim and Davy anytime.

3. The Imitation Game

Alan Turing

It’s just utter brilliance.

Originally posted by somewhereinfangirlsland

2. Finland

His beautiful self


I have coffee. He should’ve come here to drink my coffee. Sigh.

Originally posted by brightindie

1. Sherlock

Sherlock Holmes

No explanation needed.

But if you insist:

Originally posted by bigtimesuperwholock

Originally posted by thesecretsthatwesold

Originally posted by sherlock-holmes-fandom

Originally posted by netflixruinedmylifeimagines

Originally posted by m-o-v-i-e-land

Seventeen Reacts to: their Bi crush being sad because she found out her crush (a girl) was straight?

He would try very hard to comfort her in every way he could possibly figure out how to. Buy her anything she wants, gives her candy and probably listens to her pour her heart out.

Originally posted by mvpgyu

“Ah~ Well, I’m sure there’s another cute girl waiting for you to show up. Don’t feel bad, my crush doesn’t really like me either.”
Would comfort her in a non-awkward and actually sincere way because he’s had that happen to him before *coughseungcheolcheatedonhimwithminghaocough*

Originally posted by visual-17

He would be a little confused as to what bisexuality was but was too shy to ask questions so he’d give her hug and asked if she was honestly okay.

Originally posted by performanceunit

“So I have a chance?”
Makes it obvious he has a crush on her but wouldn’t be too flirty or try to force himself on her. Just teases and jokes around about it for a little.

Originally posted by jeonheart

He would feel so bad for her. She loved to talk about her crush and when she told him that she asked her out and was turned down, he felt crushed as well.
“She rejected us both, lets cry and watch sad movies.”

Originally posted by hanwooz

He would be a little awkward because she was crying and he didn’t really understand what she was saying through the tears. So he’d kinda just pat her head.
“It’s okay..”

Originally posted by seoten

“Aish, Vernon tried that one on me..”
Would try to cheer her up with random things that came to his mind, like joking about why Vernon said they would never be a couple. 

Originally posted by mingyiu

“Aw, no.. Let’s not be sad, lets be happy that you took a chance, yeah? You tried and she still loves you as a friend. We all go through that, let us not cry.” Hugs and cuddles her tightly

Originally posted by wonshu

“Thughao can pimp you out. We’ll find a cute girl for ya, no worries.”
Makes jokes towards her about it, not in a harsh way though.

(c-ing my way out sorry for this) 

Originally posted by jonginsbias

“Ooh, that’s rough. Wanna talk about it or are you just gonna cry and watch movies clung to my leg?”
Watched a  movie or two with her whilst eating food.

Originally posted by visual-17

He wouldn’t know what to say. He’d probably just give her a tight hug.
“I’m sorry that happened to you.”

Originally posted by wonnhao

Oh you bias wrecker whore slut bag get outta here before i dIE 

Gives her flowers, food and tissues.
“I hope it’s not awkward between you guys after this..”

Originally posted by hanwooz

He would do anything with her that she wanted to make her feel better.
“She turned you down though? Was she at least nice about it?”

Originally posted by 12fools

2017 things: Random crying jags as you gradually come to terms with the reality of living during a Nazi resurgence, a fascistic government, another Cold War, and climate change destroying entire countries in, like, 3 weeks. And then you realize you are somehow going to have to figure out how to live in a world where things like “nuclear hurricane” are said in total seriousness.

Day6 Reaction: Grabbing their crotch.

Requested: ➵ Yes, by Anonymous.

a/n: I’m sorry this was really bad because I didn’t know what to write necessarily but I tried my best. Please request more of Day6! Whether it is a a scenario, fake texts, or reactions, i’ll write it :)


Originally posted by jaetime

I feel like Sungjin would be extremely confused as to why you grabbed him, because it was just random and out of just complete nowhere. He’d ask you about it, honestly. He’d be slightly embarrassed, especially if the boys were in the dorms while you had did it.

“(y/n)? what was that?The boys could have seen, you know?”


Originally posted by jaechicken

“Wait what?”  would be the first thing that would go through his mind. He would be minding his own business, going through his day like normal, when you came over and kissed him, grabbing his crotch lightly and winking before walking out of the room. He would look to you, then to his pants, then back to you.

“Did that…did that just happen?”

Young K:

Originally posted by hotlinekpop

lowkey takes it as a compliment. It would just be a regular day and Young K was laying on the couch, watching tv, when you stood in front of him, crawling on top of him and grabbing his crotch on the way. At first, he’d be surprised by your sudden action, but then he’d get the message you were trying to tell him and would pick you up, taking you to the bedroom.

“I guess you can’t resist me, huh~?”


Originally posted by ismilemp3

Would be extremely surprised and flustered that you just grabbed  him like that. No warning, no reason, just suddenly grabbing him while you walked by. Later on, he’d probably ask Jae or Dowoon why this happened, only to get a laugh from the two and teasing him for not getting what you were trying to imply to him.

“*Gif* She just walked right by and did it! I didn’t know what to do, so I kind of ignored it! “


Originally posted by helloday6

He would sip his tea like nothing happened. You two were in the middle of eating with the boys, out in a restaurant, when you suddenly put your hand on his leg. He would’ve thought nothing of it, until your hand trailed up slowly and then soon your hand was directly on his crotch. He’d choke up slightly, but continue to drink his tea like nothing was happening. Though, he’d lecture you about it when he got home, since Sungjin was sitting right on the other side of him.

“Sungjin would’ve killed both of us if he saw that! Probably would’ve lectured us about pda, too.”

I’ve been posting as a studyblr for about two weeks now but never made an introduction post as a studyblr(though I made one as a random blog )
Hi I’m Van and I’m 15 and sophomore in highschool. I live somewhere in the east but I’m not mentioning where as this is an anonymous blog and van is not even my real name.
▪I am bilingual.
▪I am trying to learn japanese and I insanely love japan
▪I love cute stationary
▪the studyblr community brings out my productive side
▪I’m a vampette and also a fan of 5sos
▪My celebrity Crush Is James McVey guitarist of the the Vamps (google him he is the cutest)
▪I’m single
▪i’m in the bts army(this unusual but rapmon is my fave )
▪I love biology and want to be a doctor.
▪I am filled with randomness so don’t mind if I post some not-so-studyblr stuff. Enjoy it take a break
▪I am going through a depressing phase rn
▪I love coffee( I can see everyone nodding there heads on this or rushing to make some)
▪I love making friends
▪I am tryna learn guitar and also in the process of writing a novel.
That’s enough I think I should stop or I’ll bore you all(maybe I can make a 101 things about me post😂)
Some of my fave studyblrs-
@emmastudies @athenastudying @studywithinspo @cjm-otstudies @studying-chan @juliasacads @athxnasdaughtxr @charstudiess @haileymostudies @journalsanctuary @legallychic @pennyfynotes @rhubarbstudies @studynapz @solsticestudies @thewritersblock707 Sorry if I missed someone I love you all Also lots of love to all the 25 awesome bloggers who are following me I appreciate you support💙💙 (Van say your byes now you have babbled enough) BYE!!

My cousin has young twins, both assigned female at birth, one who started dressing exclusively in pants and sports jerseys or t-shirts a few years back. My cousin was supportive of the choice, not knowing if it was just to be different instead of one of two twins, or emulating their older brother, or what, but not caring. Despite living in the mid-west, being part of a very religious community (and being religious herself), and often getting accused of child abuse, my cousin stood strong, knowing the real abuse would be forcing any of her children to wear something that made them uncomfortable. In even formal photos or fancy church outfits, she has one child dolled up in as many bows and frills as the little girl could get away with, and the other two children are in neat khakis with handsome button-downs. She called her youngest her little princess and her little firefighter because that’s what they loved to pretend to be the most. This morning she told me her firefighter asked to be called a boy, which didn’t come as a surprise to my cousin at all. She had been posting videos lately of kids like Jazz and Ryland, perhaps in preparation for this moment. In her email she was asking when I knew I was gay, asking the difference between being a lesbian and being a transkid, etc. We’ll continue to have an open dialogue about I’m sure, but my favorite thing she said so far is: “So much to learn to help my baby navigate through this life.” I told her that the fact that this was her approach to everything, that instead of shrugging it off or ignoring it or hoping it was a phase, she was actively researching, reaching out to people whose children went through similar things, etc, makes her the very best parent for this kid. I’m just so proud that my family has grown to be so open minded and loving as the generations go on and more and more of us end up falling on the LGBT spectrum.

raptorsofthegalaxy  asked:

For your prompt thing, can I ask for Marty Scurll with 8 & 27 (if you can do two numbers)? 😊

“I don’t need you anymore”, “I wish I’d never met you” ___________________________________

There had been a tension building between the two of you. He was rising to fame and leaving you behind, or so that’s what you were choosing to believe. The voice in the back of your head was convinced of it though. You had been traveling together for the past month.

Everyone thought of the two of you as inseparable. You even put your college degree on hold to travel with him and help him live out his dream of stardom.

You never held a single doubt with him when you first met. The connection was fierce and passionate. You swore to yourself from the beginning that he was worth the time. He was worth the sacrifices, but as time went on you were the only one making the effort for this relationship. You even wondered if he knew all the small and large things you did. A day didn’t go by that you put him before yourself.

You were standing backstage reading through a random article on your phone enjoying the silence around you. Your mind was constantly flooded with thoughts of confronting him or just disappearing. You never thought a love once so pure could turn as sour as this had become.

“Babe, I need my umbrella” You snapped out of your thoughts morphing into the persona you used to tolerate his requests.

“Here” You went over to reach behind his bag, picking up the umbrella behind the bag and handing it to him.

“Hey..what’s wrong?” You sucked in a breath cursing in your head over and over that you let your true emotions slip into play.

“I’m just tired and registration for classes are coming up” You shrugged, faking a smile.

“You think too much” He smiled, shaking his head at you. “See you in a bit”

You didn’t even bother to wish him luck or lean in for a kiss. He made no effort to try either.

The two of you were just going through the motions avoiding the change you knew was evidently coming. Shoving your phone into your pocket you stretched out over the couch surprised by how fast sleep took you over.

“Babycakes” You heard the familiar voice pulling you out of your slumber.

“Marty..really” You whined rubbing your eyes, rolling onto your side to face him.

“I have a title shot coming up, but it’s the same time you need to be home” He was smiling that charming smile that got you to agree to anything, but something in that nap changed you. The realizations of what you needed outweighing what you’d do for him.

“I’m going back to school,” You said sternly. “You know how bad I’ve wanted to go back”

“Don’t you want to be here when I win the title? It’s everything we’ve wanted” It used to be everything the both of you wanted, but all of your dreams were put on hold to grant his. He was self-consumed in his desire to wear gold.

“Are you forgetting that I have my own dreams too?” You sat up, frowning. You were waiting for him to brush it off and go back to what he wanted.

“I need you here with me. I need you to be here when I win” He placed his hands on your knees. “Can’t school wait for another year?”

You leaned back giving him a look that had to be cruel as his face contorted into confusion.

“I don’t need you anymore” You croaked out through a sob that came out as suddenly as the sentence. All of the build up and tension had broke. You broke. “You’re so selfish” You shoved his hands away to stand up and gather your things.

“Excuse me?” You could hear the surprise in his voice. He was as taken back by your words as you were speaking them. “Why are you running off all of a sudden?”

“Because I can’t live just for you! I gave you everything! I gave my life for you! FOR YOU!” You shouted through the tears letting the emotions combust out.

“Sweetie..hey, hey” He came over to you trying to pull you into a hug. “We can talk this out”

“No..no!” You sighed, rubbing your face blending the tears into your skin. “Can you think of the last time you sacrificed for me? When you put me first?” You stared at him giving him a moment to pick out a memory he could only pull from over a year ago.

“It’s been a while, but we can still make up for that?” He was still gaining on you trying to wrap you in his arms.

“After you get the title? Hmm?” You held your hands out creating a barrier to keep him at bay.

“Baby…” He sighed dropping his arms simply looking at you.

“I-I can’t do this anymore. My needs and my passions should be appreciated as much as yours. We aren’t a team anymore…it’s all Marty all the time” You sighed heavily zipping up your bag, ready to leave, ready to move on.

“You can’t be serious!” He was getting desperate. “Is this about the marriage talk we had? You know I’m not the type..”

“Stop” You could feel the dagger in your chest still there since the first time he told you marriage was never in the cards. “I wish you could see why I’m leaving”

“You don’t mean that!” He was in shock. He couldn’t comprehend what was happening.

“I wish I had the will to do this sooner” You shook your head, heading towards the door. “I just…” You had to say it. It would be the nail in the coffin. “I wish I’d never met you”

At a Crossroad

Summary: He wasn’t offered the same deal as Dean; to torture souls in exchange for being taken off the rack. No, his deal was a little different.
Characters: Crowley, Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, & Y/N [mentioned]
Word Count: 1508
Warnings: Angst… seriously.
Author’s Note: I can’t even apologize for this.

Originally posted by sunrisejared

“You can do whatever you want, Crowley. Hell, dig her up, burn her while you’re at it. But, you leave her soul alone,” Sam threatened the demon, the self-titled king of Hell.

Crowley smirked, shoving thick-fingered hands deep into his pockets as his eyes flashed crimson. “Whatever I want, Samantha?”

Squaring his shoulders and balling his hands into fists, Sam towered over Crowley. “Anything. As long as you swear-”

“To leave Y/N alone. I got it.” Crimson bled away, leaving dark eyes to roam over every inch of the looming hunter. “You sure about this? There’s no turning back, no second chances. Nothing. Once it’s done-”

“Do it.”

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Vertical sleeve gastrectomy - 4months post op

Okay so I am a little more than four months post op and I know I’ve been posting some progress pix but I guess I haven’t talked much about my experiences. I think a big part of that is because 1. I talk to a group of girls on whatsapp so we’re constantly talking about experiences and 2. I feel like my life is pretty much …normal? So I guess I don’t have much to say. But I mean there has been major changes and shit I’ve learned so I will randomly name a few in this post based on personal experiences. Tips, tricks, notes to self, etc.

- I can eat more now than the first month post op. There are less gas pains and I also eat pretty much normal speed.

-I still cannot drink and eat at the same time. I know most people can’t but I also know some people who can.

-the hair loss is real

-fruit smoothies from places at the mall will likely make you shit yourself

-milk…. Shit yourself

-store bought coffee that contains milk…. Surprisingly not shit yourself! Yay

-soup that has chunks of food in it… Practically like eating and drinking at the same time and doesn’t work out too well. Same for cereal. I just get a lot of gas moving around and it’s not worth it

-some days I can eat a good amount and others I can take three bites and be stuffed. Very annoying when you’re eating something tasty

-the hair loss is fuckin REALLLLL

-some people around you will try to be the food police

-other people around you will offer you bad food all the time… Don’t know why

-my boobs are gone. RIP

-my stretch marks seem more noticeable

-I keep having to buy new clothes


-take your fuckin vitamins JASMINE YOU LAZY ASS

-this surgery doesn’t change your mind set about food. If you tended to eat junk food, eat late at night, eat out a lot before surgery… You still have to consciously make those decisions every single day not to go back to those ways.

-I sadly did NOT turn into a light weight. I still need to drink a LOT to get drunk just like before surgery. I now mostly drink wine and vodka

-can’t drink beer or soda. Allllll those fuckin bubbles

-my back and feet hurt way less than they used to

-I went from being able to jog one minute to seven minutes. Still working on this

-start exercising as soon as you can so when the weight loss slows down you still have something that is going to help your body change

-most people won’t have a negative reaction when you tell them about surgery but some people will be like “be careful because I know someone who DIEEEEED!” 😒

-my boobs are seriously fuckin sad

-I feel that staying hydrated is hard especially since you’re not supposed to drink before and after you eat so you have to be extra mindful of it all day every day

-the first time you eat pizza after surgery don’t eat too fast or too much because you will barf you idiot :)

-sometimes when people take candid pictures of me now and show them to me I don’t want to die so that’s reallly cool

-I thought this surgery would motivate me to learn how to cook and it has not. Stilllllll not wifey material. Oh well don’t care

-don’t be afraid to not order a drink at restaurant. I always say water and then I have a giant cup of water sitting there the whole time and like we’re in a draught. #california

-I don’t recommend taking shots #peerpressure

-sell your old clothes to buy new clothes!

-“your hair is everyyyywhere… SCREAMING INFIDELITIES” - only tru emo kids will know

-you will notice that your body is different than it used to be but you might still feel as big as you used to be. Like you might look at a space and think “I can’t fit there” but you probably can.

-the weight loss is fuckin random. Some weeks I lose 5lb!!! Some weeks I don’t lose anything for two weeks! Only baby Jesus knows

-don’t become obsessed with the scale. I think weighing yourself every day will fuck with your mind. I think once a week at most

-my body is very squishy now. Weird thing to say I know

-I’m not constantly sweating for everything I do!! Cool

-your stomach doesn’t care where the fuck you are it WILL scream the music of its people at any time, any place, in front of anyone

Lastly I just wanna say to myself and to others going through this journey - stay focused. As soon as you become lax on your eating and exercise it is so easy to go back to old ways. Have someone help you be accountable. The surgery doesn’t change how your mind works. It just makes you get full faster. You still have to watch what you are putting into your body. You still have to be active. Listen to your body and work on your mind. Eating badly/over eating will ALWAYS be a struggle for me for the rest of my life. It is something that I have dealt with since a very young age and it’s not something that will just go away. Do your best and don’t give up. If you have questions/need some support follow @thiqgirlsquad on Instagram.

Eobard Thawne x Reader Future With You

Imagine planning a future with Eobard…

You and Eobard lounged lazily on the bed in your shared room, enjoying each others warm presence.  Eo had sent Dumb and Dumber on a mission, which means you two can spend some quality time together uninterrupted. Settled comfortably in his arms, Eo threaded a hand through your soft hair eyeing you like you were the most precious thing in the world. In his world.

You gently traced random patterns on Eo’s chest, mind wandering and thinking. How were you gonna tell him? Surely he hadn’t planned on this. Neither of you did really. This might cause a setback to his plans. 

“Eo?” You slowly looked up at him and placed a small kiss on his mouth. He returned the gentle kiss and pulled away smiling.

“Hmm, what is it, my dear?”

“I…I don’t to leave you.”

Eobard raised an eyebrow at this, “You’re not going to leave me. Why would you think that?”

“Because…I don’t know how you’re going to react when I tell you…” You lowered your eyes and started playing with your fingers.

Eobard’s gaze softened when he saw your conflict. Cupping your face gently, he raised your head to look at him,” No matter what you do, I will love you. We’ve made it this far. There’s no way I’m letting you go.” 

“I…I’m pregnant…”

“…Is…Is it mine?” He shakily asked, you nodded a bit and gauged his reaction.

“Yeah, all yours”

A giant smile broke out on Eo’s face which caused your heart to swell. ”This…this is amazing. A child. My child. Our child. We…we started a family.”

“And it might even be a speedster baby too.” You grinned at his happy astonishment.

Eobard showered you with tiny excited kisses after getting over his surprise. You giggled as he carefully placed his calloused hands on your stomach. “With me as the father, it’s definitely a speedster baby.”

Would it be weird if I just randomly go to people’s message and tell them ‘I love you’ in a friendship loving way?

sinto-hell  asked:

hi all your post where you ramble on and on about theories are literally my favourite please don't apologise for them ily and I love your blog bye (also do you have any personal headcanons about not only the boys but like;; any character FEEL FREE TO RAMBLE)

Aww T~T Thank you!! This is really sweet. 

HONESTLY I PROBABLY DO BUT I’M ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE WITH GENERAL QUESTIONS… I know that sounds really weird, but my mind is like very… fast paced and so it’s constantly going through everything and so without a specific thread, I have trouble focusing on exactly what I can talk about. It’s a bit weird!! 

But yeah, between the Manga stuff and doing such a big replay and the artbooks and literally digging through Chino’s own Tumblr I’ve had… so many character thoughts that sometimes it’s hard to sort them properly. 

I remember one random thing that came to mind to me a while ago was from this line of Armin’s:

(though, he asks if he should say it in English in the original French version, but I feel my stance still remains)

Between that, his mention of sometimes dressing up/cosplaying with his games in Artbook 2′s Interview, how he enjoys cosplay in general, and also his thing in Episode 23 about getting into character: 

I felt he probably can do accents and things pretty well to get into character for stuff he cares about and cosplaying and things. I just see him getting really into that or switching accents to mess with people.

princessbananahammock25  asked:

Has there ever been a time where u have gave up on PLL? a point where u thought you may never watch again? I've been watching for 7 years in & in 6b before the last 5 episode, I stopped bc it got boring & I thought I would never watch it again. And then 6-7 months later, for some random reason I came across ur blog & this was 2 days before S7 premier and I just decided to resume watching. Looking back on it, if I never came across your blog I may have never finished watching PLL!

Oh absolutely. There were heaps.

Half way through season 5B, I was ready to give up on the show. Throughout that entire season, the only thing going through my mind was “this is the by-product of getting that double season renewal: Spencer stealing paintings and Emily making empanadas”. I look back now that the show is done, and appreciate 5B so much more, given how much worse it got with 6B. That was the second point I was ready to just give up. Nothing was fking happening. It had officially turned into a bad soap opera in season 6. But thank GOD season 7 came around and, in my opinion, was the best season of them all.

I will say, that if I didn’t have this blog, I 100% would’ve let the episodes build up in my recordings and then binge watch them all over a couple days. I’m talking months: I would’ve let ALL of 5B and ALL of 6A build up and watch all 22 episodes in a week. (I probably would’ve been caught up for the Big A reveal though. The monumental episodes, u envision I would’ve been ready to watch live.) But I didn’t do that, because the weekly discussions we were having here on Tumblr made it worth the pain of being disappointed with filler each week.

But did I ever consider actually properly QUITTING? No, never. I knew this was a show I wanted to see through to the end. When I say I wanted to “give up”, I mean that in the sense of stop investing every single Wednesday to PLL, stop hyping myself up every week, stop caring about the ratings, stop writing theories, etc. But never, not once, did I consider not making it to the end! Seasons 1-4 were just so successful at reeling me in to Rosewood and the amazing cast, that there’s no way I can not see how these characters continued living.

Omg really!! Wow, thank you so much for taking such a liking to little me. That’s amazing, I can’t believe I had such an impact 💙

was going through my art tag and came across some of the busts i did of random tumblr users, and decided to redraw one in a more toony style (have zero idea who this person is tho lol if youre following me, plz make yourself known)

i cant focus my brain atm, but whatever. i wouldn’t mind doing a few more of these. 

Reblog this with your face tag, and i’ll draw you maybe? 

Percy Jackson AU where everything is the same but instead of Percy, his little sister is the daughter of Poseidon

This is super random and Just sorta popped in my mind but it would be cute

•Sally Jackson’s daughter keeps getting kicked out of all of her boarding schools

•She has a terrible step father and a wonderful mother

•Whoops, look at that- her best friend Grover is half donk- I mean a satyr

•She meets this stubborn blond girl named Annabeth

•Oh look at that she’s a daughter of Poseidon

•Nico blames her for Bianca’s death

•Imagine her getting so angry at Thalia and so jealous of Jason

•Her and Annabeth plus her few other friends go through so much. She survives Tataurus and is known throughout everywhere as the Daughter of the Sea

•In trials of Apollo she is really happy and goes IM GOING TO HAVE A LITTLE BROTHER.

•Basically the same thing but a sarcastic girl and the best part- BABY PERCY