random rant

One thing that I do agree with on SS this week is the post about the Simfileshare thank you button. I find it so sad when I go to download someone’s items and it has hundreds or thousands of downloads and only twenty or so thank yous, especially when they aren’t monetising their downloads. It doesn’t even take a second to click and it’s so easy to get into the habit of doing it.

Thaaat said, if I have to venture through multiple ad links, I’m not clicking that button for no one.

How do people have the energy to cheat on someone? Like seriously though.. having to hide conversations and make excuses to go places and just straight up lie and have to remember each lie to keep it going. Live pretty much a double life. Idk but to me that sounds draining af. Definitely not worth it. If you really that interested in someone else, break up the relationship and then do your shit. Be freaking honest and stop playing with good peoples emotions.

Why do I have the feeling that Mare is going to be more self-destructive than ever in RQ4?

After the epilogue in King’s Cage, Mare is heartbroken like never before. 

I know now, I didn’t know what love was. Or what even the echo of heartbreak felt like.

Meaning that whatever she felt after Maven’s first betrayal in Red Queen seems nothing compared to what she is suffering now. Point being that we know damn well what a wreckage she was after the first book’s events and how self-destructive she became in the second book, like when she told Shade - aka the brother she thought dead and for whom she deeply grieved and spiraled out of control - she didn’t trust his word. Literally five minutes after she found out he was still alive. She pushed aside Kilorn and didn’t talk to him for weeks, forced a 15 years old girl to join her fight and got even worse -  this, comprehensibly - after Shade’s death. So the question is: how can we expect her to react now that she is more desperate than ever, if she did very unpleasant things for less?

To stand in front of a person who is your whole world and be told you are not enough. You are not the choice. You are a shadow to the person who is your sun.

Another question that’s really bugging me is: is she really feeling like a shadow? Because that particular word / feeling draws a dangerous connection to another character… Maven. In Red Queen he said “ He’s strong, he’s talented, he’s powerful—and I’m his shadow. The shadow of the flame. ” We all remember that, of course, since it’s one of the main concepts about Maven that helps us understand his personality. In King’s Cage, Mare thinks “ You are only a shadow, and who looks at shadows when they have flame? Who would ever choose a monster over a god? “ In her mind she establishes a connection between being a shadow and being a monster. Is Mare going to follow in Maven’s footsteps? Can we expect her to be as destructive as he is?

I don’t want to become a monster. A shell with nothing but ghosts. Like Maven.

Is that what’s going to happen now that she feels a shadow herself? “ It would be easy to stay in the dark, to drown. Slowly, I lower my hands and force myself to look at the sunlight. It takes more effort than I thought possible. “ It would be so easy, huh. Near the end of King’s Cage we find the words “ The sun overhead is hatefully bright, a harsh contrast to the abyss inside me. “

Attend to your own fate, Mare Barrow. To rise. And rise alone. I see you as you could become, no longer the lightning, but the storm. The storm that will swallow the world entire.

I think that Victoria often hints at what’s still to come. We should have seen this coming. Mare herself after these words is despairing, she digs her nails into her palms, to chase away the sadness with the pain. Deep down, she knows the hidden meaning: alone, no Cal to stand by her side. Being in control is much more complicated than destructing, letting yourself go completely. I think we indeed can expect her to be a storm. It remains to be seen whether Mare in her spiral of destruction will wreck herself and her bonds to the people in her life too or not.

Okay, so I finally got my hands on the VLD comics, and I came across this part in the 4th issue. I’m sure this has been addressed before but…

(I took out the text cause it didn’t make sense out of context anyway…)

So now I know I have a really wild, like too wild imagination but this is just hit me, like… PINING RED???


1. There’s that HC that Red and Blue love each other too – which I like a lot – so I don’t really know how sentient robot lions do the thing, but just imagine them being cuddly and pressing their noses together and just be cute and affectionate (gay) robot lions, like awww :’) And now just imagine that they have to hide this because their current paladins are oblivious toddlers who can’t get past the flirting-with-teasing-and-childish-bickering level, cause you know, they’re just like a pair of kindergarteners.

Like seriously guys, grow up. And seriously, someone please draw Red and Blue snuggling up when they think no one sees them, but eventually Lance and Keef catch them, or maybe the others too, or whatever you can come up with, there’s so much that can be done with this, and I’m dead. (Also I hope someone has already done this before and I can find it.)

2. The lions are just like their paladins, so Red is actually pining after Blue, in which case my heart is aching for Red, and I like the first one much better. Like it’s enough to see Keef’s wtf tender faces when he looks at Lance sometimes or when he talks to him and no one sees he’s making that face… I can’t handle the same thing with Red too, it’s just too much for my heart. :’)

Now that I got this out of my system, I will go on reading the comics, and think of giant robot cats being in love with each other and I’ll die. Bye.

Hablemos de Fargetta

Abrí este blog hace unos días pues tengo un crush terrible e inesperado con Fargan y Poker. Amo los videos que están haciendo juntos desde que se mudaron y necesitaba un lugar para subir cosas sobre ellos (porque nadie más lo está haciendo, básicamente). 

 Con lo que yo no contaba, y de verdad les juro que no lo vi venir, fue que aparecería Vegetta y se uniría a esta ecuación. Creo que a todos los que estamos shippeando Fargetta nos pasó lo mismo en ese directo de Willy: notamos la chispa que hubo entre Fargan y Vegetta. 

 Había visto a Fargan antes en videos de Willy, de Frank, de Abel y por supuesto AMO sus videos con Braxxter pero con Vege es diferente porque me matan de risa y, como decían en otro post, es raro que Vege se comporte así con alguien “nuevo” (porque al menos no recuerdo que haya jugado con él alguna vez. Corríjanme si estoy equivocada). 

En vista de que esta nueva amistad se ve prometedora y para el largo plazo, veo necesario aclarar algunas cosas: 

  1. FARGETTA NO ES REAL. O sí, bueno, la amistad que se está formando es muy real pero como relación amorosa no lo es. Ni por un segundo lo piensen.
  2. EL SHIP NO NOS DA DERECHO A MOLESTAR A TERCEROS. No daré detalles (en internet todo está a una búsqueda de distancia, y no seamos hipócritas, todos sabemos dónde buscar) pero no es válido ir a molestar a familia/amigos de Fargan o de Vegetta para preguntarles sobre el ship o siquiera mencionarlo. La regla de oro es que lo que pasa en el fandom se queda en el fandom y ya está.  Por mi parte me comprometo a que nunca me pondré a hablar de sus vidas privadas ni a especular sobre lo que hacen o dejan de hacer.
  3. NO ES SU OBLIGACIÓN GRABAR JUNTOS. Si queremos más videos como los que nos han dado, lo mejor que podemos hacer es apoyarlos dando likes y compartiéndolos y ocasionalmente mencionar lo mucho que nos gusta que graben juntos pero tampoco es para hartarlos con lo mismo por todos lados. 
  4. EL RESPETO AL SHIP AJENO ES LA PAZ. A pesar de que Fargetta está creciendo como bola de nieve, no es para todos. Si no les gusta, no sigan cuentas como la mía, tan fácil como eso. Si les gusta, no significa que automáticamente se invalide cualquier otro shippeo. Todos podemos coexistir en este bonito lugar.
  5. UN SHIP ES PARA DIVERTIRSE. Olvidemos los dramas de una vez por todas. Si vienen aquí en busca de salseo, no lo encontrarán. No se tomen las cosas tan en serio, por favor.  

Si llegaron hasta aquí los felicito, se han ganado una galleta.

Gracias por leer esta Biblia y espero que nos sirva a todos para evitar dramas como los que ya conocemos. 

 ¡Feliz shippeo! :)

I don’t understand why people judge those who wear sweaters and sweatshirts in the spring and summer. It’s not harming anyone and it’s not promoting a dangerous life style or ideology. Some people find wearing long sleeves comforts and calms them. There’s absolutely NOTHING wrong with that.

I can’t believe i’m making a post about this, but voltron fandom anti-shippers have been really annoying (calling voice actor’s pedophiles and sending him death threats because he said let people ship, are you fucking kidding me?!) Yes, you don’t have to like it, but that doesn’t mean you have to attack people who do, and to all who call sheith pedophilia..Do you think Disney’s Tangled is that as well? Because Rapunzel is 18, while Flynn/Eugine is 24, they’re literally on the same age-scale as Keith and Shiro..


Just stop what you’re doing! GET ON NETFLIX NOW!!! Oh my gosh guys!!!! As someone whose never read the books, watched the original movies or even seen the play let me just say something in the form of an expression I hate. But damn it … I AM SHOOK THERE I SAID IT. But everything in this show is wonderful and amazing, and Goddammit if Netflix doesn’t accounce a season 2 I don’t know how I’ll go on! The actors are wonderful, the story is amazing, the flashbacks *faints* both incredible and heartbreaking, and I just need more!!! So if you haven’t already…. GO WATCH ANNE WITH AN E!!!!

Originally posted by exploring-anne

I feel so sad for the young boys that are taught from their fathers that if they cry, or express any sort of emotion, they are considered “weak” or not a “man.” It makes these young boys grow up into men that don’t express their emotions to the world because they are scared of society judging them for being human.
Expressing emotion isn’t just a “girl thing”….it’s a human thing.

I just love how differently Sephiroth is described in fics compared to other tops/seme in other series I read. He’s not just described as “handsome with fine features and such color-eyed-ish". I love it when authors elaborate on how godly/ethereal/otherworldly Sephiroth looks. “Marble statue of a god" gives me a damn chills. Gosh.






I think being in college really made me realize the racism the Asian-American community faces. I hear people around me throwing around racists comments like it’s nothing and people will literally defend them by saying “they didn’t really mean it”. It doesn’t matter if they meant it or not! You don’t say things like that! It’s racist regardless of what the intention of the comment were. Words hurt even if the person they are aimed at know they aren’t true!

I just… got an idea how to make the ending to the Guardian Angel AU even angstier.

Everything’s the same up to the point where Mari wakes up. But instead of remembering everything she just doesn’t. She vaguely remembers that she wasn’t alone (in this version everyone still tells her she was), but the memory is all foggy. She doesn’t remember Kanan or the time they spent together. All she knows ist that something is missing, a vague indicator of her love for Kanan. She can’t get rid of this feeling but continues on with her life nonetheless.

Kanan still gets punished for falling in love with her charge. She still gets send back to earth to redeem herself and to earn her place in heaven back as a normal human. The difference this time: Her memories are wiped out and she also can’t remember Mari (or her time as an angel in general).

But fate is a strange concept, you know? Something draws Kanan back to Uchiura and especially Awashima. She buys the run down former diving shop to repair it and to live there. Mari on the other hand always felt a strange connection towards the ruin and would walk by on a regular basis.

So someday… it happens. Kanan’s cleaning up outside when Mari decides to go there one afternoon. Their eyes meet and somehow the other seems familiar.

And that’s where everything starts anew.

As a mom in the future my kids will be so pleased with me. I am always down to keep my freezer stocked with dinosaur chicken nuggets and ice cream. Im also always down to go swing on the swings and rewatch kids movies as long as they are the good ones. My house will have an over abundance of pillows and blankets so forts are always a possibility. Naps during the days are cool with me, and ill never be nosy. Ill give them time to deal with stuff but make sure to check on them like my parents never did. Ill be cool with their friends crashing at our place and plan to make my home as homey feeling as possible. More than anything, I will ALWAYS accept them for whatever they choose to be and whatever they choose to do as long as it keeps my kid safe and healthy.

I remember reading about someone who had visited America and commented about how happy Americans seemed. When I really think about it, Americans really do seem happy on the outside. Americans are expected to be passionate and outgoing. They are expected to always give positive, even enthusiastic replies, even if they dislike the present or event. That is unless it is deemed by society to be something to criticize. People who are solemn, quiet, and say what they truly think, when it goes against society, are seen as strange and needing to be “fixed”. They are told they will never succeed in life, never be hired, people will think there is something wrong with them, that there is something wrong with them. The truth is one in every three people in America has an anxiety disorder and over 16 million people have major depression alone. Sadly, employers are less likely to hire someone who isn’t passionate and outgoing than someone who is. Many Americans act how society wants them to act not because that’s who they are but because they are trying to survive. They do this in order to fit in and live the American dream but in the end they simply become plastic, hollow barbie dolls tortured by anxiety and depression wearing fake smiles plastered on their faces. I often wonder how many Americans are actually truly happy.

Things I Shouldn't Do, But Do Anyways:

> Lay awake in bed until 1:00 pm

> Be gullible

> Eat Nutella from the container with only a spoon

> Let my friends discover a fandom and get sucked into it with them

> Say “Welcome to your tape” whenever I’m mad at my friends

> Fricken die over Riverdale

> Try not being weird

> Letting fictional characters take over my entire until it gets to the point where I just die on cliff hangers, deaths, sicknesses, betrayals and comments.

> Hide in my room from society

> Wonder where my eraser is half the time when sketching

> Wanting to protect fictional innocent muffins from anything that may harm them