rainbow parties

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

if people were elements,
then we are ice and fire.

your touch is frost upon my burning skin,
my breath melts your frozen heart.
your kiss is cool against my lips,
and my heat warms you all the way down
to the tips of your toes.

and although we could complement each other,
beckon the other away from the end of polarity
to come and meet in the middle,
too much of one

will eliminate the other.

—  and i’d never forgive myself if i caused your destruction, c.j.n.
Stoned love

Stop messing round with that fire,
Living like love is just a gun for hire,
Cos one moment its just messing round,
To your wiki saying she’s your spouse,
Oh but its not just girls,
Cos yeah one moment I was tearing off her blouse,
Now she says she’s living in my house,

Babe I know you said you’d never smoke pot,
Its just; that burned Like your first splif,
Now we just hanging around in the dark, you’re pale as a ghost.
Stop messing round now, cos am too stoned,
You’re know I can’t save you cos in this game am too gone,

She’s only seventeen, and thinks at sixteen am all there is,
But a degenerate kind, baby am definitely not what you need,
She wants to dance with devil, Mr brownstone is just grave,
Oh Y’know the drugs will drown her out, just too young,
Can’t believe this is my life, smoking and fucking in the back,

Everlasting Party Time Loop AU Chapter Index

So there’s getting to be a lot of chapters in this fic and it’s tedious updating each part to include links to the most recent chapter, so instead I’ll be updating this post and including “Next Chapter/Previous Chapter” links in each part itself. I’ll reblog this instead of my fanfic masterpost when I update Everlasting Party from now on. You can also subscribe to it on AO3 to be notified of new chapters right away!

Chapters 1-5

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5

Chapters 6-10

Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10 

Chapters 11-15

Chapter 11 | Chapter 12 | Chapter 13 | Chapter 14 | Chapter 15

Chapters 16-20

Chapter 16 | Chapter 17 | Chapter 18 | Chapter 19 | Chapter 20

Chapters 21-25

Chapter 21 | Chapter 22 | Chapter 23 | Chapter 24 | Chapter 25

Chapters 26-30

Chapter 26 | Chapter 27 | Chapter 28 | Chapter 29 | Chapter 30

Chapters 31+

Chapter 31 | Chapter 32 (NEW!)