rain ocean

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
She was beautiful.
There was no denying it.
But she wasn’t that kind of beautiful that made everyone turn,
Or took everyones breath away when she entered the room.
Her beauty was hidden,
But once you’ve seen it she becomes nothing but beautiful.
Shes the kind of beautiful that keeps you up at night,
The kind that makes you love every part of her.
Some people may not see it,
And you know she can’t,
But she’s beautiful.
Theres no denying it.
—  A.P

Sunset and rainclouds, and exposed/worn by the waves wood, Hawaii

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.
Parts of an Ocean Storm

Aries: The palm trees that shake so hard they look like they’ll fly off its roots

Taurus: The soft, soft sand that rises and falls with the wind

Gemini: The beach tents and colorful umbrellas that bounce across the beach and turn inside out

Cancer: The silence after the storm. The calmness, the slight anticipation for more storm

Leo: The light of the sun peaking through the clouds as the storm ends

Virgo: The humans that run to their cars frantically

Libra: The angry wind that brings havoc to everything and everyone

Scorpio: The ocean slamming against cliffs, slowing eroding it and flooding the sandy beach

Sagittarius: The essence of the storm. The noise, the fright, the beautiful destruction

Capricorn: The artist that paints the storm and romanticizes it

Aquarius: The dark, grey sky that overwhelms the world

Pisces: The rain that fluctuates between light and heavy. Once it seems as if its about to stop it rains heavy again