rafelina

We were a ticking time bomb.

Preparing for the end before we even began
Trying to figure out how we’ll call it quits
But making sure to never fall asleep without a goodnight kiss

We were a ticking time bomb
We knew this wouldn’t last
Doing 10 mph wondering are we moving too fast ?
Yet we told each other everything
Patched the cuts and healed the bruises
As long as when it got too serious we could distance ourselves with useless excuses

We were a ticking time bomb
Just waiting to explode
Our words and actions never quite matched up
No matter how much we tried it just never felt enough

We were a ticking time bomb
Most of “us” was a mistake
Sleep walking through this
convincing ourselves we were awake

I know you’re out there reading this
and I know I came to mind
I’m sorry you can relate
To such a lingering and devastating heartache

— 

Rafelina Michelle

Ig : Rafelina_Michelle

I forgot to write you on your birthday
For the first time in 8 years it slipped my mind
After years and years of trying my heart was finally leaving you behind
I can’t remember your laugh
You no longer haunt my dreams
When I close my eyes at night
you’re no longer who I see
I guess this is moving on
It’s actually kind of bittersweet
The mark I once thought permanent is no longer a part of me
I never even noticed
that you were fading away
But as I sit here reminiscing there’s not one memory I can mentally replay…

I forgot your birthday
But I know now that’s okay.

She needed a special kind of someone
A specific kind of love…
She was different in every way imaginable
Her qualities polar opposites from the rest
Money , cars and a bunch of followers wouldn’t impress
She had to be given a certain level of affection
Because if it was too much she’d run away
But if it was too little it was certain she would stray
She was a complicated individual
The type that drives you insane
Yet worth every single headache
Worth every single strain
As long as you’re willing to take the pleasure with the pain.
—  Rafelina Michelle
Not the breakup that breaks your heart..

It’s usually not the breakup that breaks your heart.
It’s all the little things in between. 
It’s the fact that you’re no longer a part of each other’s daily routines. 
It’s the faded conversations that never go on for too long
. It’s the feeling of emptiness you get when you’re with them, almost as if you were alone. 
It’s the lack of spark 
and the loss of hope. 
It’s the voicemail that you hear each and every time you try to call. 
It’s all the love letters you find promising each other you’d be together through it all. 
It’s the forever that ended way too soon .
It’s the distance between two people who once loved each other sitting In the same room.
It’s usually not the break up that breaks your heart.

Rafelina Michelle

The thing about me is you have to catch me while I care
Take 100% advantage of the time where I’m fully committed
I don’t know how to be someone that stays involved if it’s not reciprocated at the same time
My mind wanders , my heart loses interest …
And by the time you realize it’s already too late
So the choice is yours but there’s not much time to spare
You can either miss me when I’m gone
Or make sure to catch me when I’m there
—  Rafelina Michelle

My whole life I’ve heard the saying
“Good things take time”
But now I’d disagree by saying
“Great things happen in the blink of an eye”

You came into my life when I least expected
And although the timing wasn’t right somehow it turned out perfect

What were the odds that you’d stumble on to me
What are the chances that you’d be exactly what I need
Who could’ve predicted that you’d take my breath away
With every subtle touch, with every single kiss, Each moment that I’m with you feels like complete bliss

You’re one in a million
And you and I are a million to one
If I had to gamble on a couple
My money would always be on us.

—  Rafelina Michelle
If you can be friends with your ex either you never loved them or you always will.
So many people disagree with this but think about it…. take a few…
If you’re talking to your ex you’re either flirting or reminiscin trying to convince yourself you don’t really miss em.
But then they do something that reminds you why you liked them to begin with…
They’ll smile at you as if only you exist and tell you how happy they are to have this friendship.
You get used to their company to them being your “friend” only to one day wake up alone, with the world on your shoulders and nobody’s hand to hold
You have to be strong and you have to remind yourself you shouldn’t be surprised,
Exs are not friends
They’re just disappointment in disguise.
—  #RafelinaMichelle (Exs are Not friends)
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I’ve learned it is what it is. You can’t change or mold people , you can’t force anybody to do something they don’t want to do. You can’t expect characteristics that don’t exist from people. You can’t make somebody be loyal , romantic , considerate or respectful if it’s not in their nature. All you can do is have control over yourself and hope that you find somebody who’s characteristics match what you’re looking for. It is what it is.
— 

Rafelina Michelle

RafelinaMichelle.com

It’s usually not the breakup that breaks your heart.
It’s all the little things in between. 
It’s the fact that you’re no longer a part of each other’s daily routines. 
It’s the faded conversations that never go on for too long
. It’s the feeling of emptiness you get when you’re with them, almost as if you were alone. 
It’s the lack of spark 
and the loss of hope. 
It’s the voicemail that you hear each and every time you try to call. 
It’s all the love letters you find promising each other you’d be together through it all. 
It’s the forever that ended way too soon .
It’s the distance between two people who once loved each other sitting In the same room.
It’s usually not the break up that breaks your heart.

It’s the memories that’ll get you …

The way we remember everything so perfect,
so poetic, so dramatic and cinematic
Like we drifted because fate gave us no choice
As if we had the choice we’d still be together
Like every moment was pure bliss and every second apart is wasted time
We come across old love letters and cute pictures
Sit and reminisce and wonder how things got so twisted
hopelessly missing a love that never truly existed

It’s the memories that’ll get you.

—  Rafelina Michelle

People like me are meant to be alone,
Because half the time I won’t even notice your name no longer lights up my phone.

I’m a walking contradiction, 
a cynic with a heart of gold.
 I’ll show you what love should really look like,
But make sure to leave before any of it can unfold.

I’m the one before the one
In every case there is

I’m not the one you’ll marry , I can’t be your soulmate
I’m just the one who helps you let go of all the weight
I’ll tear down all your walls with me you’ll open up
You’ll see that love is not so bad and in fact you’ll ask for more

But I’m the one before the one
Which I knew before we’d even begun
In me you’ll see the things you want but always at an extreme
Since I don’t know how to be somebody that can do anything in between

I’ll push you and i’ll better you
I’ll ask for way too much
Only because I want you to show the world what you’re capable off
I’ll call you out on bullshit , i’ll nag about your plans
I’ll soon become the one person you love but cannot stand

I’m the one before the one because after me you will find love
With somebody who gives you just the right amount of everything I did too much…

—  Rafelina Michelle

People like me are meant to be alone,
Because half the time I won’t even notice your name no longer lights up my phone.

I’m a walking contradiction,
An asshole with a heart of gold.
I’ll show you what love should really look like,
But make sure to leave before any of it can unfold.

— 

Rafelina Michelle ( excerpt from Detached )

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Sometimes you walk out of somebody’s life and they don’t even really notice.
There’s no response, there’s no reaction, there isn’t quite a care in their world… And that’s how you’ll know you made the right decision.
—  Rafelina Michelle

She needed a special kind of someone
A specific kind of love…

She was different in every way imaginable
Her qualities polar opposites from the rest
Money , cars and a bunch of followers wouldn’t impress
She had to be given a certain level of affection
Because if it was too much she’d run away
But if it was too little it was certain she would stray

She was a complicated individual
The type that drives you insane
Yet worth every single headache
Worth every single strain
As long as you’re willing to take the pleasure with the pain.

It just happens and you don’t even realize it…

You go from joking around and stealing each others food , to laying down and talking about things you never thought you’d be able to share with anybody.
And there you are not even realizing that for the first time , for the very first time you’re letting somebody in voluntarily.
In that moment it doesn’t matter how many heartbreaks you went through, or how often you were let down.
In that moment you feel blessed for every rock you tripped over, every frog that you kissed,
every lesson you learned
Because it all led to this.
And this you finally realize is what love should feel like,
And for this you’d do it all over again.

— 

Rafelina Michelle

RafelinaMichelle.com

I crave you in ways you can’t even begin to imagine…
I crave your hands on my spine
Your lips on mine
Your fingers on my thighs
A thoughtless encounter between you and I

I crave you in the dirtiest of ways
With absolutely no intentions of love at bay
I crave what you taste like
I crave the foreplay
I crave what you’ll look like once I’m done taking your breath away

I crave you so close that you’re breathing my air
I crave what it feels like to tug on your hair
Hot, bothered, and weak in the knees
I crave you in ways that’ll leave you feeling uneasy

— 

Rafelina Michelle

RafelinaMichelle.com