Med School = Cardiac Stress Test for the Soul?
I was thinking about it recently and I think that’s going to be my analogy for med school. The stress of med school has brought out a lot of issues in my life. My depression and anxiety worsened. My migraines definitely worsened. Different aspects of my personality that I’m not exactly proud of got brought to light. Ain’t nobody at their best after sleepless nights studying for a test. In myocardial perfusion imaging, you are injected with radiotracer and scanned before and after stress. It shows the parts of your heart that have reduced blood flow. Like med school, it can show areas of yourself that aren’t so great. Lately, I feel like my focus has been wrong about this. Maybe I should focus less on the fact that I have areas of “reduced areas of flow” in my life that don’t respond well to stress and instead focus on what I’ve done and continue to do to improve them. It can be big stuff. I wasn’t proud of my depression keelhauling me during second year. But instead of being mad at myself, I should take pride in the fact I got help and got better. it can be small stuff too. Like being snappy on the phone with my family when they don’t understand something I’m telling them and I’m too tired to explain it to them. Instead of feeling like the worst daughter in the world, I should just admit that I get cranky when tired and I need to take a couple deep breaths when I start to get frustrated. Anywho, have a nice day and be kind to yourself.