Imagine telling Matt the radar technician about your crush on Kylo Ren
You carried your tray through the cafeteria, making your way to your usual table. You weaved in and out of the crowd and arrived only to find somebody sitting in your seat.
“Lieutenant Colonel,” you greeted Zack. “Tim.” They both returned your greeting and went back to their food. You stared at the blonde head of the stranger before clearing your throat.
“Oh.” Tim jumped. “This is Matt. He’s a new radar technician.”
Matt had scraggly hair and large framed glasses. You admired the frame of his face and his full lips which reminded you of somebody else’s. “Nice to meet you,” Matt offered.
“You too,” You said, sitting beside Tim. “So, how are you liking the job so far?”
The four of you made small talk until Matt brought the subject around to something that piqued your interest. “What do you think of Kylo Ren?” He asked. His food sat in front of him, untouched.
Tim choked back a laugh and wiggled his eyebrows in your direction. “(Y/N)’s favorite subject,” he teased.
“Shut up,” you grumbled. Your cheeks felt hot and you hoped to God that you weren’t blushing.
“Well, what does he mean?” Matt inquired.
You opened your mouth but Tim jumped in. “(Y/N) works along side General Hux—”
“I know,” Matt said, encouraging him to go on.
“Wait a minute,” you interjected. “How would you know? Isn’t this your first day?”
Matt froze for a moment and stared at you. “I uh, noticed your robes. You aren’t wearing a uniform like everyone else. I just assumed that must mean you’re someone important.”
You nodded, accepting his answer. “I’m not really important. Not like the Commander,” You added.
Tim chuckled and you felt the sudden urge to wring his neck. “Anyways, I was saying that (Y/N) works for the General and on occasion she’s worked with Kylo Ren. Well, I guess she’s seen him without his mask on—”
“That was one time,” You muttered, not looking up from your food.
“—And she thinks he’s hot,” He laughed. Matt sat up straighter but didn’t say anything. Again, he stared at you.
“Okay but maybe I just respect his ambition. He’s hard working and he’s a good leader,” You defended.
“So you’re saying that you don’t have a crush on the guy?” Tim grinned at you.
Before you could think of a response, Zack cut in. “Ya know, I will say this for Kylo…” You shot him a grateful look before returning to your food. “I think he gets a bad rap.”
“What?” Tim scoffed.
“Yeah,” Zack went on seriously. “He’s trying to accomplish something that’s never been done in the history of the galaxy! You know? Rule everything? That’s impressive. I …. I admire the guy.”
“Exactly!” Matt agreed, but you still felt his eyes on you.
The next morning, you emerged from your room and heading towards the main bridge where you knew you would find General Hux. You rounded the corner and found Matt talking with Zack who was holding what looked like a greeting card.
As you approached them, Matt spoke, “I was just telling Zack that I ran into Kylo Ren in the bathroom. He told me to tell you that he’s enjoyed the times you’ve worked together. And that you’re very committed to your work here,” He added hastily.
You blinked. “Really? He, uh, he said that?” Matt nodded and you felt as though your stomach was doing backflips. “Well,” You cleared your throat, doing your best to look unaffected by the news. “Thank you for relaying the message.” As you walked away, you couldn’t help the smile that pulled at your lips.
You pushed on through another average day as you made your way through the cafeteria and to your normal table. This time, you noticed, only two of your colleagues were there. “Where’s Matt?” You asked them.
Tim shrugged. “I don’t really care to find out though,” He grumbled, holding an ice pack to his head.
“What happened to you?” You asked him, sitting down in what had become your new normal seat.
“Matt,” Tim spat.
Your eyebrows creased together. “Matt? How could he have—?”
“What, you don’t know?” Zack chuckled. “Everyone knows.” He looked amazed at the fact that you were somehow missing out on this great secret.
“Knows what?” You asked him. “What does everybody know?”
“That Matt is actually—” Whatever Matt actually was, Zack didn’t get to tell you, because at that moment he barged into the room with his fists clenched and his jaw set.
“I have a bombshell announcement to make, guys!” He shouted. “I’m not Matt. I'm—”
“Kylo Ren,” half the room chorused.
“You’re Kylo Ren.” Zack spoke to Matt but he was looking at you with a smirk on his face.
Your eyes grew wide when you realized what that meant. Matt had learned of your feelings about Kylo Ren. But if Matt was actually Kylo Ren, then…
You left your tray and made your way out the door, keeping your head down in hopes that “Matt” wouldn’t see you. You were lucky enough to slip out unnoticed and made your way to you the bridge.
“(Y/N)? You’re back from lunch early,” General Hux noticed.
“I guess I wasn’t very hungry today,” you lied, fiddling with the end of your sleeve.
“Then, perhaps we should return to our work.”
“Sounds good to me, sir.”
You carried on with your day, trying your best to forget about Kylo Ren, not that it was easy for you, but you worked harder, the afternoon carried into evening and the evening into night.
“You’ve worked diligently today,” the General noted. “You may go.”
“Thank you, sir,” You said. You nodded your head respectfully and made your way to your quarters.
You couldn’t stop thinking about what happened in the cafeteria. Your friends were probably laughing at you, which was normal, but the fact that you had practically admitted to having a crush on Kylo Ren, to his face … Now that was embarrassing.
You’re thoughts came to an abrupt halt when you reached your room. You had stepped inside and to find a tall, broad shouldered figure with their back to you. It didn’t take a genius to learn who he was, even if he didn’t have his helmet sitting on your nightstand.
You wanted so badly to turn around and leave quietly, but you couldn’t run forever, could you?
You opened your mouth but before anything came out, Kylo Ren spoke. “You worked late today. Someone might think you were avoiding me.” He turned to face you and your heart started pounding.
“Matt,” You started. “Er, Kylo. I m–mean, Commander,” You stammered. “Sir, I never meant to say—That is, if I had known it was you, I never would’ve… I didn’t mean any disrespect…”
Kylo let you go on rambling like an idiot, until your voice finally died out. Your gaze fell to the floor and your lip trembled. You were sure that the only way you could have felt any more embarrassed was if you had been standing there naked.
“At first I wondered if that imbecile had been telling the truth,” He said in an even tone. “But the look on your face was enough to tell me that he was.” You knew now that you were blushing as Kylo took a step towards you.
“Please, Commander, I never meant for—”
“Me to find out?” He chuckled. You bit down on your lip. He seemed so amused by your discomfort and that only seemed to make you feel worse. He took another step towards you and another, until the space between you was minimal.
“You’re mocking me,” You muttered, still refusing to look at him.
“I’m not mocking you, (Y/N),” He said gently. “Forgive me if I’ve offended you.” Kylo leaned down until your lips were inches apart and whispered, “I hope you won’t mind if I …”
He pressed his lips against yours aggressively and his hands reached his up and gripped your shoulders. His lips were warm and the kiss grew more and more desperate with every passing moment.
When he finally pulled away, you were breathless and your head was spinning. You both stood there, panting, your chests pressed against each other’s.
“Um… Wow,” You breathed.
Kylo gave you a half smile and touched his forehead to yours. “I don’t think I can let Hux keep you to himself, anymore.”
GEE, I DON’T KNOW MAYBE THE ONE WHO CLEANS UP YOUR SHIT AFTER YOU DESTROY A PERFECTLY GOOD CONSOLE.
As promised, here’s my crackship:
During his SPECIAL INFILTRATION MISSION, Ren Matt discovers that there’s this guy absolutely nobody has heard about who’s in charge of the hardware and software issues on board of the Finalizer and he’s absolutely baffled by that shy dude with bionic eyes who looks like he has never slept a day in his life and has a face that’s annoyingly familiar.
After a few encounters were Matt has to be very careful not to frighten this poor guy who jumps at the slightest noise, they end up eating their lunch together in one of the Finalizer’s server rooms (Matt likes it there, the cold and the soft hum of the machines is somehow very soothing).
They talk a little and Matt cannot help but turn the conversation toward Kylo Ren. The Techie then tells him that he finds Kylo Ren’s lightsaber very cool but he hates him because he’s the one who has to work extra unpaid hours to fix things when the Knight gets a little too excited around consoles. Matt says nothing.
A few days later when they see each other again, Matt tells the Techie that he had a real talk with Kylo Ren during breakfast and that he’s sorry about his behavior and will try to stay clear of electronics from now on when he’s angry.
Matt also gets the lightsaber out of his utility belt and tell him that Kylo Ren said he was allowed to look at it if he wanted and that there was a bad contact with one of the wires and maybe they can try to fix it.
And that’s the start of a beautiful friendship. Or they fuck, you know, whatever.
I only started posted in earnest on this blog about 2 weeks ago. Just over an hour ago I made it onto the Tumblr radar with my animated self-portrait. Thank you for all the support everyone. This is crazy, and I’m so grateful! Take a look at some of the other stuff I’ve posted, especially the Brazil flag animation a couple posts down. I promise to keep work coming from on my end, so keep a look out!