rad away

anonymous asked:

please do one with the Oncelers sunglasses

Your  awful wish is my command (Why must you bring this back??)

((Much tags, very meme))

((I adore this ship hhhhhhhhhhh)) ;u;


Ah, yes, hello. I’m having some good old fashioned “I’m a burden to everyone” anxiety and depression and if you need me i’ll once again be underneath my desk.

There’s a lot Holt learns about Jake during the first year he knows the kid. Jake is absurd, daring, enthusiastic, energetic to the extent of near mania, weird, and occasionally, hilarious. He’s also extremely messed up. But he does his job well, when he’s not too busy being horribly belligerent or extremely intelligent. 

He’s a quick thinker, too, picking things up and putting them down so fast it often leaves other people in the dust. He can think up things on the fly, he’s got great imagination, horrible concentration, horrendous hand writing, and an impressively disgusting stim toy that’s lost more often than it’s found. Adhd is obvious within the first week. He’s brilliant, that’s what matters. 

So Holt likes him all right. He’s no Jeffords, too young and silly and desperate for a family, but he’s…he’s all right. He’s Jake. 

The first time he calls Holt ‘dad’, it’s funny. A slip of the tongue that makes the whole office crack up. The second time, the third time, the fourth time, it’s apparent that he really does view Holt as a father figure. And he doesn’t….seem to notice. He says ‘dad’ without blinking, and never corrects himself. 

There are other signs, apparent long before Holt learns about his real father. The way that Jake reacts to rejection or disappointment from one of his father figures, like Terry, is troubling. It’s like watching water being poured over a flame. A barely hidden crestfallen look that hides behind a sort of stuck on smile that’s stiff and uncomfortable, an ‘okay’ that’s too short to be anything other then his ‘brush it off make it go away stop’ okay. It’s one of the surest ways to dim his normal Jake-ness. 

(Actually, something interesting, Holt notices, is that the Die Hard series has a very loving father who’d do anything for his kids. Not that Holt likes the Die Hard series, but Jake does. It’s just an interesting fact that Holt notices and then ignores.)

It’s not surprising when Jake reveals what’s up with his real dad, what a dead beat looser that he is, and Holt surprises himself by getting angry, because Jake is a good boy, who’d do anything for his father. The way he looks at his ‘real’ dad is heart breaking, considering anyone could pick up on what his ‘real’ dad is like. 

One day, Holt calls Jake ‘son’ by accident. It’s a slip of the tongue, because he certainly doesn’t see Jake as a son figure. 

But the way Jake’s face lights up is surprising, even to Holt. It’s like watching a child realize they just got the one thing they always wanted for Christmas. He yells ‘You called me son can’t take it back!’ before he runs off. Which is correct, but it was a slip of the tongue. 

Holt doesn’t see Jake as a son figure. 

After the Florida incident, Holt still swears he doesn’t see Jake as a son. And he doesn’t. Telling someone to get a job, to not eat microwave burritos in the hot tub, that sort of thing is just what anyone would tell anyone else. Friends, maybe, whatever. 

Then a couple months later, and ‘son’ slips out, followed by ‘dad’, and neither of them notice, and Holt would still swear that Jake is just an employee. Jake wouldn’t mind. He’d still say he doesn’t see Holt as a father figure. 

Golfball sized hail nearby… hopefully either I can sleep through it or it dodges us. But I’m doomed to hear the weather radio no matter what.

Night everyone! Hopefully there’s no tornado warning, since our tornado room is in the actual worst corner of the house for it to possibly be and if we ever got hit we’d be in trouble.

My top 12 anime movies

(In no particular order)

  • Spirited Away (my childhood!!)
  • Howl’s Moving Castle (howl x sophie forever)
  • Grave of the Fireflies (broke my heart)
  • The girl who leapt through time (super sweet, i cried a lot!)
  • Perfect Blue (awesome mindfuck)
  • The Garden of Words (amazing animation omg)
  • 5 centimeters per second (… no words)
  • The End of Evangelion (i frincken’ love hideaki anno istg)
  • Road to Ninja (bc seeing my dorks in an au is hugely amusing. also: itasaku)
  • Wolf Children (i… i can’t even explain… how badly it broke me…)
  • Cardcaptor Sakura Movie 2: The Sealed Card (my childhood again!)
  • Naruto the Movie: Ninja Clash in the Land of Snow (bc the sasusaku is pretty strong and also i’ll love pre-shippuden team 7 forever)