“I lay there in suspended animation.
I felt myself floating.
The bear was melting. Old grizzly bear, my friend. Good old bear.
I demorphed. The snake was still in my mouth Motionless.
I was Rachel again, the human Rachel, alive, unhurt. I could have bounded up and gone off to the mall to shop. But I didn’t kid myself. I didn’t hope.
I spit the snake out.
I was surrounded on all sides. I was only a weak human girl now. The polar bear loomed over me, his strength the equal of my own grizzly, but now I was just me, just Rachel.
I could see the viewscreen. I could see my best friend Cassie. Jake. Marco, funny Marco. Ax.
He had morphed. He was his human self once more. He’d done that for me. And because he was crying. I understood. Humans cry, hawks don’t.
“I love you,” I said to the screen.
And oh, god, how could so much regret and so much sweetness and so much sadness all be present in that single moment? I was already dead and missing my unlived life. I was already dead and Tobias was mourning.
I tried to smile. For him.
The polar bear said, “You fight well, human.”
Then he killed me with a single blow.”
Animorphs #54, The Beginning
This makes me cry every single time.