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: jfc, I just have headcanons for Phonica, Phoey,…
They’re mostly Phoebe’s feelings toward Joey, Rachel, and Monica (I remember in one episode she said she’d had crushes on those three, too)
Phonica: Monica was the first real friend Phoebe had ever had. She let Phoebe live with her. She was always there for her, etc etc. Phoebe began developing feelings for her. She didn’t want to, of course. But she was scared she’d lose control at some point, so she made the excuse of leaving Monica’s apartment because of Monica’s personality and cleaning habits, when in reality, it was for an entirely different reason. She’d even tried to shut Monica out at one point (she mentioned something about that in an episode in season 10; I believe it was TOW Ross’s Tan?), as if she was just trying to shut down her feelings for her. Monica made her way through Phoebe’s walls, though; which only made her fall harder. She managed to keep it to herself, however. She began feeling weird vibes around Monica later, in season 5, and when she found out Monica was with Chandler, she forced herself to admit she’d never be with Monica.
Racheebs: I’m not exactly sure on when I believe Phoebe developed feelings for Rachel. Towards the end of season four, I presume. They had grown somewhat closer throughout the past three/four years. It was just a small crush at first. But as Monica and Chandler were growing closer, as Monica was drifting further away from both Rachel and Phoebe, they grew closer. They started coming to each other more instead, as they were the only two women left in the group not in a committed relationship. Rachel was there for her for the most part while Phoebe was giving birth. Rachel told Phoebe that “they were the best ones” (which I don’t really think helps my headcanon, but whatever). When Rachel first asked Phoebe if she could move in with her, Phoebe was hesitant; she remembered what happened with Monica. She made up a fake roommate. Ross accused her of being in love with Rachel after Phoebe had constantly obsessed over his undying love for Rachel, and there was a part of her that was scared that he knew her secret, even though the sane part of her knew he was teasing her. Phoebe hesitantly let Rachel live with her. They had plenty of cute moments; moments Phoebe held to her heart dearly- running, the sock bunny, etc. Come the fire in their apartment, and realizing Rachel was having fun living with Joey, Phoebe was jealous- more than platonically- and sad that Rachel wouldn’t be living with her anymore. And she knew, once again, she couldn’t afford to live with Rachel. She still held on hope, though, when she found out Rachel had kissed a girl before. She acted like Rachel was lying- she was trying not to get her hopes up. Maybe, just maybe, Rachel was a little attracted to women? And after seeing that passionate kiss between her and Melissa, her mouth watering, Phoebe couldn’t take it anymore, and latched herself onto Rachel. It was the best kiss she’d ever had- excluding Joey’s kisses- but as Rachel asked, “what the hell was that?” she knew she’d have to let her go, too. Phoebe officially gave up when Rachel was found pregnant with Ross’s child.
Phoey: Her feelings for him began way early in the show, when Joey was going out with her sister, Ursula. She was extremely jealous and hurt. And when she kissed him- pretending to be Ursula- she felt a spark. She knew Joey didn’t see her that way, though; but maybe, in time, he would. She offered to kiss him again when he said he needed one of the girls to kiss him (in the last episode of season 2), pretending to be reluctant. Later that night, they had sex for the first time- no strings attached for Joey. As the next two/three years went on, Joey and Phoebe were bonding, just the two of them in their own secret world. They got each other. Their jokes were something only they understood. Joey knew how to make Phoebe giggle like a teenager. They kept having intercourse. Phoebe was slowly losing her feelings for Joey, though; she was tired of chasing after him emotionally. He remained her best guy friend, though. They were still protective of the other. When Joey told Phoebe about how he felt about Rachel, she felt torn; a part of her was relieved she could easily let him go, another part was upset knowing Joey had a better chance with Rachel than she ever would, and vice versa. Their affair ended in the middle of season 8, after Joey felt it was time for a more serious relationship- with Rachel. Phoebe was left heartbroken.
None of them ever knew what went on in Phoebe’s head.