This morning I did my last “race pace” long run before Buffalo Half and felt amazing! Made sure I included some headwinds and rolling hills, and somehow I only had 2 traffic stops! The rest of my double digit miles til race day will be easy. 1:45, I’m coming for you!
Your relationship with Chanyeol didn’t turn out the way you had expected it to. You had been been dating for just about 2 years now. In the beginning, it was perfect. He was the epitome of a good boyfriend and you couldn’t have asked for anybody else, but after a year, everything started going wrong.
He changed, and you didn’t understand why. You tried to be the best and most supportive girlfriend you could be, but that didn’t seem to be good enough for him.
“Why can’t you just do things right for once?”
He’d make you feel unworthy, you didn’t even remember the last time he told you that he loved you, yet you continued to tell him each day, because you did love him and you wanted to try so hard to fix your relationship.
Today called for 3 miles at race pace. And I did it! But…I kind of feel like a cheater. I stopped 5 times during this run to catch my breath. I know it’s not a big deal and it’s not really cheating, but it still bothers me a little. I know that just because I want to run 9 minute/miles doesn’t mean I automatically will. It will take time and hard work and as long as I keep pushing I’ll get there. Hopefully this pace will feel easier soon enough!
But I still felt pretty bad ass when I got home and told me parents my average pace. They were impressed haha I realized I like the accomplished feeling of hitting a target pace. It really takes a lot more pushing mentally and physically. I just gotta keep going at this speed thing and I know I’ll see an improvement :)