rabbit factory


So I haven’t posted about this yet but now it’s time.
My super babe of a best friend (Kaitlyn or Rabbit-Factory) has officially moved across the state to start the next chapter of her life. She’s a university student!
She has been my best friend, my rock, my sister, and my heterosexual life mate for the past five years - and still counting. I could not ask for a better girl to have in my life. We have gone through like one up and down, but we got through it!
Needless to say, I miss her so much. I want to hang out with her all the time and remember that I can’t, unless I want to drive 5+ hours to eastern WA.
Despite the distance, I know that our friendship will grow stronger and she will continue to be one of my biggest supporters and best friends and nothing will change that. I am so thankful for today’s technology and my ability to Skype, text, and call her every single day. However, I still can’t think about her absence in my everyday life (physically) without tearing up.
It will take me a long time to adjust to not having someone to be an absolute bitch with, laugh about way inappropriate things, embarrass ourselves in public, and whatever crazy things we do with. Who will I go see Disney movies 100 times in theater with? Who will I get Thai food with and talk about vegetarian/vegan recipes? Who is going to go to the cemetery and socialize with cows with me?
I know, though, that when she visits it will make those activities 100x as special and meaningful then what they originally were. I cherish every memory I have with her and think about her all the time.
Although I am sad and nostalgic about our time together already, I am extremely jealous, happy, and excited for her.
She finally gets to follow her dreams in neuroscience instead of taking bullshit high school classes, she gets to live on her own and make all new friends, she can create her own schedule around her classes, etc.
She is one of my absolute people on this earth and it makes me so damn happy to see her so happy with what she’s doing.
So, Kaitlyn, you have been accepted into your choice college, you have moved in and are learning to live on your own, you are making new friends and creating new memories, and you start your classes soon.
Just remember that even though we are separated by hundreds of miles, I will always be here for you no matter what. I am always available to Skype, text, or call. I’m always available to listen to you bitch, whine, and complain about whatever whenever. I am always available to be your rock whenever you need me.
Make sure you’re safe and, most importantly, have fun.
I love you.

Stomach ramble. Skip if you want.

So, after starting an exercise schedule in my occupational/physical therapy, seeing countless doctors and STILL not reaching the end of my appointment list, and getting frequent acupuncture, my pain is finally starting to go away and I am slowly rebuilding my life and getting back to normal activities.

The list of foods I cannot and will not eat are longer than the list of things that I can and will eat. I do cheat, only if I know nothing important is going on the next day. I still get amazingly tired out and I constantly overdo myself, which isn’t good either. I’m just so excited that I’m feeling better so quickly.

I still have a spot that hurts in my lower left abdomen and A LOT of bloating. My entire GI system moves 2/3 as slow as a normal person, but is expected to get better.

People never understand how I just CAN’T do things sometimes, which bothers me because I’m constantly wanting to please so it feels like I let everyone down.

Things are finally starting to look up and I cannot thank the people who have supported me enough.

My mother and father, who were there with me at every single doctor appointment (and still counting) who always ask the right questions and make sure I get results. Who are always there when I collapse at night and sob because I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I love them so much and I never expected to go through this, but they have made it bearable. Mostly.

Kaitlyn, who always puts a smile on my face because we’re so alike with so many inside jokes and so much “hatred” for people we can’t stand. You understand what it’s like to have constant pain and surgery and test after test. I’m so glad I have you as a friend and I don’t know what I’d do without you. HLM5ever. I don’t know what I’ll do without you when you leave.

My siblings, Sam, Alia, and Syria. When I was stuck in bed after surgeries and just feeling like crap, they brought me things and did everything in their power to comfort me and entertain me. I complain about them, but it’s truly in a loving way and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without them.

Zaida, my awesome German shepherd who has sat on the couch and laid down with me for countless hours. Whenever I cry, she puts her head in my lap and strokes my legs with her paw. She is truly one of my best friends and is immortal.

MY PHYSICAL AND OCCUPATIONAL THERAPISTS holy crap. They have pushed me so hard. Even though I hated them for it, I wouldn’t be feeling as good as I do without them. Even when I’m done with therapy I’ll never forget them. They’re some great friends and motivators and are truly inspiring with their work.

Mike, who has gone through similar (worse) GI experiences. You really helped me through the horrible depressing times and gave me hope that I would get better. You, with your great positivity and advice are a great inspiration to me. I will never forget how you helped push me through and I am truly grateful for it.

And last, but definitely not least, my GI. He has been so thorough and run so many tests. Without him, I don’t know where I’d be at. His services have been unforgettable and I don’t know how I’ll ever repay him for his services. Besides adding thousands of dollars into his salary.

In tears as I write this.