Buried Memories

Word Count: 6354

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Warnings: Language, Angst, Blood, Gore (specifically children), Violence against children, PTSD if you squint, Insomnia, Hallucinations, Alcohol use

A/N: Written for @faegal04 ‘s 500 Follower Challenge. Prompt: “I just realized that I can sleep with my eyes open.” 

Anonymous Requested: Hi, I saw your requests are open (for a small amount of time) How about one where the reader hasn’t been sleeping at all and is trying to hide it from the boys because she doesn’t want them to worry about her? (I’m so sorry this is probably way angstier than you ever anticipated but this is honestly just where it went) 

Also based on this little GIF blurb I did. 

Thanks to @bringmesomepie56 and @chaos-and-the-calm67 for reading this thing before it was done and encouraging me not to throw it out a window and @nichelle-my-belle for being my awesome beta. 

Feedback is much appreciated! This fic fought with me for days! It is probably the one fic that has taken me the longest to write and it’s probably my longest fic to date. I’m not sure.

This hunt was fucking awful. Awful wasn’t the right word but there were no words. Nothing could have prepared you for the horrors you had just been part of and you’d been a hunter your entire life. You’d seen it all. Or so you thought.

You slammed the door to the Impala and walked into the bunker, heading straight for the bathroom without a word. In fact, you hadn’t spoken one word since the three of you left the scene. “Y/N…” Sam tried to speak to you but you never turned back.

“Don’t.” Dean warned Sam, putting a hand on his shoulder and shaking his head. “She’s processing. She won’t talk. Not yet.”

“You didn’t see her, Dean. I’m glad you didn’t.” Sam ran a hand through his hair and sat down at the war room table. “I’ve never seen her break like that.”

“What happened to her?” Dean was full of concern. Sam wouldn’t make comments like that about you lightly.

“I don’t know…by the time I got there she was just covered in blood sitting in front of a pile of burning bodies and just…crying.” Sam sighed. “She wouldn’t talk. She’d barely look at me. I wouldn’t have known she was there if I hadn’t heard her scream.”

“I’m gonna go wait for her in the library.” Dean grabbed a bottle of whiskey and two glasses, walking backwards down the hall. “You should get some sleep. It was a rough day.”

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anonymous asked:

Do you have any tips on writing really great mutual pining? It's a pretty big part of my next fic but I can't seem to get the emotions across in my writing ;-;

Plotting Great Romance

While “pining” implies an almost lack of romance, I still think the same goals of writing a great romance apply. You develop each of the two characters separately, and you develop a basic story for each of them separately, and then you see what happens when you bring them together. Think of it like clapping - each hand is capable of accomplishing a lot on its own, but when you slap your hands together, it creates a unique sound that one hand cannot produce on its own.

You could plot out the scenes/tension/suspense between them before developing each individual character, but I think it can be more challenging that way. So I would try to imagine the backstory, the characteristics, the wants, the needs, the goals, the motivations, the quirks, the interests…figure out who each of these characters is first.

Once you have that, you can start to think about how each character affects the other. What new characteristics do each bring out in the other? Are they good or bad? What ways do they challenge each other? What impact does each one have in the other’s life? Don’t think in terms of romance at this point. Just imagine your characters together, and imagine them separately. What’s the difference? What aspects of their personality do they suppress around the other and which ones do they set free?

Then, consider what qualities they each admire in the other. Why does each of them like being around the other? And counterpoint - what things frustrate them about the other?

When it comes to pining…

…make the reasons behind their unrequited romance good. A reader can quickly get frustrated by two characters who are simply too shy to admit their true feelings, or too naive to recognize chemistry and affection that is obviously mutual.  This is easier than you think. Imagine what obstacles a relationship between them might have, and then have your character foresee this obstacle as too troublesome to deal with.

For example, in a Romeo/Juliet type storyline, two characters might pine for the other but fail to act on their feelings due to family expectations. An artist might never pursue art because their parents expect them to be a doctor, just like a person may not pursue another romantically because their parents wouldn’t approve. 

Geography might be another potential obstacle. Two characters that meet unexpectedly while on vacation may hit it off, but knowing they each live on separate coastlines, they anticipate a stressful long-distance relationship and hold back on confessing feelings. 

An existing relationship is a big one - a character might not feel fully committed to their current partner, but their partner has never treated them poorly and for all intents and purpose, they seem perfect for each other. So they hold back feelings for another person because they don’t want to hurt the person they’re currently with, who they do still care about deeply. Their life might also be comfortable with this person, or even well established, with a nice home and kids, and not wanting to hurt your children with a divorce is a big reason someone might hold back on feelings for someone else. 

Basically, you need to consider what is stopping each character from confessing their feelings. Fear of rejection is implied - there needs to be more than that in order to carry mutual pining for an entire novel. There need to be other obstacles, and they need to be ones that your characters can predict, and ones they care about. 

Let me put it much more simply. Instead of each character asking, “What if they don’t love me back?” have them ask, “What if they do love me back?” And consider what the answer to that question is. Once these feelings are requited, what are the consequences?  What is each character afraid of? 

So I think that would be my biggest suggestion - make their hesitations be about more than rejection. And when it comes to describing their emotions, don’t try too hard. Tell your story, and see what emotions naturally unfold. We convey emotion by putting ourselves into the shoes of our characters and imagining how it might make us feel. I think once you have the story well plotted and the characters well developed, it’ll become easier to describe what each of them is feeling. 

Good luck!


orenchidesu  asked:

Awwww your writing is so amazing! So what about headcanons for RFA (+ V and Saeran if possible, I luv them...) come back home and find MC getting crazy over boys in otome game **cough** just like me **cough**



  • he’s so annoyed
  • when mc finally explains that it’s just an otome game i mean he’s a lil offended but glad that they’re enjoying themselves
  • he’s kinda confused if this counts as cheating or not but…. definitely not??
  • but still mc u got the real deal …. why chase after the generic otome cool guy when u literally have the cool guy in front of you
  • jumin likes making a point that he’s probably richer than every character in that game but not in a mean way just in a showy way
  • also will get all snide and snippy if they play while spending alone time with him mc he is only free so often with his schedule treasure him


  • when mc said they were playing a game he did not expect this kind of game
  • “oh… but am i not doing a good job?”
  • NO YOOSUNG ST oP THAT???? ur FINE shut uP
  • yoosung literally goes into a crisis like oh no did she have to resort to games because i was not satisfactory
  • mc needs to have a talk with this boy and sort his shit out like no they love u, that doesn’t change just cus a dumb game and he is then ok
  • but sometimes he gets a lil jealous and grumpy and wants mc’s attention
  • hug him and let him know he’s loved mc yr his first….. he needs all the support he can get what a bub


  • understands the concept of it pretty easily
  • is pretty ok with mc playing it, it must be lonely while jaehee works
  • but regardless jaehee is pretty firm knowing that mc loves her and that’s all she needs to go on
  • games like that will have her heart temporarily, but she’ll have mc’s heart for much longer
  • what a princess no one fucking touch her
  • not even jumin like back off she’s so pure but anyways
  • probably the only one in the rfa who’s okay with this LMAOAOAOA
  • shiiii son jaehee probably downloads the game herself to see what the hypes about
  • she lw gets hooked on it too oops


  • he is salty. saltier than the sea. someone help him he’s so extra and theatrical but what did u expect,,,
  • literally dies because “but mc i’m so much better LOOKING than all of them!!!!!”
  • um,,,, get it together zen…
  • he actually physically and mentally cant so just clingwraps himself to mc like love me!!! i am!!! right here!!! look at me!!!!
  • okay okay ok   a  a y y y and mc just has to remind him that it’s just a game
  • he needs to repeat it like he’s at rehearsal just to finally get it i stg he’s 6


  • wants to know everything about this game. he’s designed a few games himself so he is curious what the hype is all about.
  • lowkey criticizes every character
  • he shits on this game and goes like “pffft i’ll make a BETTER one”
  • is also pretty salty that mc is playing a dating game when THEY ALREADY ARE DATING SOMEBODY
  • since he’s a little shit he literally makes an otome game
  • the romantic interest options? there’s only one it’s seven lol
  • creates a currency in the game too as honey buddha chips 
  • this is ridiculous but actually kinda genius and come on that’s so cute
  • mc literally spends days playing this game there’s so much content seven h o w ??
  • he even added the whole rfa as secondary characters in the game
  • and when mc reaches the end the ending screen literally just says “i love you” and honestly someone kill me


  • hm. interesting.
  • he only finds out when he peeks over mc’s shoulder one day just lovingly and out of the blue
  • who r u texting??? that’s not the rfa chat??? but ??? ok he stays outchea business
  • but when mc brings it up to him he’s so confused?? but he takes it with grace he’s like. “oh that’s nice what are each of the characters like”
  • probably handles it second best to jaehee because he’s not super secure abt mc’s love for him but 
  • as long as mc’s happy he’s grinning ear to ear as mc talks about what these characters are like
  • and sometimes when mc needs help with choosing an option he can step in and he’s very good at this
  • but of course he knows how to respond to everything
  • he offers in depth and insightful answers and even mc sometimes is like bro,,, it ain’t that deep fam…..


  • he has no concept of this
  • doesn’t this basically count as cheating
  • but it’s even worse the other man isn’t even real
  • he’s so Bitter like even seven is like chill,,,,,, it’s.,,,, it’s o k
  • mc literally has to pull saeran aside and explain that none of it is real and her feelings aren’t actual feelings for them it’s just for fun sorta
  • regardless mc is always gonna be there to luv n support saeran and real life does have priority yanno mc isn’t dumb!!!
  • so mc probably ends up putting the game aside for a day or two and spend quality time with saeran who’s still kinda like just woke up from a nap grumpy since this revelation
  • he evens out, maybe after like…. two weeks of trying to explain it
  • better late than never???