“i don’t have the tears to cry anymore. but…i at least have to keep yu safe” // “i promise you, mika. even if i have to sell out the whole world to do it, i’ll make sure you’re turned back into a human.”
He doesn’t understand me.
He doesn’t understand
why I am trying to save him,
why I am trying to ‘cheer him up’.
He doesn’t understand
why I am putting my ego aside,
why I am putting my pride under his shoes
and watching him crush it.
And I don’t understand
how to tell him my reasons,
my oh so selfish reasons.
I don’t think he would ever understand
that I have to save him,
I have to keep him good and going.
I have to get him out of the grave
he is digging for himself.
I don’t know how to tell him that
I need to save him
even though he has never saved me,
even though I couldn’t save myself,
that I have to save him
because I couldn’t save myself
and because I know what it feels like
to scream for help
and have no one to save you.
i don’t think he’ll ever understand that i love him, that i am in love with him // JustScribbledWords
sometimes i think about
all the times we laughed
and all the memories we created
and i miss them
i remember how easy it was for you
to throw it all away
because in the end
i realized you didn’t care about me at all
you just didn’t want to be alone.
I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
Bad writing is more than a matter of shit syntax and faulty observation; bad writing usually arises from a stubborn refusal to tell stories about what people actually do― to face the fact, let us say, that murderers sometimes help old ladies cross the street.
Another good example to illustrate the complexity of human motivation is the practice of ‘work to rule’, where workers slow output by strictly following the rules that govern their tasks. You may wonder how workers can hurt their employers by working according to the rule. However, this semi-strike method - known also as the ‘Italian strike’ and as ‘sciopero bianco’ or ‘white strike’ by Italians) - is known to reduce output by 30-50 per cent. This is because not everything can be specified in employment contracts (rules) and therefore all production processes rely heavily on workers’ goodwill to do extra things that are not required by their contract or exercise initiatives and take shortcuts to expedite things, when the rules are too cumbersome. The rules behind such non-selfish behaviours are varied - fondness of their jobs, pride in their workmanship, self-respect, solidarity with their colleagues, trust in their managers, loyalty to the company - but the bottom line is that companies, and thus our economy, would grind to a halt if people acted in a totally selfish way, as they are assumed to do in free-market economics.
Ha-Joon Chang (23 Things They Don’t Tell You About Capitalism, Thing 5, pg 46-47)
one of the worst things in the world is being in love with someone and seeing them feeling lonely and wishing someone would love them because you know deep inside that the only reason they feel that way is because you’re too selfish to tell them the truth and it hurts so much for the both of you
Selfishness must always be forgiven you know, because there is no hope for a cure.
I agree with this 100%. Somebody who is very selfish whether they inherit that from their family or they are just in general, they’ll most likely 99% chance be like this for the rest of their lives. It’s sad, but true.