I’m sensitive and sometimes i feel bad for no reason. I often have tantrums. I am unpredictable. I’m a very difficult girl.
But please stay. Be by my side. Hug me until i’ve calmed down. Risk it.
I swear, it’s worth it.
this is a video about platform shoes. among other things aswell but mostly about platform shoes. for as long as i’ve been creative i’ve been fearful. fearful of rejection, fearful of failure, fearful of “who does this kid think he is?” but a year ago i signed my record deal and i thought i was going to wake up one morning and all of a sudden be the dopest person on the planet, with sick style and incredible music. i realised soon after that it was not going to be that easy. i realised that the art i appreciate and the people i appreciate are not just your average person walking down the street. you could take away their money and take away their fame and they would cut up a garbage bag and be wearing it like it just came off the runaway in paris. they’d still be doing that thing that is just left of centre that you either love or you hate, but to be frank they don’t give a fuck what you think. ART IS RISK. upon realising this it’s been an interesting journey. i’m on the path to being a person that i’m equally terrified by and obsessed with: my true self. i realised that if i wanted to make cool shit, i had to make cool shit. if that cool shit was letting myself scream into a microphone in a room full of people looking like a complete idiot because i know that it’s gonna sound amazing on the final track, it’s about doing that. but this doesn’t only apply to me. if it means taking rad photos that your friends are gonna condescendingly call “so tumblr”, it’s about doing that. if it’s about singing at the top of your lungs when you’re tone deaf, it’s about doing that. if it’s about showing off your ass because you know it’s cute, even though you might get called a slut, it’s doing that. if it’s wearing something that you probably can’t pull off like woman’s platform converse shoes when you’re a 19 year old man, it’s about doing that. whatever it is, i urge you to do it. don’t let people stifle you because you’re doing the shit that they have always been too scared to do. love your body, let your mind wander and let yourself be the person that you’ve secretly always wanted to be. LIFE ISN’T ABOUT FINDING YOURSELF, IT’S ABOUT CREATING YOURSELF. i love you guys so much and i’ll see you all next week.
I suppose it could be liberating, taking a leap of faith, to shrug off the burden of proof, the promise of hope. It takes trust to turn darkness to light; and those who trust, risk putting their faith in the wrong hands- for there are those who pray for you -and there are those who prey on you
John Constantine from Constantine (via noxstopxandxxgo)