They say that the person you like or love would make you want to become a better person, that they would inspire you to become the best version of yourself. So why then whenever I think of you I love myself a little less and hate myself a little bit more, until all I have is hatred for myself? Why then whenever I think of you all I want to do is to self-destruct? Why then with you, I’ve become the worst possible version of myself?
cynthia go // You bring out the worst in me // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #34
What happens when he actually treats you right, though? Will you both live happily ever after? Or will you push him away and not trust him? You’re so used to being stabbed by the ones that you love that now you’ve become the one who’s holding the knife.
Sometimes I wonder if I should tell you all that goes on in my head. Because honestly, I know you have no idea. But I just can’t. Bringing it up, bringing up what happened? It hurts. It hurts me like nothing ever has before. It’s easier to keep pretending like it never happened, and just deal with it myself instead. But months have gone by and I’m scared. How many months will go by with me still remembering what you did, until my heart can’t take the pain you caused anymore?
Both meaning power to socially and politically weaker parties than that of white men.
However, when a white man hears ‘Black Power’,
He hears a threat to himself.
A threat of dominance.
When he hears ‘Girl Power’,
He hears a foolish concept.
He hears a contradiction.
‘Girl’ and ‘Power’
Don’t resonate with him.
The two words don’t go together.
He sees her as silly.
He sees Black Power as a threat.
He fears the black man who says ‘Power to black people’
He ridicules the woman who says ‘Power to women’
Never seeing their oppression.
Never seeing his privilege.
Never seeing so many different types of people are protesting for this ‘power’.
He thinks they are greedy.
Haven’t they been given enough?
He he has allowed them so much.
He is aware of his ‘generosity’.
Yet, he still cannot see this privilege they’re saying he has.
He doesn’t see an issue.
He doesn’t understand that the 'Power’ in question, isn’t what he perceives it to be.
It isn’t to be more powerful than white people and men.
It isn’t to be better than them.
It’s to simply have power.
The power he has.
The power he abuses.
As a white man.
All of the white men with their heads in the sand and the power in their hand.