It takes an incredible amount of mental and emotional stamina to recognize that you’re at a point in your life where a relationship would not be in your best interests. It takes even more willpower to resist the urge to fall into useless or even harmful flings with someone who would never love you the way you deserve, yet tells you they could. I used to have so much respect for those people who could accept that they weren’t ready for a relationship and then just simply not date. Now that I’m in that boat myself, I see how hard it is. I feel the pain, the loneliness. I see the empty bed at night and the empty spot beside me at the table when I’m drinking my morning coffee. And dammit, this shit is hard. It’s a lonely period of life. But I keep telling myself to focus on the here and now, to accomplish my goals, to just live life as it’s given to me, and before I know it five years will have passed and the right man will be at my doorstep with a bouquet of black-eyed-susan’s and an arm for me to hold. And it’ll be at that moment that I will look back at this season of life and be so thankful and proud of myself for not wasting my love on someone who didn’t appreciate it.