It always cuts deepest when you don’t expect it. When it hits you in the middle of a good day. Or when it breaks your heart in the night, that is what hurts you. You learn things about people, your own emotions, their emotions, it overwhelms you. All because it hits you all in one go with no warning. You want to deal with it and remove it from your life, but you can’t. You must let it heal slowly. Just because the destruction was quick it does not mean you can rebuild a home in a hour.
Letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it’s pulled, you’re relieved. But how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was not hurting you doesn’t mean you did not notice it. It leaves a gap. And sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain.Therefore, move on and let go.
You must be willing to change. You must be willing to break the deal you made with the devils within. You must be willing to leave the past and not be tempted to rebound when times are tough. You must be willing to let go of everything and anyone that takes you back to your sins. You must be willing to have hope. You must be willing to have hope that you can change and that you will and that you will be better. You must believe you are worthy of change and you are worthy of improvement and you are worthy of being the best. You must be willing to set aside your negative notions about life, about hardships, about people, about things, about yourself. You must be willing to stop feeling sorry for yourself while looking at the world move around you. Get up and make something of yourself.