Suddenly I feel the need to talk about the last chapter and about my boy, because okay we have seen that one single scene where Yuu has to inject that shit on his neck to pull out the Seraph gene thing and he goes berserk.
There’s a gap of three days so I actually tried to imagine in my mind like damn imagine that scene happening over and over in those days Yuu has been training hard to control for FEWseconds the Seraph gene in him, because that’s the only hope they have to defeat such a strong progenitor like Ky Luc.
Yuu having to use that syringe and inject the thing every freaking time on his neck when he clearly said “Oh that looks painful.” but the pain doesn’t matter because that’s for his family so a little pain on his neck doesn’t matter if it’s for THEM BECAUSE HE IS NEEDED.What’s even more sad it’s that he doesn’t even have a scar on his neck because he heals even faster now as a Namanari.
Being knocked down every freaking time until he is not able to finally control for those damn few seconds the power of that Seraph, feeling pain everywhere on his limbs, muscles, NAMANARI SERAPH OR DEMON HE STILL HURTS. And again only dirt on his face and clothes, but no scars or sign of injuries on his skin because he keeps healing super fast.
And no matter how exhausted he is, how much his body is in pain HE STILL SMILES WARM LIKE THE SUNSHINE.
Over and over he keeps standing up on his own feet and spread his lips in that weary grin he always shows for his family because he doesn’t want to worry them and he knows he’s the only hope for them to be safe and to kick Progenitors’ asses
SO HE SMILES AND
“Then I gotta try harderd next time heh!”
I just felt the urge to remind everyone how much this boy is fighting and working hard for his family, how much he is exhausted but it doesn’t mattter how many times he keeps falling because he’s always gonna stand up and work even harder for them, like this endless burning energy always keeping him up on his feet for his family despite of how much he hurts.
sometimes I listen to little love songs and little sappy romance tunes and I start thinking about how happy Ren/Kuon and Kyoko could be together. Like imagine their future if they ever finally end up as a couple. Like the two of them barefoot on the couch reading over their script notes after a dinner Kyoko orchestrated. The genuine joy and a new romantic lack of inhibitions for Ren and cozy little moments and reassurances and love AAND
Fear comes from the heart. If ever you feel overcome by dread of some illness or accident, you should inhale and exhale deeply, slowly, and rhythmically several times, relaxing with each exhalation. This helps the circulation to become normal. If your heart is truly quiet you cannot feel fear at all.
I feel awful right now, I feel like i want to burst into tears and i feel like i can't breath even though im pretty sure i am fine. What do i do?
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, I’m hoping my advice helps!
Let’s do some deep breathing to help calm you down… Breathe in through your nose and count 1… 2… 3… then let your breathe out through your mouth for 1…2…3…4… This should help you remain calm and it also helps by relaxing. Everything is going to be okay, I promise!
Something I’d like you to know love, is that crying doesn’t make you weak or any less of a person. Crying is a natural sign of a strong emotion. Letting your tears flow is okay, but what’s important is how you pick yourself back up from those sad times.
Take care and don’t forget to smile because you’re beyond amazing! :)
Sit comfortably, where you won’t be disturbed for a few minutes.
Become aware of your breath.
Now, deliberately choose to take some air in.
And then before you let it out, take some more air in, and before you let it out, take another sip in. Breathe in more, breathe in more, breathe in more. And when you think that you cannot breathe in any more - take in one more sip of air.
Then experience the deliciousness of a long, easy out, out, out.
As you concentrate on your breath, you are not concentrating on other things. And in the absence of resistance, you are also allowing an alignment of energy in your body. Breath is the current that carries the vitality to the cells in your entire body. By breathing deeply, you allow oxygen to reach the extremities of your cells.
As you practice taking in more air deliberately, more consistently, you will also begin to do it more involuntarily. You will expand your lung capacity and you will naturally begin to breathe more deeply.
The deeper the breath, the further the reach. The deeper the breath, the further the reach, the better your body works. Metabolism works better, elimination works better, clarity works better, blood flows better. And so, the more you breathe, the more you thrive.
Deep belly breathing increases lung capacity, increases oxygenation throughout the body, strengthens your immune system, and helps relieve stress.
Try counting to 8 as you breath in deeply and slowly through the nose, really contract the belly,
hold for a count of 4 & feel the pressure on the upper abdomen and spinal cord,
exhale for a count of 8 as you release all the intense thoughts and negative emotions
Try this for 4-8 cycles
Have you been stressed out? Crazy world got you down? Stuck in bad traffic? Late for an appointment? Don’t fret. Sometimes the best thing that you can do for your body during stressful times is to BREATHE DEEPLY. Deep inhalation…..deep exhalation…..Deep inhalation…..deep exhalation. Give it a try! What do you have to lose?? -JR
Reminder that if you are a victim of sexual abuse it’s normal …
1. It’s normal to have thought about the abuse 2. It’s normal to be aroused be said thoughts, this does not mean your abuse was invalid, this is the body’s normal rection to sexaul things. 2-a. Arousal does not mean consent either so do not beat yourself up over this. 3. It’s normal to have intrusive thoughts that disgust you, you are not a bad person for thinking sexually when you aren’t even trying to 4. It’s normal to be sexual repulsed or scared to be touched, don’t think you are ‘’ being difficult ‘’, you aren’t. 4-a. It’s also normal to be hypersexual and WANT to be touched even if it does disgust you, this does not mean you liked your abuse and it does not invalidate it. 4-b. As well as it’s normal to be both sex repulsed but also hyper sexual, do not beat yourself up over this. 5. It’s normal to wish it didn’t happen and to doubt yourself, to think you overreacted or just misunderstood the actions, Though i promise you, you didn’t make it up, you are valid and you are a survivor. 6. it’s normal to have nightmares / dreams about the abuse, Those don’t invalidate your abuse either, you just pushed those thoughts so far into your subconscious that once you sleep you start thinking of them again, that’s why you have those nightmares, not because you ‘’ wanted it ‘’ 7. To be scared of people, anyone, even people you once trusted, even if they didn’t do anything wrong 8. it’s EXTREMELY normal to laugh about it, and downplay it with people who know what happened, it’s normal to say ‘’ yeah that happened lol it was fucked up ‘’. It does not invalidate what happened nor does it mean you have ‘’ recovered ‘’, you are just coping. 9. It’s normal to overthink everything and to be worried about the strangers around you, you are in a constant survival mood a lot of the time so you will notice even the smallest of actions people might do, it’s okay, it’s normal, You are not being judgemental or rude, you are doing what you know best, surviving.
This is an incomplete list and anyone can add onto it.