I relate to basically, every character in shadowhunters, because they are all Extra™.
I mean we have,
• Jace “I will backflip over every fucking thing just because” Herondale/Lightwood
• Alec “my first kiss with the love of my kife will be in the middle of MY wedding in front of MY entire family and the goddamn clave” Lightwood
• Magnus “I am not dramatic but I do sometimes match my chair to my clothes and dance the night away while drinking a fancy ass cocktail” Bane
• Maia “I am so petty about Climon I will make out with Jace, just because” Roberts
• Simon “actually admitting I am not straight? What is that? Lemme eye fuck both Jace and Raphael at every given chance” Lewis
I HAD TO WATCH MY BABY ALEC TRY TO FIX HIS MISTAKES AND GET DISRESPECTED BY THE SEELIE QUEEN WHILE MAGNUS WOULDN’T EVEN LOOK AT HIM????
Don’t get me wrong. I love Magnus, I adore him, he’s my precious bean, but how he acted with Alec in this episode was just…well, mean.
Alec made mistakes.
They both know that and Alec is trying to do the right thing. He apologised and tried to make peace with the Seelie Queen.
He knows that he fucked up, but he wants to do better and to gain back Magnus’ trust. He also wants to help the Downworld, he is acting like the true Head of the NY Institute.
And what is Magnus doing?
He’s being petty.
Now, I know he has been hurt and no one should see his pain as not valid. He suffered through centuries of heartbreak and Alec broke his trust when he was certain he never would.
But all of this is so new to Alec! And that doesn’t forgive everything but it’s normal for a 20 years old-ish man who just got into his first relationship and first real job (with power and responsabilities) to mess up sometimes.
What is not normal is for a 400 years old warlock, who is the HIGH WARLOCK of motherfucking BROOKLYN to ignore Alec who is, I’ll say it again, THE HEAD OF THE NY INSTITUTE at a Downworld meeting.
And to look PISSED when Alec tries to talk to him, like wtf?
No, we know that the queen is just a filthy traitor and that all of this is going to back fire for Magnus and the warlocks. And I am sorry for them, I really am.
But I feel like Magnus totally let his feelings cloud his actions. He took a decision because he felt like Alec betrayed him. He decided to fight along the Seelies who he knows almost nothing about because Alec didn’t tell him about the Soul Sword.
And I know, I know, he is suffering and hurting and I understand.
But Alec is too.
This was his first relationship and in the matter of minutes he got his heart broken and he was left alone to deal with an upcoming war after his little brother just escaped death.
Talk about suffering.
But Alec was ready to work with the Seelies and the entire Downworld to protect them because he is acting like a Leader. Not like a bitter ex boyfriend.
I am honestly so mad at Magnus. And I almost hope that they don’t get back together in 2x20 because he should also apologise for his actions.
I don’t want them to go back together after Alec apologise again and Magnus is just like “You’re forgiven.”
I want Alec to apologise, yes, but I also want Alec to tell Magnus that he also broke his trust and made him feel like shit because he choose to trust the Seelie Queen and not him. You know Alec would have accepted Magnus choosing his people over him (even if he probably wouldn’t do the same) but having to come to face with the fact that Magnus is working with the Seelie Queen AGAINST the Shadowhunters, that must be a low blow.
Alec deserves apologies as well.
They are both unperfect and they make mistakes but right now the only one who is trying to fix them is Alec and it fucking kills me.
But…Malec forever. I love them and I want them back together, just… let Magnus know he fucked up too.
ALSO CLACE WAS NOT THAT BAD AND I AM ACTUALLY STARTING TO LIKE CLARY BECAUSE SHE’S LIKE A BADASS BABY
ISABELLE WAS PERFECT
JACE WAS SUPER COOL
LUKE IS MY DAD
RAPHAEL DESERVES APOLOGIES TOO
SIMON IS ADORABLE
MAIA DESERVES BETTER THAN THIS BULLSHIT
THE SEELIE QUEEN CAN CHOKE
VALENTINE CAN SUCK MY PINKY TOE