2017 is the year of being a little selfish… not being insensitive to the needs of your friends, but putting your own first… 2017 is the year of making sure you’ve secured your oxygen mask before helping others
Big Ol’ Honkin’ OC Question List-- Long Post Ahead!
Alright, here we go– I put together a list of questions about OCs that you can reblog and have people send in asks for you! I set it up so you can be like, “A3″, “D2″, et cetera… Keep checking in here to the original post in case I add some more to the list! In the meantime, I hope y’all have some fun with this and maybe use it to learn a little bit more about your OCs or get to share things about them!!
What of the Meyers-Briggs personality types they most fit into? INFP, ENFT, et cetera…
What alignment are they? Chaotic neutral, lawful evil, et cetera…
Do they have any emotional or psychological conditions? Are they aware of it? Do they try to treat it?
Are they a pessimist or an optimist?
Are they good at handling change in their life?
Does your OC tend to assume their interpretation of events and reality is correct, or do they question it? I.e., “I’m sure that’s what you said” versus “It’s possible I misheard you.”
Is your OC confident in their reactions to life in general, or do they get embarrassed or easily shamed for it? I.e., if something startles them, do they insist it WAS scary? When they cry, do they feel like they overreacted?
Is your OC a martyr?
Does your OC make a lot of excuses? For themselves? Others?
Does your OC compromise easily? Too easily?
Does your OC put others’ needs before their own?
Does your OC have any addictions? If so and problematic, have they admitted it to themselves?
Does your OC have any phobias? If so, where did they come from?
Is your character empathetic?
Is your character observant?
Does your OC have to go through their own trials to learn a lesson, or do they listen and learn from observation and lecture? I.e., does your OC listen when someone tries to tell them the importance of budgeting, or do they have to go experience what happens if you don’t budget first?
What’s one of your OC’s proudest moments of themselves?
Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do?
What instantly irritates them or puts them in a bad mood?
Are they harsh on themselves?
Do they make excuses often?
Is your OC intended to be found generally attractive? Unattractive? Average? Is there a reason why?
Does your OC place much importance on their appearance? Do they feel confident in it?
What are some of your OC’s biggest personal obstacles? This could be emotional, physical, social… Are they aware of it? Are they trying to overcome it?
Do they believe you have to give respect to get it, or get respect to give it?
Do they get frustrated when lines at places like pharmacies, check-outs, delis, banks, et cetera, are moving slowly?
Under what situations would they get angry at servers, staff, customer service, et cetera?
Do they tip well? How easily can they be moved to not leave a tip?
Do they hold doors open for people?
Would your OC let someone ahead of them in line if your OC had a big cart and the person behind them had very few items?
How do they respond to babies crying in public?
Is your OC considered funny? Do they believe they’re funny?
What kind of humor does your OC like the most? Slapstick, ironic, funny sounds, scare pranks, xD sO rAnDoM…
Does your OC find any “bad” or “mean” humor funny? Do they wish they didn’t?
Your OC is running late to meeting someone: Do they let the other person know? Do they lie about why they’re late?
Your OC orders something to eat and gets their order done in a pretty wrong way, something they can’t just pick off or whatnot to correct, or something major is missing. What do they do?
Do they have a large or small group of friends?
Do they have people they are genuinely honest with about themselves?
Does your OC enjoy social events, such as parties, clubs, et cetera..?
Does your OC like to be the center of attention or more in the mix?
Does your OC have a moral code? If not, how do they base their actions? If so, where does it come from, and how seriously do they take it?
Would your OC feel bad if they acted against their morals? If not, would they find a way to excuse themselves for it?
Is it important for them to be with people (socially, intimately, whatever) whose major ideological tenets align with their own?
Do they consider themselves superior or more important than anyone else? Lesser?
Do your OC’s morals and rules of common decency go out the window when it comes to those they don’t like, or when it’s inconvenient? Aka, are their morals situational?
What do they do when they see someone asking for money or food? If they ignore them, why? If they help, how so?
Do they believe people change over time? If so, is it a natural process or does it take effort?
Is your OC more practical or ideal morally? I.e., do they hold people to high expectations of behavior even if it’s not realistic for the situation, or do they have a more realistic approach and adapt their morality to be more practical?
D. Religion and Life and Death
How religious is your OC? What do they practice, if anything? If they don’t associate with any religion, what do they think of religion in general?
Do they believe in an afterlife?
How comfortable are they with the idea of death?
Would they like to be immortal? Why, why not? If they are immortal, would they rather not be?
Do they believe in ghosts? If not, why? If so, do they think they’re magical/tie into their religion, or are they scientifically plausible?
E. Education and Intelligence
Would you say that your OC is intelligent? In what ways? Would your OC agree?
Which of the nine types of intelligence is your OC strongest in? Weakest? (Linguistic, existential, naturalist, et cetera)
How many languages do they speak?
Did they enjoy school if they went to it?
What’s their highest education level? Do they want to continue their education?
Do they enjoy learning? Do they actively seek out sources of self-education?
Are they a good note-taker? Are they a good test-taker? Do exams make them nervous?
What’s one of your OC’s biggest regrets?
F. Domestic Habits, Work, and Hobbies
What sort of home do they live in now, if at all? How did they end up there?
What’s their ideal home look like? Where is it?
Could they ever live in a “tiny home”?
How clean are they overall with home upkeep?
How handy are they? Can they fix appliances, cars, cabinets, et cetera?
How much do they work? What do they do? Do they enjoy it?
What’s their “dream career” or job situation?
How often are they home?
Are they homebodies and enjoy being home?
Do they engage in any of the arts? How good do you intend them to be? Would they agree they are?
What are some of their favorite things to do for recreation? How did they get into it? What part of it do they like the most?
Would they enjoy a theme park?
G. Family and Growing Up
Is your OC close to their family?
Who makes up your OC’s family, at least the more important members to them?
Does your OC find their family supportive? If not, what would be an example why not?
What kind of childhood did your OC have?
Did they go through any typical phases growing up?
Do they have any favorite childhood memories?
Do they have any childhood memories they’d rather forget or be less affected by?
H. Romance and Intimacy
What is your OC’s orientation, romantic and/or sexual? Has it ever been a source of stress for them? Have they always been pretty sure of their orientation?
Is your OC a thoughtful partner, in whatever aspect of that you want to cover?
Does your OC believe there’s only one ideal partner (or multiple ideal if not monogamous) for everyone, or that there are many people who could be right?
Does your OC believe in love in first sight?
Does your OC believe in marriage (or their culture’s equivalent)?
Has your OC ever cheated on anyone or been cheated on?
What do they look for in partners? (Emotionally, mentally, physically..)
What’s your OC’s idea of a perfect date?
What are some things that your OC finds to be an instant turn-off in potential partners?
What are their favorite kinds of flavors– Sweet, salty, sour, spicy, creamy, et cetera?
Do they have any eating requirements or preferences? Allergies, vegetarian, organic-only, religious restrictions…
Are they vegan/vegetarian (if their overall culture/species generally aren’t)? If so, why? Do they think animal products are wrong in all circumstances?
How often do they cook? Do they order out a lot?
Are they a good cook?
Could they eat the same thing they enjoy over and over and not get bored of it quickly?
J. Politics, Current Events, Environmental Aspects
Where does your OC stand most politically? What would they align with most?
How politically aware are they?
How politically active are they?
Is your OC the sort to fall for fake news? If not, do they ignore it or make a point to clarify that it’s wrong?
Are they or would they protest for a cause they’re passionate about?
How do they react to people whose political viewpoints are very opposite of theirs?
How much interest in environmental health do they have?
In reality-based or applicable worlds, do they believe in global warming? Do they recycle?
K. For OCs in Reality-Based Worlds Who Are Unusual in Paranormal Ways (such as magical abilities, being another species, having a curse like lycanthropy, sci-fi abilities, being from another time, et cetera)– Also for OCs where the scenario is similar even if their universe isn’t based on reality
Does your OC have to keep their paranormal aspect (PA) a secret from general society? If so, how? I.e., they can’t discuss their abilities, they have to hide a tail, they have an alter-ego, et cetera. What would happen if society found out about it?
Are there others in their universe with the same or a similar PA as your OC? I.e., others from different dimensions, others of their same species. Do they know about it?
Does your OC have any friends who know about their PA? Any enemies?
Does your OC ever use their PA to get an advantage? I.e., use their ability to be invisible to steal or get out of things, compete in track while their species is a naturally superior runner, use their invulnerability in careers like police work… If so, do they have any hang-ups about it?
Does your OC feel isolated or unrelatable due to the experience their PA brings with it? If so, how do they deal with it?
Does their PA cause issues in daily life? I.e., if they’re inhuman in a human universe and they can’t go to a doctor or risk the doctor realizing they are not human, super abilities with physical drawbacks, they don’t have control of their abilities and must keep to themselves, et cetera… If so, how do they feel about it?
Does your OC’s PA affect their dietary habits so that they are unusual or problematic by their society’s standards?
What are some routines, if any, of self-care that your OC must engage in that are not typical of their society? I.e., having to file their teeth, maintaining magical rituals, drinking blood…
Does your OC have knowledge that they can’t share with the rest of their world that could improve it if it didn’t cause chaos? I.e., a character from the future knowing about technology not yet invented, but they can’t reveal themselves by sharing it?
Would your OC give up their PA if they could? Why or why not?
L. For the Writer/Owner
How have your characters changed since you created them?
What do you consider the biggest themes in your character, if any?
Did you create the character to be like yourself, did they end up being like yourself, or are they very different from you?
Would you hang out with your OC if you could?
Which OC do you think is the most decent morally or behaviorally?
AKA, which is supposed to a “good guy”?
Which OC do you think is the worst morally or behaviorally?
AKA, which is supposed to be a “bad guy”?
“Find someone who chooses you no matter what. Who doesn’t mind giving up a night out to look into your eyes and hold your hands until your breathing slows down. Or wants to go grocery shopping with you as much as they want to hide beneath your sheets together all weekend. Or sometimes puts your needs before their own, because you’re feeling a little stressed and they know you deserve the help just that tiny bit more. Find someone who understands every face of your personality, and loves each one equally, because if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that someone who won’t even consider giving up their time for you isn’t worth your time at all.”
1. The last time you made the mistake of making a home out of a pair of arms and a soft smile, you learned the hard way that anything that moves, that can blame, that can cause ache does not deserve such an elevated status in your heart. Still, you are an anomaly, a wild thing hoping for a home. A sailor wishing to leave the ocean and return.
2. I still remember a day when your father had lifted you in his arms and told you that you are loved, more than you ever know. It was two days before the plane crash that took him. It was two days before I saw death dance in your broken eyes for the first time. I don’t think it ever stopped dancing there.
3. Yesterday, someone asked you, “who do you trust most in the world?” And you felt that your lips were sewn shut. Everybody you should love and trusts’ names felt rough and raw on your tongue like they were in a foreign language that you had become too ancient to learn. So instead you whispered your own name like a secret into the abyss and hoped no one saw the sadness that had crawled it’s way along with your name out of your mouth.
4. A summer ago, you asked me what it was like to not need a place to call home. I know you asked this from a place of trauma, that your trauma has convinced you it will all be okay once you find a home. But it is lying, because what you need up find is your healing. And I told you that wanderlust had etched itself so ornately into my bones that I had no choice but to travel till it had sated itself. You looked at me with envy, even as I thought of all the people who would love to make a home of your heartbeat. You however were looking for a certain kind of love that you would call your very own. A kind of love that would never abandon you the way everyone you have ever loved has.
5. Something about you glowed bigger and better than all the stars we gazed at in the night sky. And even then, even when you had everything, you longed for a human to belong in. But everytime you laid the foundations for something good, they came crashing and tumbling down on your head. Because your trauma is a perfectionist and no one could quite become what you needed and wanted at the same time.
6. I wish I had told you then what I told you in that very last letter before I left. That child, why did no one ever teach you that you cannot turn people into homes? People are rivers, ever changing, ever flowing. They will disappear with everything you put inside them. Still, that home you are hunting for does have a heartbeat. But it isn’t one locked in anyone else’s chest. Just look inside your own.
Some tips to writing gay sex when you aren’t a gay guy:
When your characters are cis men:
Preparation can be key. If your character didn’t expect to have sex that night, then he probably isn’t prepared. If there is penetration going to be happening, some men prefer to get themselves ready… y’know… clean up. Otherwise bad stuff can sometimes happen and it’s not pleasant for either person.
LUBE. Not spit. LUBE. Spit dries up really easily and it can pull on that sensitive flesh and that’s not a pleasant experience for most people. There are also different types of lube which you can choose from depending on the type of situation!
There are other ways of having sex then putting dick in butt. Many other ways. Explore them! This also applies to every other gender.
Stretching before penetration is important, it can REALLY hurt otherwise. Your character needs to be relaxed, but don’t overstretch them (that can hurt too). That ain’t fun buddy, don’t put your character through that.
Don’t just… have your guy who is on top slam his dick into the other? That’s not fun, put some speed differences in there, have him pay attention to the other’s responses.
When the characters are trans men:
All trans men are different, much like all cis men are different, and all girls are different, and all other-gendered-folk are different as well. Each has their own experience with their lives, these notes are just things that I’ve personally learned along the way, so they may not be applicable to everyone!
After going on HRT (hormone replacement therapy), men can grow facial hair and get a deeper voice.
If your character shows signs of having hormones, he may not be able to produce natural lubrication anymore in his parts. Much like cismen, he also needs lube.
Some trans men prefer anal, just cause gender dysphoria can suck sometimes.
Try to stray away from calling your trans character terms like ‘tranny’ or other terms that can be hurtful. (Some older generations may find power in the term, so this can change.)
Some trans men feel uncomfortable when people start talking about their ‘pussy’, calling them ‘woman’, or wanting to ‘impregnate them’ (which for some people -not all though- is impossible once you’ve been on HRT for a while). You might trigger the aforementioned gender dysphoria again in your readers, but also in your character.
It’s not a good feeling, so maybe stray away from that! :)
Be kind to your trans man, (and your other characters of course), so give him things that make him feel validated as the man he truly is. Use he/him/his pronouns, be obvious about it.
Feel free to add more! This is not an all-encompassing list! It’s also good to note that everything changes from person to person, so feel free to do some research and talk to trans and cis men alike, go out and write what you like, what makes you happy!
Summary: Deciding to stay in for a date, Peter and the Reader are faced with annoying and embarrassing comments from the whole team, who are unaware of their relationship.
Word Count: 2,428
Warnings: language, fluff, annoying avengers (??), embarrassed!Peter, embarrassed!Reader, cuteness, LOTR trilogy. (Let me know if I missed any)
A/N: Alright homies, I apologize it has taken me so long to upload something. I’ve been reaally stressed. So hopefully this is okay? For the anon that requested this, I hope you like it. I’d love some feedback, as always. Enjoy reading!
Dark, gray clouds blocked any source of light from shining through the big, thick glass windows surrounding every inch of the building.
The entire tower was filled with a solemn mood that spread into every corner and room.
Most of the team dreaded days like these, since it put a damper on their mood, (especially Steve).
You, however, cherished days like these the most.
It’s where you find your peace and inner self, no matter how depressing that may sound.
It helps you relax and release any stresses that corrupt your thoughts.
But the best reason of all is that you don’t have to leave the house, even if you had a date with Peter tonight.
However, thinking that idea through, you realized something.
“can i have a draco x reader where the reader gets sick or passes out during class?? like really fluffy thanks!!!” thank you so much for your request! hope you like it!
Ever since Slughorn took over as
the new Potions professor, class has been nothing short of interesting. The
first couple of lessons were challenging since no one really knew what Slughorn
was really like, would he be as strict as Snape or caring as Lupin had
been? You all soon found out that he was the definition of frazzled, not all
quite there, but overall he meant well. And of course, just like Snape, he had
his favorites, meaning Harry Potter. That didn’t sit well with most of the
Slytherins in the class, but you tried to ignore their nasty remarks towards
your friend but sometimes their teasing was too much and as a fellow Gryffindor
you had to defend both your friends and your house. But today you weren’t feeling
much of the fighting spirit in you, you had a terrible headache and wanted
nothing more than to be curled up in bed but alas you trudge your way to class.
You slowly made your way to your
seat, but you noticed that Lavander Brown had taken your usual seat since you
were late. Probably so she could stare at
Ron…The only available seat was next to Draco so you begrudgingly made your
way there as Harry and Hermione sent you a sad smile knowing that you were in
no mood to put up with the Slytherin Prince.
You weren’t feeling well and it
didn’t help that everyone was being extremely chatty today,
“Settle down! Settle down! Ms.
Brown, please stop making googly eyes at Mr. Weasley…As I was saying, today we
will be making a very challenging potion, the draught of peace! So, let’s get
to it!” Slughorn announced, and with that everyone stood up and headed towards
the back to grab what they needed. You weren’t surprised to see that everyone
pretty much grabbed all of the moonstone powder so you had to wait for someone
to be done with theirs so you could start.
But it looked like everyone was
taking their sweet time getting set up and actually starting the potion.
“I’m almost done adding the powder,
you can have it after it.” Draco said to you once you sat down. Were you
hallucinating or was Draco Malfoy actually being nice to you? You and Draco
never really talked, except for the cordial ‘hello,’ from time to time.
You simply nodded as you tied your
hair back, most of the class had ignited their cauldrons and the heat was
starting to get to you.
You both worked in silence and had
a system of sharing going on, you had the ingredients needed for the second
half of the potion and Draco had the beginning ones, so you would switch when
you needed to.
“Stir until the potion turns
orange, and then add more porcupine quills until the potion turns turquoise.” You
read out loud for what seemed to be the third time, the heat in the room was
becoming unbearable and you were having a hard time focusing.
“Are you alright Y/L/N?” Draco
asked you after the fourth time.
“Um, yeah, never been better,” you
said trying to sound convincing. He simply
nodded and went back to his own potion but he wasn’t the only one showing
concern for you, Hermione kept shooting you worried looks. After a few more
minutes she poured some of her potion into a vial for grading and then made her
way towards you, she was expecting a nasty remark from Draco but he simply
looked up and nodded towards you, his brow furrowed in concerned.
“Hey, I just finished mine, do you
need any help, Y/N?” she asked as she came to stand next to you.
“Hi ‘Mione, and no that’s okay, I’m
nearly finished, I just need to get add some more powdered porcupine quills and
I’ll be done.” Unbeknownst to you, Draco was listening intently to your
conversation. He noticed how quiet you were during breakfast in the Great Hall
and how you were late to most of your shared classes. He has a soft spot for
you, most of the Slytherins didn’t mess with you in fear of receiving backlash
from Draco. Ever since class started he noticed how flushed you were. He was
thankful Hermione came over to you because he knew you didn’t really trust him.
He was done with his own potion,
and Hermione was helping you out until Ron stole her away because he needed
help putting out the fire he created.
“Almost done?” he asked.
“Yeah, I just need to, to…to get a
vial and bottle it up.” You said softly, becoming more and more dizzy with every
word you spoke.
“Hey, are you okay?” He said
looking alarmed by how pale you had turned all of the sudden.
“I’m fi-” Your world turned black
before you could answer back.
You were definitely not fine.
You woke up a few hours later with
a pounding headache, you slowly opened your eyes, but promptly closed them
because of the bright lights of the infirmary. After a few minutes you tried
once again with much more success and tried to sit up but felt the room spin
out of control once again.
“Woah, take it easy there.” A voice
said next to you, soon enough your eyes met the worry ones of none other than
“What are you doing here?”
“Well after you decided to test out
if gravity, Potter and I brought you to Madame Pomfrey.” He said as he softly
pushed you back into the plush pillows.
“Where’s Harry?” you asked, not
seeing the mess of curls anywhere. Draco’s eyes flickered with something that
you’ve never seen before. It wasn’t the usual flicker of annoyance.
“Sorry, your little boyfriend had
to go to Quidditch practice. He said he would come by later.” Draco said
“He’s not my boyfriend.” You said
with the same curt tone but before he could say something else you cut him off.
“Wait, don’t you have practice as
well? Don’t Slytherins usually practice at the same time and place to piss off
“Well I skipped today.”
“The Slytherin seeker skipping out
on practice? I certainly feel honored, your team must really hate me right now.”
“Yeah, I would definitely watch out
for them if I were you.” He chuckled.
“Did you really skipped practice
“Well, I had to make sure you were
okay, I’m not as bad as Potter and Weaslbee make me out to be.” He said, his
cheeks turning a soft pink as he rubbed his neck nervously.
“Thank you, Draco.” You said
grabbing his hand and giving it a gentle squeeze.
“You’re welcome, Y/N.” that was the
first time he called you by your first name.
“So, I was thinking, if you’re done
testing out gravity, would you like to go with me on the next Hogsmeade trip?”
“Draco Malfoy, are you asking me
out on a date?” you said, unable to fight off the smile spreading across your
“That depends, if you say yes then
yeah I am.” he said, trying to fight off the nerves with his usual debonair.
“It’s a date.” You answered smiling
softly, Draco smiled rivaled your own. You were certainly glad that you
literally fell for him today.
Maybe you’re the girl that texts first, who overanalyzes every message before sending, wanting it to say exactly what’s on her mind.
Maybe you find yourself falling in love too easily, or giving your heart away like it’s a pin attached to the edge of your sweater sleeve. Maybe you’re the girl who has feelings for the boy who’s unsure, and you find yourself reading quote after quote about love, wondering if you’ll ever truly find it.
Maybe you’re the girl who has always cared too much, putting everyone else’s heart before her own.
And maybe, for once, you need to stop apologizing for that.
@babsxxxx: Okay soo a harry hook x reader idea for you: the reader grew up in the isle but is helping mal with saving Ben. She knew Harry from when she was growing up but hasn’t seen him in ages but he is mad at her for leaving him behind…. so yeah put your own spin on it and make is as angsty and fluffy as you can!
OK, so I may have gone a smidge overboard with this one, but I really like it. So, enjoy!
Word Count: 4336
There was a knock at your door.
You looked up, frowning for a moment, before taking this as
an excuse to put off doing the homework for Fairy Godmother’s class. Getting up
from your desk, you wandered over to your door to open it.
Sure enough, there she was.
“Y/N, we need to talk,” Mal said, pushing through into your
You were still a little thrown from her sudden appearance.
“I thought you’d gone back to the Isle? And your hair…you went back to
Mal waved a hand to cut you off. “We don’t have time for
questions right now. I need your help.”
That definitely caught your attention. “What? Why? What’s
“Ben’s been kidnapped,” Mal stated, her voice low. You’d
never heard her sound so emotional, so sincere.
You blinked. “That’s horrible…but why do you need me?
Shouldn’t we go to Fairy Godmother or Ben’s parents or–”
➤ Genre/word count: Angst, Future Smut/Mature scenes, Arranged Marriage! AU / 7,174 words
➤ Summary: He is the successor of his family’s business empire, and you are the female heir of yours. After the trouble his older brother had created in the past, he now must face certain requirements needed for the sake of the family’s future and to save his rights of inheritance, and you become his only way out. Everything might seem so simple, just the way they are supposed to. But everything isn’t always what it seems, is it?
Juno is an asteroid discovered on September the 1st in 1804, and is situated between Mars and Jupiter, and in astrology, she is slowly finding her place as playing an important role in marriage and long term relationships (10 + years) - Juno is currently being debated in the astrology community as to being the assigned ruler for Libra, while Venus acts as co-ruler.
Venus is what we desire, what we find attractive and how we wish to receive affection and appreciation, while Juno represents long term committed relationships, loyalty and faithfulness in a partnership. It shows what one needs to feel satisfied in love or romance, or what one feels they need to have a successful, satisfying, long-term partnership.
Through the analysis of a collection of synastry charts between couples, a high percentage we’re married (or in a long-term committed relationship with) with someone who fulfilled the needs of their natal Juno placement., usually by having the Sun or Moon in the Juno sign (and/or other placements).
Your Juno sign, house placement and aspects can give an additional layer of information about what you need, desire and are likely to manifest in marriage/long-term relationship.
All descriptions below can be applied both to your potential marriage partner AND yourself and the way you act in a long-term commitment.
(Can read sign for house placement - eg : 4th house Juno, read cancer as well as natal sign).
Juno in Aries:
You may desire a very strong, masculine and direct marriage partner. A partner who can act as a leader, pave their own path and has a strong sense of who they are. You may desire a marriage partner who will fight for you if necessary (and vice versa), and also someone who is independent and can carry out their own goals without relying too much on you to assist them. You may want to be put first in the relationship, though it can sometimes manifest as your partner putting themselves and their concerns before you instead, which is where the need for ones own independence in the relationship can arise. You and/or the marriage partner certainly do not like being told what to do in the relationship. The marriage partner may also have a sense of impatience about them, wanting to get to step 3 before completing 1 and 2, though they most likely wont adhere to advice. If problems do arise in the relationship, they will be upfront and deal with it before quickly moving on.
The marriage partner may prove to be bold and direct, and perhaps may be somewhat harsh and brash at times, and there is a possibility for an aggressive relationship or a marriage where dispute is common, depending on the house placement and aspects Juno receives, especially any harsh aspects from Mars, Saturn or Pluto. Also be aware of the possibility of the marriage partner dominating the relationship (or yourself) and can be quite temperamental, though sudden outbursts can subside quite quickly.
You may in fact not wish to get married, as your desire for independence can make the concept of marriage uncomfortable for you.On the other hand, you may marry simply out of impulsion. This placement can also manifest the possibility of remaining single throughout life.
Your most successful relationship will have a great sense of independence and individuality, whereby both you and your partner are able to do as they please without relying too heavily on the opinion or direction of the other.
Juno in Taurus
You may desire a marriage partner with a stable and consistent income, whereby they are able to financially support you in marriage. They may be incredibly hard workers and be very involved in their own projects. You may desire a relaxed and down to earth partner, who you can spend time with in the comforts of your own home. You may desire a marriage partner with a natural sense of beauty or is naturally attractive. Your marriage partner may be quite sensual and hedonistic, enjoying touching and caressing, and lots of exchange of physical pleasure between the both of you. You especially want peace and tranquility in the relationship, whereby neither of you want to intentionally stir each other. You both may enjoy indulging in good food and other material comforts together, happily lazing around doing very little in each others company. You may also both enjoy spending time in nature or natural settings, and you could potentially both decide to move to a country area together away from the hustle of larger communities (many other chart factors need to be evident for this).
Most of all, you desire a stable and secure marriage that has been built upon reliable foundations. Once you marry, you want to keep it that way. You may strongly disagree with divorce, and if that ever became a possibility, you (or your partner) would do everything in their personal power to avoid that situation. You want the comfort in security and stability of marriage.
If afflicted, there is possibility of the partner being over materialistic, caring too much about your income and what you buy, and therefore being rather restrictive and cheap when it comes to buying things. You may also choose to marry someone simply for the sake of financial security, especially if you’re struggling materially on your own. The marriage partner may be quite stubborn and set in their ways, to the point where their mannerisms and routines becomes highly predictable
Ultimately you desire a grounded and reliable marriage partnership where the security of knowing your partner will stay with you, and also having the security of material resources between you and your partner.
Juno in Gemini
With this placement you may desire an intellectual marriage partner who has fantastic communication skills, often engaging in daily conversation whether through phone calls, emails, texts and speaking face to face together. You may marry someone who keeps in constant contact with you, often telling you where they are and what they are doing if always from you (often in the local town or at work). Your marriage partner may be quite witty, humorous and have a youthful expression and personality, or may in fact be younger than you. The may love to socialise and get amongst the local community setting, which may mean they often travel back and forth from home quite frequently. You may have met the marriage partner through an online dating service or another social media platform. They may have also been a neighbour or simply someone from your local town where you grew up.
With Juno in Gemini, there’s also possibilities of having one more marriage in your life.
If afflicted, you or the marriage partner may have cheated within the relationship which ultimately causes a separation and a re-marriage to someone else. They may also be unpredictable and unreliable when it comes to promises and deadlines you give them. They may say they’ll do something, though it ends up falling through. Gemini has no particular intent on keeping to a certain path, so there still is a possibility with this placement not to be married at all. The marriage partner may often have unpredictable mood swings, based on their rationality of things, therefore needing clear communication of things in order for them to avoid episodes of anxiety.
Ultimately what you desire in a long-term relationship is variety, communication, someone who is intellectual and social, and can keep the relationship fresh and interesting.
Juno in Cancer
You may desire marriage to establish strong family foundations. You may want a marriage partner who is gentle, sensitive and caring, and can easily get on well with members of your family and particularly your mother (or mother figure). You desire a marriage partner who can commit and provide a sense of emotional security, who also tends to stay at home and/or takes care of the home. They may also enjoy cooking for you, and you for them. Your marriage partner may be emotionally intuitive and sensitive, and enjoys staying close to your side, offering physical affection whenever possible. They may be quite protective of you, and will defend you in times of need. You may marry due to your family traditions, and/or wish to continue the family tradition (yours or theirs) after marriage, continuing activities you or your partner experienced during their childhood. The marriage partner may also wish to start a family, and you or the partner may strongly wish to become a parent after marriage.
If afflicted, you or the marriage partner may be quite moody and/or clingy, making it hard for independence in the marriage. They may be emotional vulnerable, and desire you to ‘mother’ them in the relationship, rather than act like a traditional marriage partner. They can also be quite clingy and smothering, never really allowing you your own independent need for space. Their sentimentality about things past in the relationship may be brought up, and they may become quite emotional and cranky if you were to forget an anniversary.
Ultimately what you desire in a marriage partner is loyalty, openness and sympathy, emotional connection, care, security and perhaps to start your own family and to continue family traditions.
Juno in Leo
You may desire a bold, expressive and charismatic partner. You want the marriage partner to make you feel special in the relationship, and be quite romantic and affectionate, never forgetting to remind you how much they love you, spoiling you with surprises and courteous gestures and tokens of appreciation. They may have a very strong and dignified personality, and you can find charismatic leadership ability quite attractive. Your marriage partner may be quite playful and humorous, extruding a sunny disposition and approaching the marriage with a copious amount of energy and enthusiasm. You want to be able to take pride in your partner, not being afraid to show them off and express how closely bonded you are to them. You want to be able to share a spotlight with your partner where you feel like you are the only two in the world. You desire to experience warmth and generosity in the marriage throughout your time spent together.
If Juno is afflicted, or especially if aspected by Jupiter with this placement, you may experience the marriage partner to be overwhelming, and trying to outshine you in the marriage as the one who tends to ‘call the shots’ as to where you’re going, what you two will do together and when. This sense of bossiness can be quite unsettling, and their sense of pride may get in the way of them expressing affection to you in public or in front of friends and/or family. At times, they may over-dramatically react to situations in the relationship, causing unnecessary drama for the sake of causing drama. They may also become quite jealous and defensive over you.
What you desire in a long term committed relationship is ultimately consistent love, affection and appreciation, even if that means them simply saying “I love you” every now and again, fun and playfulness, generosity, excitement, and above all, loyalty.
Juno in Virgo
With this placement, you may desire a long-term relationship with someone who is practical, observant, orderly and has strong work ethic. You may wish to be committed to someone who has a selfless and giving nature, who enjoys helping you with daily tasks and taking care of the home life. You may attract a rather modest partner, who doesn’t indulge too much in extravagant romantic gestures, but expresses their love and affection through being of help to you in anyway you ask or need. They may take great time and care in getting to know you down to the finest detail so that they can apply themselves to doing things the exact way you like it to make you happy (example, taking note exactly what your favourite hot beverage is and making it exactly how you like it). They may clean and take the initiative to help you order and structure your daily routine and if required, help you with work. The partner may also be a diligent worker themselves, applying themselves to their own job and providing the partnership with a stable and steady income for the both of you. They may also be quite concerned for your health and wellbeing, happily taking care of you best they can on your sick days.
If afflicted, the partner may be overly critical and and faulty finding in the things you do and the way you do them. They may have the compulsion to brush you to the side when they feel ‘You’re not doing it right’ when you simply just aren’t doing something THIER way, which can ultimately make you frustrated. They may complain about the most mundane incidences which may get on your nerves. They may also be a workaholic, often not giving you enough attention and appreciation.
Ultimately what you desire in a marriage or long-term partnership is dependability and punctuality whereby they follow through when they say they will do something and when, cleanliness and practicality, has a stable day-to-day job to earn money for the both of you.
Juno in Libra
With this placement, you may desire a traditional marriage and long-term partnership whereby you and your partner are as equally committed to one another in the relationship. You desire a stable, balanced and fair marriage partner, one that can see and understand your point of view, and even if they disagree, they can find a compromise and see a value in your opinion on things. You desire someone who is fair and respectful of you and the things you do and happily returns the favour to you. You desire a long-term partner who is open about communicating and aims to settle any dispute before they get out of hand. You want someone who is a traditional romantic, and never forgets to express their love and affection for you. The marriage partner may be quite attractive and have a wonderful sense of style, and may be somewhat artistic, or at least has an appreciation of beauty and the arts. They may be quite charming and charismatic and perhaps rather social, and have a strong sense of justice and may have an interest in government or law.
If Juno is afflicted, the marriage partner may fabricate truth in order to cover something that they’ve done or not being truthful in their opinion. They may be quite indecisive about things which can make the relationship frustrating if decisions are always left for you and also, it may make them lazy when it comes to choosing and pursing something in life. They may also be manipulative towards you if they don’t like someone, telling you things about them to make you alternate your perspective so you can dislike them as a couple - while what they had said may not have been true, they want your reassurance that they are still the ‘good guy’, and as a marriage partner they demand that support from you. They may also be indecisive about getting married or the relationship itself
Ultimately what you desire in a long-term committed partnership is fairness, balance, harmony, communication and understanding one another perspective, love and diplomacy, compromise and beauty in the relationship.
Juno in Scorpio
With this placement, you desire an intense and deep connection to your marriage partner, where you unite all aspects of your body, mind and soul. You want passion and security in the sense of deep intimacy in your relationship, knowing your partner is truly connected to you and will stay by your side giving you their full devotion. You may find yourself transformed as a person after marriage, perhaps in the house area your Juno is placed. The partner may be deeply sexual and passionate, and together you share highly intense intimate moments, going through emotional highs and lows, though in the end it can feel rejuvenating leaving you feeling the high of being alive, which may be quite healing for you. You want to be able to trust your partner with all of your deepest secrets, and except all of your flaws and your past hardships, whereby being with them can allow healing of yourself and your past and anything you may face in the future.
If afflicted, Juno in Scorpio can manifest a very possessive partner who may try and control what you’re doing, where you’re going, and who you socialise with. They may easily become jealous and you need to constantly reassure them of your commitment to them, even if you feel its unnecessary. They may be quite secretive and mysterious which may make it frustrating for you to know what they want and to understand them better. They can also be quite self-destructive which can make the relationship exceedingly difficult. At times, their nature can become highly overbearing but once they break down they tend to build themselves back up again, especially with your assistance and presence.
Ultimately what you want in a marriage or long-term committed partnership is deep connection, passion, intense intimacy, sex, to share each others emotional highs and lows, unwavering commitment, and the power to get through any challenged you face together.
Juno in Sagittarius
With this placement, there is a very high need for freedom in a long-term partnership, and this placement be the most likely to avoid marriage simple because you (or the potential partner) doesn’t want to feel caged in a legally documented commitment. If you do choose to get married you need an extensive amount of freedom to come and go as you please, and to do what you want and when. The marriage partner on the other hand may be quite open natured, optimistic and humorous. They may have a philosophical and expansive outlook on life, and can unconsciously take on a spiritual direction in life because of their open-mindedness. They may have a passion for travel and exploring foreign countries and experiencing different cultures. You may in fact meet the marriage partner overseas, or they are originally from a foreign country.
They may be quite jovial and fun, always encouraging you to go on an adventure somewhere new with them.
If afflicted, the marriage partner may care about their personal freedom so much that they are unwilling to commit. They don’t want to be tied down and therefore have a back and forth nature in terms of the relationship by where you get too close, and they pull away. They may stumble into a marriage without much forethought of what that actually entails, then once the realisation sets in, they may opt for a divorce (but may even still want a relationship - just without a title), which may make this quite frustrating for you. The partner may be exceedingly hard to pin down and they may be quite reluctant to open up emotionally.
Ultimately what you desire in a long-term commitment relationship is FREEDOM, fun and light heartedness, changeability to keep it interesting and a constant learning experience, open-mindedness, traveling together and playfulness.
Juno in Capricorn
You desire the security and reliability found in marriage, and you want the relationship to be built on a strong foundation of knowing the partner very well before you are willing to commit. Once you have married, you do not want to separate from the partner and will do whatever is in your personal power to bring structure back to the relationship. You may attract a very hardworking and dutiful partner, who may be heavily involved in their own work life and career. They may express a very authorise stance in the relationship, and be quite serious in their personality nature. They may expect you and themselves to take traditional roles in marriage, or that they insist on being the ‘leader’ in the relationship. They may be significantly older than you and be quite conventional in the way they do things and structure the marriage life. They may be quite dutiful and take on the most difficult tasks, and also the responsibility of maintain the relationship, especially when it comes to providing the both of you with income. They may not be the most demonstrative and overly affectionate partner, but they express their love and devotion through their actions and providing for you.
If afflicted, the marriage partner may be quite cold and pessimistic, and they seem to force the authoritative role in a relationship and set you a role which they expect you to fill. Their lack of affection and romantic gestures can be quite disheartening for you, and their lack of gratification if you give to them may also make you feel unappreciated. They can also be overly controlling, dictating where you go and when, which you can greatly detest in the relationship. Also, their devotion to their job and work can leave you feeling lonely at times.
Ultimately what you desire in a marriage is comfort in traditional and conventional commitment, practicality and dutifulness, a hard worker, someone to prove for you, someone who can take leadership and is self-disciplined.
Juno in Aquarius
With this placement, you may desire a marriage partner who is a humanitarian that has a large social circle, whereby they know many people from many different places and therefore you can go with them to interact with a variety of people and gain new experiences. You may want a partner who is quite friendly and idealistic, one who is innovative and progressive in the way they do things, either for themselves or for the benefit of a larger extent of people. You may greatly desire a highly intellectual partner, who’s emotional detachment from things and people allows them to see things from an objective perspective. They may greatly enjoy socialising with anyone at any given time, and you may find yourself doing the same with them, even if it wasn’t something you would intentionally do previous to meeting and forming a relationship (or marriage) with this person. They may also express a sense of duty and authority, but more in an intellectual leadership manner than by commanding a following. There may be something eccentric or unconventional about the marriage partner, and this can include their personal interests, their likes and/or dislikes, or simply a significant age difference which is seen as unusual in society.
If afflicted, the partner may be quite emotionally withdrawn and detached. Although you may know they hold affections for you, they may have trouble expressing it due to their highly intellectual nature and they may uphold their masculine qualities too much to the point where its difficult to become emotionally vulnerable to you. If you attempt to openly express your emotions towards them, they may distance themselves from you.
There can also be a fear of commitment, from you or your partner with this placement, often withholding marriage, if you ever do decide to get married. It’s not uncommon with this placement for the native to stay single for life because of their choosing. You (or they) may value ones personal freedom and need for experimentation above the need for a solid relationship, which can mean manifesting as an open relationship.
Ultimately what you desire in a long-term committed relationship is to have your own sense of personal freedom and space, socialisation with others together, having new experiences, genuine friendship with the marriage partner, understanding and tolerance of ones own eccentricities.
Juno in Pisces
With this placement, you desire a very sensitive, gentle and romantic marriage partner. You want to be able to get lost in them and their presence and experience unconditional love and care from them. You desire someone who is modest, compassionate and empathetic to you and your needs, as well as being selfless, compassionate and giving to other people. You also may have to take care of the practical side of things for the marriage partner (or vice-versa). The marriage partner may be quite emotionally open and vulnerable, and is eager to care for you in anyway they can. They may at times try to mould themselves to be whatever you want them be. They may also have a soft spot for animals and enjoys caring for all forms of life. The marriage partner may also have a strong interest in the arts, including painting, acting, film making and/or photography. They may also be interested in caring for other people, giving themselves freely in a sympathetic form of service such as nursing or caring for the elderly, and generally helping those who are underprivileged and less fortunate. There is also the possibility for the marriage partner to be highly intuitive and/or psychic (empath). You may also idealise the potential partner, conjuring a fantasy of getting married to a creation from your imagination. This fantasy may also be projected onto the real life marriage partner, whereby you ignore there flaws and only see them as your idea of perfection.
If afflicted, the marriage partner may be too overly self-sacrificing to the point of their own detriment. They may either over work or over give themselves for little in return, then they end up playing the victim and express that ‘no one cares about me’ even though they put themselves into that position in the first place - then you end up coming to their rescue, having to coddle them because they refuse to take responsibility for their own actions. They may also be too much of a dreamer and live in their dreams and ideals, and not attempt to put them into action. They may at times become confused or have extremely high or low emotional episodes where you have to make sure you measure them that all will turn out fine in the end. There is also a possibility of drug and alcohol abuse from the partner.
Ultimately what you desire in a long-term committed relationship is unconditional love and affection, empathy and sympathy, gentleness and modesty, an openly giving personality , and loves you completely for who you are.
Aries: how have you been doing? has the past finally caught up with you? have your mistakes sunk in? that’s okay. now let them go. they do not define who you are anymore. you have the power to move on from who you used to be. within you lies the power to grow. utilize it. your gift is special, a priviledge granted to few.
Taurus: are you really happy?is this the life you enjoy, or the one they want you to live?start making choices for yourself. live is too short not to enjoy every moment.
Gemini: who are you trying to fool? pretending to be someone you aren’t will only cause you to completely lose yourself. open your eyes, and do things for yourself. not for them, but for you. then, you will discover how happy you truly are capable of becoming.
Cancer: how come you always put others before yourself? your own well being is just as important as the needs of those you love. take care of yourself, so you can better take care of others’.
Leo: why push away the love they offer you? why not embrace it? emotions are okay. no matter what you tell yourself, you are human. its okay to be vulnerable sometimes.
Virgo: when are you going to let yourself breathe? are you going to stop constantly critisizing yourself? you don’t have to be your own worst enemy. once you become your best friend, you will know peace.
Libra: are you still questioning yourself? why not just go with your instincts? mistakes are okay. you will never see what life has to offer if you keep holding yourself back.
Scorpio: why are you letting yourself settle for less? why aren’t you seeing that you deserve better? i see that you fall back into routines, and you hope it will be different; better, but it never changes. you are an incredibly radiant soul who should only accept the treatment that they deserve. you should be surrounded by positivity and happiness for miles and miles. why don’t you let yourself?
Sagittarius: who are you so afraid of? why are you letting them control you? let go of the past, they do not define who you are. focus on yourself. i know you have an amazing soul.
Capricorn: do you see the world differently now? ever since it happened, have you taken a closer look at the society you were born into? maybe colors seem a little more dull now. maybe the lines are becoming abstract and you cant tell whats real, and what you have imagined. is there still even a difference? you don’t know. but you keep on living because you know the future is brighter than this colorless gray palette. keep going forward.
Aquarius: tell me why you’ve done it all, but never really lived it? you’ve had so many experiences, but did you ever stop in the moment to actually live it? you’re always thinking about the past. if you don’t stop to actually live life, it’ll be over before you know it. be present.
Pisces: why are you still blaming the world for your actions? can’t you accept responsibility? sometimes, karma has nothing to do with your choices. your words have a lot more power than you think they do. take a look around, pisces. this is your world. make decisions you are proud of, and understand that not everything unfortunate happens because of bad luck. you may be the root of your own problems.
transcript of the speech i gave at Vassar’s black baccalaureate service
Good afternoon ladies and gentlemen, honored guests, and the Vassar class of 2017.
Just saying that aloud made me feel old. Class of 2017? Most of y'all were born after dark-skinned Aunt Viv left the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. That’s wild.
I want to first thank you for allowing me to be a part of such a special moment in your lives. I am honored, privileged, and a bit in disbelief that you asked me of all people to give this address. I try not to have feelings, and I’m going to do my best not to cry today, but no promises.
I’m here to stand in the gap between you and your parents and guardians and any other elders in your lives that you stopped listening to because you thought they were wack and out of touch. I remember being in your shoes not TOO long ago, and it is my fervent prayer that something that I say here today will help you avoid some of the mess I went through.
To be honest I’m a little nervous, but I figured there was no way could this be worse than when Betsy DeVos went down to Bethune-Cookman, so let’s get started.
As you transition to life after Vassar the changes will be both inevitable and swift, so I’d like to begin by giving you some well-intentioned advice and warning you about the continued process of becoming an adult.
I’ll See You In the Dark (Pennywise x Reader SMUT!!)
(A/N: So I’m no stranger to smut writing at this point. Nor clown smut writing (shut up…) but this is my first Pennywise one, and I hope that it’s good? It took a while to write and it’s a bit lengthy so…ENJOY)
Summary: You find out that your husband, Loki was still alive after falling from the Bifrost, and you were determined to see him. Although, when you do, it is not hugs and kisses like you expected from reuniting with the love of your life.
AN: mmkayyy, so my first shot at actually writing something, tell me if you like it. I just needed some good and frustrating ANGST. If y’all like it, maybe I’ll write more. If not, I’ll probably hide in my shell and never write again. Feedback is always welcome tho
“I command you let me through!” You were yelling at the two guards blocking the path to the dungeons, or as you thought, your path to Loki. “We have orders from the Allfather, Lady Y/N,” they replied. “I don’t understand why I am forbidden to see my own husband.”
You had been arguing for almost an hour before you heard a familiar voice boom through the hallway. “Let her pass!” Whipping your head, you saw familiar golden locks and a sympathetic look from Thor. “He has already been sentenced to life in those dungeons. No need to keep him from reuniting with his dear wife"
Thor put an arm around your shoulder and interrupted the guards before they could speak again, “Come! I will escort you to my brother”
After passing through the large doors and turning a corner, Thor stopped to look at you and sighed. “Lady Y/N, I know you must miss him but you cannot just bother these dungeons. He cannot be trusted. He is not the same Loki you grew up with centuries ago… that Loki fell from the Bifrost” He held your shoulders and you know that he means well but you couldn’t help but feel anger start to bubble up inside you.
“How is he different? He’s made mistakes but don’t we all? Thor, I lost him once but I know he is still my Loki.” You looked at Thor hoping he would understand, and sighed. “And even if he weren’t… I’d love him all the same.”
Thor let out a second deep sigh and let go of your shoulders. “I hope he knows that.” You continued walking until you and Thor reached a rather large and furnished cell and saw the raven hair you missed running your fingers through.
“I must go now. I might need to speak to father before the guards do.” Thor turned and walked away before stopping to shortly look back between you and Loki. After Thor had left, you walked closer to the cell in front of you.
“Loki,” You spoke quietly but loud enough for him to slightly turn his head to the side.
His hair was much longer from the last time you saw him. From what you could see, his eyes looked sunken and his face was a sickly pale color.
“Loki,” You repeated and he furrowed his brows before standing up and turning to you. “What are you doing here?” He spoke harshly and glared. You were confused for a moment. He seemed angry and ashamed all at once but you still missed the sound of his voice after it had stopped flowing from his lips.
“I wanted to see you.” You continued keeping your voice at a whisper. He scoffed and looked away. You didn’t understand what you were feeling. You wanted to kiss him and punch him all at once. He left you but he’s here now. You started to feel the tears prick at your eyes and you looked down at your feet, from being so overwhelmed, you assumed.
“Did you miss me?” You heard Loki’s voice mock and you looked up to see his back turned to you once again.
Your tears subsided and whatever you were feeling turned into anger. Angry at him for everything; for leaving you and letting you cry at night, for mocking you now and for not seemingly missing you at all. At the same time you were angry at yourself for still wanting feel his lips against yours.
You furrowed your brows and raised your voice a little louder, “No, Loki. I didn’t.” Loki turned back to face you and looked taken aback, all you could do was let out a laugh and wipe the tears away. “I didn’t miss you at all. I didn’t miss the one person I called my friend. I didn’t miss the person I married. Gods, I didn’t miss having someone hold me at night or comfort me when I cried!” You were screaming and tears were falling hard at this point and you were trying to look anywhere but him.
“Y/N, I-” He started but you quickly interrupted him, not caring how much your voice cracked. “Of course I missed you, Loki” Your voice was back to a whisper and you looked back at your feet. You didn’t realize you had walked as close as you could to the cell. “I died when I heard what happened.” You let out a sigh and continued, “All I wanted was to see you again…” You looked up to see he looked… Sad. He had tears in his eyes but his mouth was turned downward like he was disgusted, not with you, but himself.
“I’m sorry, Y/N” Two words from his lips and all you wanted to do was hug him. You just missed the feeling of him. You didn’t realize you were crying now just looking at his face.
“Why did you leave me? Why didn’t you tell me that you were okay? That you were alive?” You just wanted to know and every part of you was relieved that he was alive but hurt that he kept himself away from you and let you mourn.
“I couldn’t, Y/N.” he turned away again and started to walk towards his bed and you wanted to throw your slipper at him. “Why not!?” You yelled and he stopped moving completely. You saw his body stiffen and he let out a deep sigh.
“Did you not want to be with me?” You didn’t even understand what was coming out of your mouth. You wanted an answer. Something to explain why you didn’t eat for months and cried yourself to sleep, wishing you had fallen from the Bifrost. You just wanted him back with you.
“Of course I wanted to be with you, Y/N!” Loki yelled and interrupted your thoughts quickly. “Everyday, I wish to be beside you again. To hold you while you sleep. To be out of this accursed cell and be wherever you are!” He was running his fingers roughly through his hair, causing the slicked back locks to fall out of place. “But I couldn’t…”
“Why not!?” You yelled again
"I’m a monster, Y/N!” He looked at you full of rage. Not particularly at you but at everything. He wanted the world to melt away. “I couldn’t take it and especially after what I’ve done, I was too ashamed to even think of holding you again.” He sat on a small chair and put his head in his hands. You know what happened in Midgard but frankly, didn’t care when they told you he was okay.
“Did you at least try?” Your voice was cracking, you weren’t even sure if Loki could still hear you. All he did was sigh again before speaking up, not moving from his spot. “I wasn’t strong enough to try… I was too weak.”
“Were you too weak… or too selfish” You were hurting all over and your chest felt like a sack of bricks. It worsened when you saw a tear slip past Loki’s palm.
“I don’t deserve you, Y/N…” He was near sobbing and it made your heart burn and caused you to choke back a sob yourself but you were just as mad.
"Loki, please… Just look at me” Your voice was still cracked but you had managed to cease the tears that were falling from your eyes. He looked up at you and you saw the tears that covered his cheeks.
“I’m not strong enough to try anymore, Y/N” He started to whisper, afraid that he wouldn’t be coherent if all you could hear was sobbing when he raised his voice. Hearing his words, your tears pushed out once more. You could feel your heart tearing itself to pieces. It felt worse than when you heard about his “death”. You felt hopeless. He was not the monster he believed himself to be nor did you believe he ever will be, but it seemed like he was the shell of your Loki.
“I missed you, Loki” you whispered one last time and turned around to leave when he put his head back in his hands and started to choke back his sobs.