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You Make Me Wanna... l Peter Parker

Summary: Based off the song You Make Me Wanna (SoMo version) where Peter Parker finally gets the girl of his dreams…or so he thinks. As soon as he enters his new relationship, he can’t help but imagine what the relationship would be like if it was with the reader instead…

Warning: none

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Type: Oneshot

Requested: @fangirlizei

MASTERLIST


Originally posted by sddonald22

Peter Parker’s Point of View:

I thought I was on top of the world when I finally got together with Liz Allen. I couldn’t have been more thankful to you for hooking us up. 

You were the one that convinced me to ask her out in the first place. You were the one who encouraged me to go and talk to her. You were the one I turned to when I needed relationship advice. All the while, I thought I had gotten the girl of my dreams but I was wrong.

You make me wanna leave the one I’m with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come along with
You make me

One day, you walked into chemistry class wearing an adorable outfit (one that I had not seen on you before) and for the entire day, I couldn’t take my eyes off you. Why hadn’t I acknowledged your beauty before? Why was I just now seeing you for who you really were?

From that day on, I couldn’t seem to keep you out of my thoughts. I couldn’t help but day dream about you constantly. I no longer paid attention to Liz because to me, she was nothing in comparison to you. 

You make me wanna leave the one I’m with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come along with
You make me

I always came to you for advice when Liz and I got into a fight. I think it was just an excuse to see your pretty face again. Half of the time, I didn’t even want to repair my relationship with Liz. She didn’t make me happy anymore. You made me happy.

“Why don’t you buy her some nice flowers and apologize to her?” You suggested one day. My eyes rest on your sincere smile and I couldn’t help but lick my lips in response. “Peter?”

“Huh?”

“Did you hear anything I just said?” I blushed crazily and shook my head. “I said you should buy her some flowers and apologize to her.”

I sighed through my nose and nodded my head. I grabbed my stuff and slung my backpack over my shoulder. “Yeah okay.”

“Hey,” you said. “Things will get better. You will see. She can’t stay mad at you forever.” I nodded my head and dismissed myself from your presence.

Before anything came between us
You were like my best friend
The one I used to run and talk to when me and my girl was having problems
You used to say it will be okay
Suggest little nice things I should do
And when I come home at night and lay my head down
All I seem to think about was you

I used to dream about Liz and how pretty she looked when she passed by me in the hallway. Now, all that was on my mind was you. You always sat across from me at lunch and I used to gaze over your shoulder at Liz. Now my eyes were set on you.

I watched in admiration as you ranted on about your day so far. I smiled when you waved your hands around as you talked and I laughed when you said something funny. I feel happy when I am around you.

And now you make me wanna leave the one I’m with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come along with
You make me

It did not take long for Liz to see that my eyes were not always on her anymore. She would always get mad at me and that was usually the cause of all our fights. You seemed pretty oblivious to my feelings for you and you focused all your attention on keeping Liz and I together even though, I did not want to be with her anymore.

Every day, I contemplated on whether or not I should tell you about my feelings towards you. I didn’t know what would come of it, if it would work out or not. I thought Liz and I would work out and it turns out I was wrong.

And now you make me wanna leave the one I’m with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come along with
You make me

I realized that I had always been in love with you, I just never wanted to admit it to myself. You were the perfect girl in my eyes and I honestly couldn’t see myself with anyone else at that point.

I chewed the inside of my cheek as I paced around outside your apartment building. “Tell her that you are in love with her,” I told myself. “No, don’t tell her.” I was stuck between my two options. “Tell her! No, don’t!”

I groaned and ran my fingers through my hair in defeat. I gazed up at the tall building, singling out your bedroom window and seeing the light still on. Now was my chance.

Now what’s bad
Is you’re the one that hooked us up
Knowing it should’ve been you
And what’s sad is I love her but I’m falling for you
What should I do?

I raised my fist to the door of your apartment and gently knocked on it. In seconds, you opened the door and smiled at the sight of me. I barely returned a smile as you welcomed me in.

“My parents are out of town at the moment,” you explained. “Do you want anything to drink?” I shook my head and fiddled with my fingers nervously. “Well, how is Liz doing?”

At the mention of her name, my eyes began to swell with tears. My nose began to turn pink as my tears dropped onto your carpet. Your face fell as soon as you saw my face. Was I really going to do this?

“Peter?”

“I am in love with you.”

Should I tell my baby bye-bye?
Should I do exactly what I feel inside?
Cause I don’t wanna go
Don’t need to stay
But I really need to get it together

Your face dropped and I watched your reaction carefully. “What?” You gasped in disbelief. Another tear dropped from my cheek and landed on the floor.

“I am in love with you,” I clarified. 

“Peter–”

“I always have been in love with you. I never wanted to admit it though because I was afraid I would lose you,” I explained. “I never–I was never in love with Liz. It’s you, Y/N. It has always been you.”

I gave you time to process my words, allowing them to sink in well before you gave me your answer. I swallowed hard in response. You looked down at your feet, avoiding my eye contact at all costs.

“Peter, I am…flattered by your kind words but…” I blinked away some tears, praying you wouldn’t push me away. “But I don’t…love…you.”

My heart shattered into a million pieces at your words. “B-But I mean…you could learn…you could learn to love me.”

“I don’t think I could,” you said gently. I looked down at my feet, my breathing becoming shaky and unstable. “I am so sorry, Peter.”

You make me wanna leave the one I’m with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about her and all the things that come along with
You make me
You make me…

I bravely took a few steps forward and I could hear your breath hitch in your throat when our chests touched. I looked down at you with my tears clouding my vision. I gently reached up and cupped your face in my hands. 

Your eyes filled with tears as well as I gazed down at you in love. The pads of my thumbs tracing over your sweet pink lips. My eyes darted from your eyes to your lips, then back up to your eyes.

I leaned down and allowed my lips to brush against yours gently. Your eyes closed in response but you refused to move your lips against mine. I pulled away only after a second or two of kissing you.

“I-I’m sorry,” I said. I moved my hands away from your face and slowly backed away from you. Your eyes glistened with tears, watching me retreat towards the door. “I’m so sorry.”

I opened the door and ran out of your apartment as fast as I could. I ruined everything we had. I ruined our friendship. I ruined our bond. I ruined everything we ever had. I screwed up and I knew that you would never be able to look at me the same way again. I lost the only thing in my life that was important. I lost the love of my life.

I lost you…

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Hey im just wondering

Yo know how Nanu in Pokemon Sun/Moon lives with like 12 meowths? And also there’s a lady on one of the routes in… Akala, I think, who lives with like 8 stufful?

Reblog this and put in the tags which single pokemon you’d adopt like 10 of and contentedly live with. Bonus points if you say why and what you’d do with them. I’m curious…

SHEITH POSITIVITY WEEK - Day 2: Stars.

You were the moon, I was the wave
Pulled me out, pushed me away
It’s how we danced
Isn’t it amazing?

(…)

Why couldn’t I make you want to leave the world behind?
Our ship is stuck in a bottle
Let’s break the glass tonight
I’ll be your after glow, your sweetness and your light
I’ll be the chemical that helps you sleep at night
We’re stardust, you and I

- “Stardust” by New Politics

Based on @paperficwriter‘s Genos headcanon(s)!