push and push

Evak Prompt- Failing

“Do you want to talk about it?”

Isak rolls over in bed with a strangled sort of groan, eyes slit halfway and peering up at Even mournfully, “No.”

“Isak,” Even’s voice was patient, but firm. “Scoot over.”

Isak didn’t have much of a choice. Even unceremoniously dumped his backpack beside the bed and used his long legs and hard thighs to move Isak back to his side- leaving just enough space for Even to lay down.

“I’m sure it wasn’t that bad.”

Not that bad.

“You’re right. It was worse.”

Isak could practically hear Even rolling his eyes and asking God for the strength to deal with him. “It’s just one test-”

“Just one test in my best subject. That I failed. So so so badly, Even. Like embarrassingly bad.”

“Have you never failed a test before?”

“Of course I have, but not in biology.” Isak throws an arm up over his eyes, “I’m never going to hear the end of this from Sana. I’ll bet she didn’t fuck up her macromolecules.”

They were silent for a moment before Even sighs and tugs Isak’s arm away from his face, “Do you want me to blow you until you feel better?”

Isak blinks, “I mean- it wouldn’t hurt to give it a try would it?”


Congratulations to this week’s #naturalbornbabymaker.

She may be petite but she can certainly grow a nice bump. Let’s hope there’s more bumps in her future for @pixiegail - congratulation you beautiful preggo mama.

Get your submissions in now for #naturalbornbabymaker

As much as I don’t care for Lena kissing anyone but Kara, my bisexual ass also thinks that Lena kissing Jack in the promo is kind of hot? Pls don’t murder me. 

  • Sun Jing: Hey babe.
  • Qiu Tong: Yea, babe?
  • Sun Jing: I love you, babe.
  • Qiu Tong: OMG babe, I love you, too, babe.
  • Qi Fang: Hey guys, can you shut the fuck up please?
Happy Monday!

March 27th, 2017

This time, I probably will be pretty in-and-out. I still have a migraine from yesterday morning, and it was worse throughout the night and pretty intense this morning. It’s seemed to back off with food and medicine for the time being. Sometimes, I do just get like this. I’ll have months where they’re not very intrusive, and then months where they seem to dominate my life.


Gym: Name of the game this week is probably just going to be getting up. We usually go T, W, Th. So, at least today was a planned rest day. The intensity of workouts obviously depends on how fatigued I am later on this week. I think the weather is supposed to get better, so perhaps I will as well. The air pressure is already starting to go back up so that’s a good sign.

Finish Push Up Challenge: Guys. We’re there. Just a few more days! My headaches have been clearing up in the evening, so as long as that’s the case again today I’ll be able to do mine today and finish the challenge.

Bits and Bobs

Well, I usually write a lot here, but I really am just minced meat. Soon as I hit “post” on this I’m going to go dump myself in the shower. 

I guess this could be interesting. My migraine journal entry?

Things That Make Me Smile

So, I renamed “100 push ups” to 100 because after this month I want to see how long I can do a streak of doing 100 of whatever I feel like. 😆

Well, I know that was a bit low energy but I really wanted to just do something today, lol. 

I was tagged by @fromward and @thegracelane !

Six movies I can watch anytime:

  • Four Weddings and a Funeral
  • Inception
  • Atonement
  • The Devil Wears Prada
  • When Harry Met Sally

Aaaand I tag @coldbam @broken-drums @megalong @sassafras-ash @veryniceandgood and @psycholinguistic if you guys want to/haven’t already been tagged!

When I kiss her, it is like sadness isn’t even a word in my dictionary. It is like every love song, every poem ever made cannot capture her beauty. It is like she is my sun and I am the moon and I live in her gaze. 

When her mouth forms around my name, it is like I’ve never heard my name been spoken before. It is like I’ve never heard the syllables of my name form a masterpiece. It is like I am the sun and she is the moon and she worships my shadow. 

When I touch her hips and hold her curves, it is like I am roaming the valleys and mountain ranges. It is like I am exploring all the cities on this earth with my fingertips and lips. It is like she is the earth and I am the sun outlining all her prominent features. 

When she wraps her arms around my shoulders, it is like she is holding me together and pulling me apart at the same times. It is like my skin has never been explored before and she is quivering with the possibilities. It is like I am the earth and she is the sun capturing me in her gaze.  

Loving her is like living on the bright side of the moon while loving the dark side. It is like existing on the surface of the sun and needing it to survive. It is like breathing underwater.

h.z. // loving her is like dying and being reborn at the same time

Hospital Starters
  • [ Requested by Anon about a week ago. Warnings for blood, suicidal thoughts, and medical stuff. Thanks! : ]
  • "Hey, you're awake!"
  • "Where am I?"
  • "You hit your head. There was so much blood that I got scared."
  • "Don't try to get up. You're safe here."
  • "I hate this place..."
  • "How could you do this to yourself?"
  • "The world didn't give me a choice, and now, I'm suffering even more!"
  • "You really came..."
  • "I told you I would be here when you woke up."
  • "How many tests did they do on you?"
  • "If I wasn't drugged up, I could tell you the names of every test they do in this place."
  • "When are they going to let you leave?"
  • "They said that I'll be here for a few days. Maybe a week."
  • "What happened to you? You have so many things sticking out of you."
  • "That's what happens when you're dying."
  • "It's probably time to change those bandages..."
  • "You aren't in pain, are you?"
  • "You were in an accident. You almost didn't make it."
  • "That would explain why I feel terrible."
  • "I thought you were dead..."
  • "I'm not dead, am I?"
  • "I didn't know it was this bad..."
  • "I may not live much longer..."
  • "I'm dying..."
  • "You can't die! There has to be something they can do!"
  • "I'm too far gone for any surgery to fix me."
  • "I want you to know that I'll miss you most."
  • "Don't say that! I don't like it when you talk like this..."
  • "I just want it to happen so I don't have to think about it all the time."
  • "I wanted to say goodbye to you one more time."
  • "If you don't get some sleep, I'm going to hit this button and tell a nurse you're bothering me."
  • "Don't abuse that call button!"
  • "You know that button only works every five seconds, right?"
  • "Maybe if I push it hard enough, more will come out."
  • "I get to come home today."
  • "Did you fill out the release forms yet?"
  • "They hooked me up with a bunch of prescriptions. I'm gonna be high as a kite."