blackout | chanyeol (epilogue)
‘‘You know Chanyeol, not every girl is going to do what you say without thinking about it. I tried to be that girl but I failed. I hope your next target is going to be more intelligent than me.’‘
admin: s. genre: angst, fluff, smut (part 3), university student! chanyeol au, fuckboy! chanyeol au
When you woke up a few hours after what had happened you had a terrible headache. With slightly blurry eyes you tried to get used to the now brightly lit room.
Looking around in the room, you realized you were still in Chanyeol’s and Minseok’s shared room. From what you could remember what had happened not long ago was that after you had sex with Chanyeol you knocked out on his bed. Naked.
Your eyes wandered down your body, who was now covered with a blanket. Someone and you hoped Chanyeol, must have put it over you some when last night.
Slowly you got out of his bed while already searching for your clothes. Every single piece of clothing was scattered around in his room. Looking over to Minseok’s bed you also saw that Chanyeols used condom indeed had landed on it.
Quickly you put on all of the clothes you had found. That included everything except for your black panties.
A little bit uncomfortable because of the loss of Material under your skirt you opened the door of Chanyeols room. It was not locked anymore what must mean that Chanyeol already left.
Walking out his room you found absolute chaos in front of you. The floor was covered in red cups and weird looking liquids. It smelled like shit and after arriving in the living room you saw the boys scattered around in various places, sleeping.
You obviously searched after Chanyeol. There was no way you wouldn’t talk with him about what had happened. I mean you had been still this sober that you knew what would happen but Chanyeol also still had seduced you.
While looking after him you also looked after Jisoo. You hadn’t seen her since she left into the mass of students.
In a mountain of forgotten jackets and purses, you found your stuff. Taking out your phone of your purse you had what felt like hundred calls and messages from Jisoo. The last one saying she would go now since she had already thrown up ones.
Groaning you looked around one last time but you couldn’t find Chanyeol. Every single one of the boys laid somewhere sleeping, except for Chanyeol and… Kyungsoo?
On the way to Jisoo and your Apartment, you looked around if you could see Chanyeol somewhere. But except for some Students who were smoking, you saw no one.
Suddenly you spotted Kyungsoo with a big box filled with ten cups of coffee. You stopped in front of him. He also looked pretty done from the party but not as much as for example Sehun who fell asleep on the kitchen table.
‘‘Kyungsoo, hey. Do you know where Chanyeol is? He’s not in the apartment of yours.’‘ you asked hoping he would know where Chanyeol was.
Kyungsoo looked at you first a little bit confused but then shook his head. ‘’No. Sorry, Y/N. I went out for coffee when he still was sleeping on the couch in the living room beside Jongdae. By the way, I also bought coffee for you since you were the only one that had slept over.’’ Taking out one cup he gave it to you with a half assed smile.
Taking the cup you thanked him and started walking away. You were glad he hadn’t mentioned that you had had sex with Chanyeol. Somehow you wanted to forget it but you also really enjoyed it.
The Monday after the Party was horrible. Jisoo was still complaining to you after you told her what had happened at the Party, every student that had attended the party was a walking corpse and you still had a slight headache. From Chanyeol also no sign.
Walking out of the lecture hall of your fifth period today, you finally had lunch break.
You had agreed with Jisoo to meet up in the park behind the University as always. It was getting chillier by the day so you had your hands deep in the pockets of your jacket.
Sitting down on your usual bench you waited for Jisoo. While waiting you took out your lunchbox and started eating. You looked around the Park and, to your luck, you finally spotted Chanyeol standing there with the other boys and a bunch of girls. It seemed like he was flirting with one of them.
You couldn’t help yourself but boiled up. You knew it, he was a fuckboy and only used you. You felt sad, angered, jealous and heartbroken at the same time. You had caught feelings for Chanyeol and you hated yourself for it.
Standing up from the bench you made it quick in walking over to Chanyeol and this random girl. Your walk getting slower and slower the second you got nearer to them, your confidence from earlier long gone. You hated what Chanyeol made out of you. A broken, weak, little girl.
Stopping in front of them you brought all your courage up. ‘’Chanyeol, can we please talk for a minute?’’
He looked down at you and chuckled. You couldn’t believe it. Were you only one of his countless toys?
Telling the girl to go away he finally turned to you. His eyes cold and emotionless as always but his lips embellished an annoying smirk.
‘‘What do you want, baby.’‘ He said emphasizing the baby at the end.
You were slightly taken aback by it but you had collected yourself pretty quickly again. ‘’We have to talk about what happened at the party.’’
‘‘Why do you wanna talk about this? We had sex. Nothing more, nothing less. We were both drunk and horny. Something like this can happen, Y/N.’‘ He answered while shrugging his shoulders.
You were broken. You just wanted to die. Trying to prevent the tears from rolling down your rosy cheeks you stared him directly in the eyes. ‘’Are you kidding me Chanyeol? Both, you and I know we weren’t that drunk. Also, you planned that. Don’t lie to me.’’
Taken aback from your now crying state, Chanyeol gulped but still remained in his unbothered position. ‘’Even if I had planned that, you could easily have declined but,’’ he smirked bending down so he was with his face directly in front of yours. ‘’You were craving for my body as much as I was craving for yours that night.’’
Your tears were streaming down your cheeks unstoppable. Inhaling a deep breath you prepared to say something. Stabilizing your voice so you wouldn’t sound so broken you gave him hateful stares. ‘‘You know Chanyeol, not every girl is going to do what you say without thinking about it. I tried to be that girl but I failed. I hope your next target is going to be more intelligent than me.’‘
With that, you lifted your arm and slapped Chanyeol across the face. It was soft. Very soft, still Chanyeol stood straight again slightly holding his cheek and staring at you bewildered.
He never had experienced something like that after he had fucked another meaningless girl. You were different. You acted differently. He had broken you. He felt guilty, not as much as he should but still, he felt guilty for the first time.
Not saying another word you turned around walking back to the bench. While turning you had seen the shocked faces of the other boys. They obviously had followed the talk you and Chanyeol had but you didn’t care.
Picking up your things which were laying on the bench you started to walk deeper in the park until you saw no student near you anymore. You were crying terribly. Not loud though but you could still hear your whimpers.
Suddenly you felt a hand softly laying itself down on your shoulder. Turning around you saw Jisoo standing there looking at you, as soon as she saw the state you were in, as broken as you.
Pulling you in her arms she hugged you. You were hugging her back crying on her shoulder. Her warm fluffy hoodie blocking you crying sounds which were getting louder.
Three Months after what had happened you still were broken. You were sad all day. At least you tried to hide it now, acting as if you were happy in front of your friends but you sometimes still cried yourself to sleep. You had never experienced something like this before.
It was the end of the year and the past months were hard. Chanyeol and the boys still were at the same University as you. You watched them always. You couldn’t help yourself but even if you hated Chanyeol you still liked him very much.
The only good thing was that not every one of the boys was standing behind Chanyeols back. Kyungsoo, Minseok, and Junmyeon often talked to you, asking how you were, sometimes also asking if you wanted to drink a coffee with them.
They were your friends still you always declined since you knew they still were closer to Chanyeol than to you and always would choose him over you.
Jisoo instead always remained on your side. You couldn’t think of what you would do without here.
You hoped together with her you would survive the last years of your studies and you hoped one day you could forget…
So that’s it guys. That’s the end of blackout. I decided for a sad ending because I thought it would be more realistic in the situation Chanyeol and Y/N are in. I really hope you enjoyed blackout and like the ending even though for me it seems rushed and well it’s a sad ending. Btw I think I sometimes really fucked up the grammar, so please excuse me. Thank you to everyone who enjoyed reading blackout and gave me strength throughout my writing process! I love you guys so much~
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