publishing my drafts

honestly there are two kinds of people who make history posts on this blue hellsite, and they’re all either

“LISTEN HERE MOTHERFUCKERS LET ME LEARN YOU A THING ABT THE MOST BADASS HUMAN THAT GRACED THIS PATHETIC EARTH WITH THEIR PRESENCE AND WHOM EVERYONE SHOULD ADMIRE BC THEY ARE THE BEST AND MOST HEROIC PERSON TO WHOM WE AS A SOCIETY ARE ETERNALLY INDEBTED: john jay.”

or

“okay so unlike you basic bitches who can’t read, i’ve been doing some actual research so guess what? i, a 20-something in my first year of college, am now the only and leading expert on my chosen topic. yall better listen to me bc i’m right and you’re wrong, you uneducated babies. my interpretation of the source material is now absolute truth and yours is stupid and yall should be happy that i’m even telling you this, you worthless slime people, so fuck off. i despise my audience”

SIMON
I’m kissing a boy.
I’m kissing Baz.
He’s so cold, and the world is so hot.

BAZ
I am going to die kissing Simon Snow.
Aleister Crowley, I’m living a charmed life.

Demisexuality

It’s defined as a lack of sexual attraction, with the exception of where strong emotional bonds are present, or only experiencing sexual attraction once a strong emotional bond has been formed.

But apparently this is a really difficult concept for some people to wrap their head around, and lots of different arguments are made about how it’s “not a thing”…

“Demisexual isn’t a thing! Where’s the science? Where’s the psychological research? It’s just something tumblr made up!”

I hate to break it to you, but things exist, whether a scientist has validated them or not. Up until the 80s there was legitimate scientific research done by highly esteemed scientists which suggested homosexuality was a mental illness and unnatural and damaging to individuals and society. That was a scientific fact of the time. So was that the truth then?

If you think that the bias of science is a thing of the past, you’re either incredibly naive or just plain ignorant. Science is not some all-seeing, constantly objective force in society. It is influenced by and used to justify sexism, racism, ableism and multiple other forms of oppression. So I literally couldn’t care less if no scientist has a written a paper titled “Science now says Demisexuality is indeed A THING.” Queer and transgender identities have existed for as long as people have, but they’ve only very recently been ‘validated’ by science. Do you think that queer and trans people suddenly popped up into existence as soon as the first scientific paper in support of them was published? Of course not. Do you see where I’m going with this?

A group of people discovered they had a shared experience with their lack of sexual attraction and the way they experience it. So they put a name to it and told other people about it. Now it’s clear that a multitude of people experience the same thing, and were grateful to find that there was a word for their experiences, and they weren’t weird or broken.

“Everyone is basically demisexual because most people won’t sleep with someone unless they’re emotionally attached to them.”

No, what you’re taking about is how most people wait until an emotional bond is formed to act upon already existing attraction. Most people, for reasons ranging from religious, to cultural to simply personal preference, would not have sex with strangers and/or would only engage with somebody sexually after they’ve got to know them or got close to them (for a lot of people, that means forming a romantic bond). But that doesn’t make them demisexual. If everybody was demisexual, one night stands, porn, sexual advertising and hypersexualisation/objectification wouldn’t really exist.

If you’re still struggling with it, imagine them as asexual, until occasionally, after they’ve fallen in love or got close to someone they might start to experience sexual attraction. People who are demisexual do not experience sexual attraction. Zip, zilch, nada. The only exception to that would be some occasions when they’ve formed an attachment to somebody - maybe they’ve become close friends, or maybe they’ve fallen in love. And it doesn’t mean that everyone you form emotional bonds with you become sexually attracted to either; just like allosexual people aren’t attracted to everyone in the world, it’s just as hit and miss with demisexuals. Once an emotional bond is formed - that is when the possibility for sexual attraction opens up.

Some demisexuals might only ever experience sexual attraction once, with one person they’d formed an emotional bond with. Others might experience sexual attraction with almost everyone they’ve become romantically attached to. They’re a very diverse bunch of people.

“Demisexuals” are just special snowflakes! They just want to feel special / they’re not oppressed / they’re not queer.

I’m getting really tired of this “special snowflake” bullshit, particularly being aimed at the asexual spectrum community. I have been a part of this community for about a year, and have been on tumblr, still sharing and seeing posts about the asexual spectrum before I realised I was asexual for almost 3 years now. In all of that time, I have never come across people using lesser known acespectrum identities, like demisexuality, to get people to feel sorry for them or to claim they’re being so oppressed. The overwhelming majority of people respond to finding a word that accurately describes their sexuality and experiences is ‘omg I’m not a freak, there’s actually a word for me!’

favorite autumn sensory feels
  • the satisfying sound/sensation of squashing crunchy leaves in my hands
  • examining leaves! noting their pretty gradients of color, running my fingertip along their veins, their slightly dusty earthy smell
  • chewy waxy candies like candy corn or those little pumpkins
  • holding a warm mug/cardboard cup of spiced tea with both hands
  • the smell of cold weather approaching on the wind
  • the overwhelming awareness of seasonal shift that makes me feel electric down to my toes
  • the spooky glowy lights on/in decorated houses (especially color-changing lights or purple string lights in the shape of bats or skeletons)
  • the really specific texture of synthetic halloween costume fabric
  • the tartness of apple cider
  • the fried crunch of a bite of blooming onion dipped in ranch dressing
  • wearing extra long sleeves and spreading my fingers so the fabric stretches around my hands
  • bonfires. standing close to them until the heat turns my skin pink, the smell and crackle of burning wood, staring at the flames until my vision blurs
  • the hum of streetlights after the sun sets at 5 pm
  • swaddling myself in layers of clothing and blanket
  • the warm hearty smell of stick-to-your-ribs food emanating from neighborhood houses
  • weather radio
  • overcast skies that are gentle on my hypersensitive eyes
  • creaky branches
  • tapping on the outside of a pumpkin to hear the thick sound it makes
mbti as lorde songs

isfj - the love club

i joined the club and it’s all on
there are fights for being my best friend
and the girls get their claws out
there’s something about hanging out with the wicked kids 

esfj - ribs

you’re the only friend i need
sharing beds like little kids
and laughing ‘til our ribs get tough
but that will never be enough

intp - magnets

uh-oh, dancin’ past the point of no return
let go, we can free ourselves of all we’ve learned
i love this secret language that we’re speaking
say it to me, let’s embrace the point of no return

entp - tennis court

don’t you think that it’s boring how people talk
making smart with their words again, well i’m bored
because i’m doing this for the thrill of it, killin’ it
never not chasing a million things i want

isfp - bravado

i was frightened of every little thing that i thought was out to get me down
to trip me up and laugh at me
but i learnt not to want
the quiet of the room with no one around to find me out

esfp - no better

i’ll pull the trick if i want to
i’ll pull the trick and it comes true
i’m chewing gum and it’s killing you
we’re getting dead and it’s the right way to do it

intj - royals

my friends and i—we’ve cracked the code
we count our dollars on the train to the party
and everyone who knows us knows that we’re fine with this,
we didn’t come from money

entj - million dollar bills

we can leave the house lead the party let the people know
go drown the colors of our minds and watch the cars go
it’s not about just being out with all our people
‘cause we can get in trouble just by going free throw
and now i’m letting you know

infj - 400 lux

i love these roads where the houses don’t change
where we can talk like there’s something to say
i’m glad that we stopped kissing the tar on the highway
we move in the tree streets
i’d like it if you stayed 

enfj - team

we live in cities you’ll never see on screen
not very pretty, but we sure know how to run things
living in ruins of a palace within my dreams
and you know, we’re on each other’s team

istp - glory and gore

delicate in every way but one (the swordplay)
god knows we like archaic kinds of fun (the old way)
chance is the only game i play with, baby
we let our battles choose us

estp - yellow flicker beat

and now people talk to me, i’m slipping out of reach now
people talk to me and all their faces blur
but i got my fingers laced together and i made a little prison
and i’m locking up everyone who ever laid a finger on me

infp - a world alone

all my fake friends and all of their noise, complain about work
they’re studying business, i study the floor
and you haven’t stopped smoking all night
maybe the internet raised us
or maybe people are jerks

enfp - buzzcut season

the men up on the news
they try to tell us all that we will lose
but it’s so easy in this blue
where everything is good

and i’ll never go home again
favorite friend
i live in a hologram with you

istj - still sane

all work and no play
never made me lose it
all business all day
keeps me up a level
all work and no play
keeps me on the new shit, yeah

estj - white teeth teens

if you want we’ll help tonight to split its seams
give the bruises out like gifts
you’ll get the picture of your dreams
i won’t be smiling
but the notes from my admirers
fill the dashboard just the same

2

Joxer asking the right questions

Stephanie Brown is

  • one angry motherfucker 
    • she canonically has beaten up her dad while he was in prison and couldn’t run away 
  • is far less likely to retire from the super-hero buisness than anyone other than Cass lbh, especially Tim, Tim has specifically said that Steph is more invested in it than he is
  • is still hopeful despite this anger, like, she is an optimist and tries to believe the best in people, but she’s still angry (whoa more than one thing??? at a time??? I know right)
  • holds a fucking grudge, like, she might be all about second chances but she will hold a grudge, see, slapping Bruce years after his bad treatment of her mostly ended
  • probably suffers from PTSD and nerve damage after her days long torture and near death experience, and is probably the third most scarred member of the Bat Family, after Jason and Cass
  • is Cass’s best friend, and Cass is hers, stop erasing this
  • literally never gives up, like, ever. ever. who do you think you are you can’t stop her what do you mean you’re Batman more like fuck you