oh right I should have said something earlier but um
I really, really do appreciate all the replies you guys left for me on that one post
a couple updates on the situation:
-The email was a general “enjoy your spring break” email. I did get another this morning, though, and I have found out that I have failed the class.
-My teacher moved the test to next week
-I forgot I had a paper do today in my other psych class, and the result of that is that I got sick in the bathroom.
-because there is no way to pass the public speaking class, my living arrangements may be affected because I will not be taking enough credits to warrant staying. (However, I have an empty room in my dorm right now so I do doubt that I’d be forced to move out.)
-I also have to tell my parents about all of this and their disappointment will probably make me cry very hard for a few hours.
It’s all kind of just piling up right now and idk how to deal with it. And I know ignoring it is really bad, considering ignoring and avoiding is what got me into this situation in the first place. I’m going to try getting an appointment with my counselor soon to talk about all of this, next semester, and talk about where I can talk to someone about the depression and anxiety. I may also talk to my parents about working harder to get my license and a job so that I can go see a therapist without needing to be driven there by one of them. (That’s the main reason I’m not seeing anybody, actually.)
Anyways, I do appreciate you guys and what you said to me. Your support means more than I could ever say and it does honestly help so much.
I'm sorry if that last ask of mine was rude, which t occured to me after I sent it that it probably was.I didn't mean to demand a story out of you
I’m more open to requests than most people because I’ve got a shit memory and forget what I was going to tell y’all. And you asked very nicely, so don’t worry. I’m gonna sit on your request (and the other uh… 16) for now because it’s finals month for me and I need to be doing homework lol. There’s a number stories I;ve hinted at that I won’t share because they’re going in the book. Which yes, if for real happening because I’ve got a Publication Design class next semester and I need a Final Project. So … feb 2018?
For future reference, most people I know on tumblr love telling stories about themselves (and their pets and relatives), but it doesn’t hurt to send an advance note of “Do you take requests?” regardless of how they reply, THANK THEM FOR REPLYING AND BE GRACIOUS ABOUT IT. It’ll help keep things chill between everyone.
RUDE is the half-dozen anons I get awake asking to see GGG’s nudes. It’s okay, I think top tell the stories of how nuts your ancestors are- especially when GGG told the story on herself a lot when she was alive- BUT I DIDN’T GET HER PERMISSION TO SHARE THEM SO THAT AIN’T HAPPENING YOU WEIRDOS.
Teachers get paid very little to teach. Teachers deal with kids who don’t want to learn. Teachers are paid based off how well they teach the kids who don’t want to learn. Teachers want kids to pass by having learned something but are forced to teach them enough so they pass the tests. Some teachers actually care about the students and how much they want to learn. Teachers deal with rude children and talkers. Teachers don’t get paid enough to deal with some students bullshit. Substitute teachers get paid even less, and are hired based on past performance, regardless of how badly the class behaves.
Students are constantly stressed out. Students deal with huge amounts of homework, on average, 4-5 days a week. Students are trying to complete assignments and study for 6-7 classes a day. Students deal with teachers who don’t care whether they pass the tests, because some teachers get paid well regardless of pass/fail numbers. Students don’t get enough sleep at night. Many students suffer from untreated learning disabilities, like ADHD. Students are expected to know what career field they want to be in for the rest of their lives by 18. Some students are in debt just for wanting to learn.
NOBODY IS HAPPY WITH THE NORTH AMERICAN EDUCATION SYSTEM.
“What would Cuba be like today if the Cuban Revolution hadn’t happened? Sweden of the Caribbean? Hardly. It would be no different from Haiti, one suspects. An American plantation with an exiled ring of death-squad mercenaries ready to discipline the population as and when required. Constant US interventions, the repeated crushing of popular dreams, virtual slave labor, life expectancy and poverty worse than that found in parts of the southeastern United States, hardly any public sector. A ruling class of… bumpkin billionaire oligarchs, and gangster capitalists.” – Richard Seymour
My favorite memory of high school was in Spanish class when a few boys started clapping for no reason, and eventually the whole class started doing it. The teacher was so annoyed that she started writing names on the board of people “to keep after class” so every time she turned around to see who was clapping everyone would stop. She’d turn around again to write a name and they would clap again. This went on for the entire class period, and that’s the time we wasted a whole class period clapping
We suffered a coup d'etat in Brazil recently and got stuck with an incoherent voldemort-look alike and his government made entirely of old white men after he shamelessly overthrew our first woman president. The media has been kissing his ass for months.
He’s been in office for 5 months and is already trying to freeze our education and health budgets for the next 20 years, forbidding gender and sex education at school and taking away the mandatory sociology and philosophy high school courses.
As a result, our high school students have occupied over 1000 public high schools, they have barricaded themselves in, they’re resisting and fighting and screaming. They’re using this time to clean them up, repaint, put the old equipment back together. Every day they host open classrooms, public classes with experts. They’re learning new things. And most importantly, every day kids are getting together to talk about their future, about the change they want to see in the world, about a country that’s less sexist, less homophobic, less elitist, less racist.
If you look at our congress, we’re even more fucked than you are.
But it’s well over 1000 schools, 167 universities, all coming together to resist, to fright, to build something new. It might not work. But we have hope now.
So, American youth, Trump sucks. So much. But don’t give up. Don’t be scared and whatever you do, don’t stay home and hope it passes.
Fight it. Fight it every day. Every law your congress tries to pass that you don’t agree with, take to the streets, to the forums, to your schools. Resist every step of the way. It’s not much but it could be everything.
OMFG TODAY IN CLASS ME AND MY CRUSH WERE SITTING IN THE BACK OF THE CLASS GOOFING OFF AND THE TEACHER MOVED HIM TO THE FRONT OF THE CLASS AND I ACCIDENTALLY SAID, VERY LOUDLY, “BYE DADDY.” I.AM.SO.FUCKING.DONE.WITH.MYSELF.
A really good example of a microaggression from systematic ableism in american society is that in public speaking classes you’ll lose points on graded speeches if you don’t make enough eye contact. As someone who’s autistic and struggles with sensory processing in addition to a very avoidant personality, it’s extremely unfair to take away points for my inability to make consistent and frequent eye contact with those in my audience. Even in one-on-one conversation, you can easily notice that I will spend more time looking in a different direction than making eye contact. It’s not because I’m disinterested in the conversation, or not trying to speak directly to others, it’s because making eye contact makes me uncomfortable and distressed, and to give me a lower grade based on a habit that was developed from a disability of mine is ableism no matter how you look at it (no pun intended). It’s no different than docking points from someone with a physical disability that prevents them from doing certain exercises in a phys ed class. It’s unfair to grade an autistic person’s abilities that are specifically impaired by their autism, and not many people realize or say anything about it.
Senior year advice and how to make senior year effective
So it’s your senior year in high school and you’re probably super excited for the year to come. You finally get to go to college and become your own person, pursue your dream, or maybe just get away from the bullshit. So here’s some of my best advice to make senior year a good one:
SENIORITIS WILL HAPPEN
There is literally no way you can avoid this. It’s like a deadly parasite that just consumes you. It’s very effective, especially if you’re surrounded by people who have already entered the “fuck school I just want it to be over” phase.
The way senioritis works is, the busier you are, the less it will hit you. I was a pretty active student year round. I had tennis , our drama one acts in the fall, FFA, plus work. In the spring semester I had our school play, track, and I joined our FFA vet science judging team (which helped kept me focus ) .
Winter is honestly the only time you should indulge lazyness. Get it out of your system and devote the rest of your school year to being productive
DON’T FILL YOUR SCHEDULE WITH TEACHER ASSISTANT AND OFFICE AID ELECTIVES
The one thing colleges love to see (besides student involvement and volunteer hours) is that you have a REAL schedule lined up for you your senior year. Get classes that apply to what you want to do in college, or find classes that you think you might be interested in. You never know if that could be the deciding point on what you want to do with your life.
Honestly, it’s going to suck when all your friends have relaxing classes most of the day and you have stacks of homework to do your senior year (trust me i’ve been there) but in the long run, colleges will thank you, and senioritis I can guarantee won’t hit you as bad when you’re taking classes that challenge and interest you.
This is honestly all preference and knowing your limits, but if you have never taken a AP class your high school career you should probably take one. High school classes are NOTHING like college. AP prepared me more for college and studying then any mandatory classes i’ve ever taken
KNOW. YOUR. LIMITS. I only took one AP class my senior year because I knew I would be working and doing a lot of school involvement. Some people liked to make their schedule mostly AP classes because in may when they take their AP exam they just chilled for the remaining of the school. Personally I think that’s a dumb idea, because then you’re just wasting your time for a couple of weeks and it’ll make you want to ditch class, etc.
APPLYING TO COLLEGE
PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD APPLY EVERYWHERE
You never know what schools you’re actually going to get accepted to. You may think you have stanford in the bag and only apply to that school. But if you get rejected and have no where to turn but a local community college, your life will suck.
Don’t worry about being undecided, a lot of people are in the same shoes as you are, and college will understand
BRAG ABOUT YOURSELF. When you do those little “why should we accept you essays” you need to write yourself as the shiny little gold nugget that you are. Have confidence in yourself
When applying to out of state: you better know your shit. No one is going to help you as much because your councilors only know about local and state colleges. Especially when you decide to go to out of state college, KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING. Always check your emails and follow the college steps like it’s your lifeline or you’ll miss something.
Just apply to all of them. Trust me on this because I can guarantee you half of your graduating class would have not applied to a single one of them
Don’t be lazy
“SENIOR YEAR IS THE BEST YEAR OF YOUR LIFE”
This is complete bullshit but it also depends on each person
Senior year is honestly like every other year but you’re expected to be more of an adult. No one is going to make you apply to colleges and no one is going to make you do anything.
Senior year isn’t like it is in the movies, you won’t be partying all the time and not every second of it is going to be perfect. You might lose some friends and some things you love will change. It’s a very emotional and exciting time, make the most of it.
Spend as much time with your high school friends because you’ll probably never see them again. That girl that you’ve been soccer buddies with all 4 year is probably never going to text you again, so make the most of your friends.
Attend all the high school events. It’s the last time you’ll ever be able to do it, so make some memories.
SOME ADVICE TO FRESHMEN
Don’t be scared
you’re going to lose some friends and make new ones
but for the love of god get involved. it’s not “cool” to be a slacker. Honestly you’ll have a better experience and things will go by a lot faster.
Do your damn homework, it actually counts in high school
be nice to your teachers
make the most of your high school experience. It goes by faster then you think.
Another story from algebra. So there’s this really old really nice sub and we all love him but he’s pretty much deaf. So he walks in and is like hello class how are you and I guess this kid thought he wouldn’t hear him so he yells “SUP BITCH” to which the sub replies “hello hows your morning”. So later on he’s calling roll and gets to this kids name and the kid goes “I go by frank now” (which he doesn’t) so the sub goes “shut up jimmy” and marked this kid absent so he goes “let me clarify only mr.tyler is absent” and this kids obviously like no im here and the sub just yelled “SIT DOWN JIMMY” and anytime the kid tried to talk for the rest of class he called him jimmy and told him to shutup