do you know any good fics in which dean has to go through a LOT of emotional pain
bro okay so like….this is 90% of what I read ngl, so here’s a short list of stuff off the top of my head that I’ve either read A Lot or bookmarked recently
like moses and batman and james dean is the story of dean having intimacy issues in his later life because he prostituted himself when he was younger
homeward bound is one of my fave WIPs right now. it’s a HS au with an angsty twist I won’t give away, but it is currently working through dean’s mindset in the wake of his whole world falling apart so so brilliantly. And it’s updated regularly! As a matter of fact, go read everything by Englandwouldfall. Lots of gr8 dean angst and very skilled character writing, and i’m constantly lamenting that their stuff isn’t anywhere near appreciated enough.
living in agony is one of my all-time faves and HOOO boy it deals with dean working through being a poor closeted lil bab so so so so well. Let’s just say Living in Agony is a very apt title and unf that’s some Grade A angst.
kingdom come is another of my all-time faves, though it has been removed by the author, so this is a link to the epub on my google drive. it’s the story of PTSDean who’s pretty much lost everything trying to find his footing in the world again and it’s SO harsh and SO GOOD.
breath of all things is a no-brainer, in case you haven’t hit that one yet. AU in which dean is paralyzed in an accident that killed his father and experiences GREAT MENTAL TORMENT tryin to climb his way back outta that pit. so gooooood.
i looooove the supernatural edification of dean winchester, it’s such an amazing concept with a cool execution, but fair warning, it’s pretty much abandoned. it’s an au wherein dean is a spiritual medium kind of ala the sixth sense, and it leaves him super isolated and Tortured and Suffering.
and just because this is an LJ-era fic and I never see it recced anywhere but I think of it often, here’s a fuckin ff.net link to one of my fave pre-cas (HET!!!) series the drive!verse, available there in several stories, starting with drive all night. it’s basically early series dean coping with abandonment, chronic pain, and a permanent injury. spoilers: he doesn’t do it well. bonus caretaker!sam angst.