The Riley Diaries Pt19
AU: Riley Matthews is a regular teen,until one day,she is not. Can moving away erase your past? Can you ever move on if you don’t actually accept it? Riley Matthews was a regular teen,until one day,she wasn’t.
A/N: The last episode of GMW gave me inspiration not only for vidding, but for writing too. The next chapter I post will be the last - I already wrote it but I will still not post it because I might decide to change something. I really hope you like this part and that you are still enjoying the story, even though I didn’t update it in a while. Also - Sorry, Auguste.
Four days have passed since I last talked to Lucas, since he completely shut me out. But I deserved that, no one can change what I did. I was still home – somehow I couldn’t go to town before my flight tomorrow - I wanted to stay here with my parents as long as I could. Sitting in my room, I was looking at the perfect dress I had picked out for prom, even though I wasn’t going.
“Come in,” I said when I heard someone knocking on my door.
“It’s me, honey,” Maya said with a smile while she was entering my room, “I am here to try and change your mind for the last time.”
“You don’t give up easily, do you,” I laughed and got up to give her a hug.
“I want to party with you and Joshy before you leave for Spain,” She started dancing in the middle of the room.
“Joshy,” I threw my head back laughing, “I have to use that.”
“Hey, he’s mine,” She gave me a judgemental look and jumped on my bed.
“I already dated him, he’s all yours now,” I sat next to her and chuckled at her expression.
“I forgot about that,” She shook her head, “You are messed up, Riley Matthews.”
“You have no idea,” I laughed and then looked at my dress again.
“See, I want to be the prettiest girl tonight,” Maya obviously traced my gaze, “But it would be a crime not to wear this beautiful dress tonight and have fun with your friend.”
“Lucas hates me,” I sighed and turned to her, “I can’t go and pretend I am happy.”
“If you are not happy why don’t you stay here and change things,” Maya reached for my hand, “Why do you insist on running away from my brother when you know you want to be with him?”
“I don’t know why, Maya,” I looked down, “Something in me is fighting the feelings I have for him.”
“Then beat it,” She squeezed my hand, “He is suffering, you are suffering. Just try one more time – come tonight.”
“Maya, I –“
“No,” Maya didn’t let me finish, “Just come, try to work things out but don’t push him – simply talk to him, tell him that you are willing to stay and just start over.”
“I don’t know if I am willing to stay, that’s the problem,” I took my hand back, “I am really excited to leave and meet new people and have a new life.”
“But you can’t escape Lucas, you can’t escape what happened to you,” Maya sighed and half smiled, “We are here, and we accept you the way you are. There is always time to travel and meet new people but you will always regret leaving him – believe me.”
I stayed silent for a moment, thinking that Maya may be right. I really loved Lucas, this may be the first time I am admitting it but I have felt it for a long time. Do I really need a new life, do I really need new people when I found some of the best friends here? I was now more confused than I was before.
“I guess I can come tonight and see what happens,” I gently smiled.