therapist: so, how do u feel today about the thing we talked about last week?
my dissociative psychotic ass: what thing

I love you.

I love you if you aren’t high functioning

I love you if you can’t go outside in the dark

I love you if you have a hard time with hygiene

I love you if you’re divine 

I love you if you’re monstrous

I love you if you’re not real  

I love you if you think no one does

I love you if you dissociate

I love you if you tape over your laptop camera

I love you if you pick at your skin

I love you if you have disorganized speech

I love you if you have awful intrusive thoughts

I love you if you have low empathy

I love you if you feel invalid

I love you if you never stop hallucinating

I love you.

fun psychosis things

- *having fun* oh shit am i real

- *wakes up and its quiet* looks like im the last one on earth 

- the Bugs

- googles “red bumps on legs”

- i need to do something with my life like… rob a bank

- googles “red bumps on arms”

- kill them. you gotta.

- hidden cameras

- someone in here can read my mind

- googles “red bumps on face”

- #yolo

- sits on bed and dissociates for 10 hours 

- i have No Feelings, i am no weakling

- im so emotional why doesn’t anyone love me *cry*

- kill the cat (why?) you gotta

- REALLY SEXUAL THOUGHTS IN PUBLIC AND IT’S WORSE WHEN THERE’S A MIND READER AROUND

- *someone does something that slightly annoys me* “kill them”

- googles “red bumps on back”

- SENSORY OVERLOAD

- relating to things that aren’t even close to what i feel ever why do i do that

- my posters are watching me get dressed

- the government is watching me

- something around the house is… Not Right

- my family has been replaced