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I often talk about reality checking and going along with it when helping someone deal with delusions, but I felt as if I didn’t really make it clear to what I meant when I said it.

Recently I saw a post similar to “how to sneakily give your delusional friend a reality check when they told you not to” and honestly, that’ll just make us lose trust for you. Because we can tell when you do that.

Mental Illness in the Horror Genre

Something that pissed me off the other day.

Talking to a guy who knows my parents but doesn’t know me very well, and he tells me that his friend (indeed, a very nice and talented actor) recently put out a horror movie. And I’m interested until I hear the words “So it’s about this guy with OCD…” and at that point my mom and I give each other a sidelong glance.

I say, “I don’t know, because I have OCD and it’s a pretty serious thing for me.”

To which he follows up, “Oh, you don’t have it like this guy! You’re totally functional!”

Okay, dude. Yes, I am standing before you in a fancy club, dressed nice, and looking relatively balanced. But you do not know me. You do not know OCD.

You do not know that I have been non-functional, and that in order to maintain my current balance of sanity, I take daily medication and see a weekly therapist, and I still have downward spirals and panic attacks.

OCD can add to a story, for sure. The Aviator is a great example–albeit, it was on the voyeuristic side, kind of “check out what a weirdo this guy really is”, but his condition was portrayed in a realistic and *sympathetic* manner, because it focused so hard on his anxiety and entrapment.

I don’t need a horror movie about my disorder for a couple reasons.
1. I already live the horror movie that is OCD.
2. Just like people with psychosis, schizophrenia/schizotypal disorders, dissociative identity disorders, and any other number of mental disorder that makes us act in unusual and yes, sometimes frightening ways, I don’t need it to be the hinge for your horror flick, a handy device that makes more people like you scared and misunderstanding of people like me.
3. And for people with the above disorders who may not be diagnosed, they don’t need to be told that they are dangerous monsters and cause them to avoid treatment out of fear. (This goes double for people who experience paranoia or delusions as part of their symptoms.)

This post ended up way longer than I meant, but really, truly, hear me out creators:

MENTAL ILLNESS IS A TRAIT AMONG AN INFINITE VARIETY OF PEOPLE. IT IS NOT A CHARACTER FLAW, AND IT IS DEFINITELY A POOR PLOT DEVICE FOR THE HORROR GENRE. YOU CAN DO BETTER.

while im at at? here are some more things non-psychotic people REALLY need to stop fucking doing:

  • using the fucking “what if it was a mentally ill person’s fantasy the whole time?” trope.
  • equating psychosis to violence because guess what? Those two things are usually unrelated.
  • using psychosis as Angsty Ship Fuel Angst Because Psychotic People are Unworthy Of Love So It’s Angsty™
  • Using psychosis to make ur characters “~~Edgy~~”
  • Using psychosis to make ur plots “~~~Spicy~~~”
  • Treating psychosis like a joke.
  • Acting like there aren’t psychotic people out there, right now, consuming content, who are already demonized in their day to day lives over something they never asked for, things that are constantly misinterpreted to make some mediocre non-psychotic person’s media “”better”” and “”spookier”” for other mediocre non-psychotic nuerotypicals, who may see this shit and be further hurt by it.
  • acting like people don;t abuse psychotic people for their psychosis.
  • being fucking dicks about psychosis.

I encourage non psychotic people especially to reblog this.

Things people need to accept when it comes to having a conversation with me:

  • I can talk very fast.
  • I may mumble.
  • I might do both at once.
  • I’ll probably speak in broken sentences at times.
  • I often say words in the wrong order.
  • I might take ages to speak because I’m trying to make sure I make sense.
  • I sometimes talk in circles and never reach my point.
  • Occasionally I’ll think I’m talking without actually doing so.
  • I cannot help it when any of this happens.
  • Me: shares how I feel or talks about my emotions
  • Me: oh god.... disgusting..I am the literal worst person in the world... why am I even talking... I should shut up... I'm so stupid why did I do that...,why do I even b r e a t h e

I have no idea how to deal with other people’s anger. I just don’t. It scares the hell out of me and I don’t know what to say. It always feels like my fault, even if it’s clearly not. Yelling is even worse; it all just gives me horrible anxiety. I never know what to say and if someone is angry around or at me I’ll probably just shut down and cry. Is this like a Thing or what

list of psychotic delusions

 persecutory

  • feeling that one is constantly being followed / stalked
  • feeling that one is secretly being spied on by family, partners, friends, others, pets and / or inanimate objects
  • feelings of fear over being kidnapped (usually by a stranger)
  • feeling that one is constantly being watched (by unknown entities or known entities)
  • feeling that one is being ridiculed by family, partners, friends and / or others
  • feeling that one is being spied on or monitored by the government, FBI etc.
  • feeling that family members, partners, friends, others, pets and / or inanimate objects are secretly conspiring to kill oneself
  • feeling like is being or will be poisoned by others

other paranoia related

  • feelings of fear over being abducted by aliens
  • feeling that there will be an imminent disaster (earthquake, fire, plane crash etc)
  • feeling that others can read one’s mind
  • feeling like the world is ending or about to end
  • feeling like one’s thoughts are being stolen out of or planted into their minds
  • feelings that the world isn’t real and is fake i.e. a set of some kind with actors or a computer simulation etc (different from the truman show delusion)
  • feeling that inanimate objects are somehow sentient
  • feeling like other people do not really exist, are dead or have been in a terrible accident

grandeur

  • feeling that one is a god or deity
  • feeling that one has magical powers i.e. mind reading, control over the weather etc
  • feeling that one is indestructible or unimaginably strong
  • feeling that another person or other people (usually celebrities) are in love with oneself

bizarre

  • feelings that one is dying, is already dead or does not exist (cotard delusion)
  • feelings of different people being a single person (fregoli delusion)
  • feeling like one’s reflection in a mirror is some other person (mirrored-self delusion)
  • feeling that family, partners, friends and / or pets have been replaced by identical fakes (capgras delusion)
  • feeling like the world only exists inside one’s head (solipsism delusion)
  • feeling that one is living in a reality TV show (truman show delusion)
  • feeling like one has an identical doppelgänger with a different (usually malicious) personality and life (subjective doubles delusion)
  • feeling like other people swap identities with each other without changing appearance (intermetamorphosis delusion)
  • feeling like one doesn’t belong to one’s body or doesn’t own parts of one’s body (somatoparaphrenia delusion)
  • feeling like a person, place, object, or body part has been duplicated or transported somewhere else (reduplicative paramnesia delusion)

a delusion is a belief or impression maintained despite being contradicted by reality or rational argument, if you are experiencing one or more of these delusions you may have a psychotic disorder or a disorder with psychotic symptoms

I may update this post regularly, so check back to see if it has been updated!

I love you.

I love you if you aren’t high functioning

I love you if you can’t go outside in the dark

I love you if you have a hard time with hygiene

I love you if you’re divine 

I love you if you’re monstrous

I love you if you’re not real  

I love you if you think no one does

I love you if you dissociate

I love you if you tape over your laptop camera

I love you if you pick at your skin

I love you if you have disorganized speech

I love you if you have awful intrusive thoughts

I love you if you have low empathy

I love you if you feel invalid

I love you if you never stop hallucinating

I love you.