psychosematic

I am a millennial. Generation Y; born between the birth of AIDS and 9/11, give or take. They call us the global generation. We are known for our entitlement and narcissism. Some say it’s because we’re the first generation where every kid gets a trophy just for showing up. Others think it’s because social media allows us to post when we fart or have a sandwich for all the world to see. But it seems our one defining trait is a numbness to the world. An indifference to suffering.
I know I did anything I could to not feel; sex, drugs, booze. Just take away the pain. Take away my mother and my asshole father and the press and all the boys I loved who wouldn’t love me back. Hell, I was gang raped and two days later I was back in class like nothing had ever happened. I mean, that must have hurt like hell, right? Most people never get over stuff like that and I was like, “Let’s go get Jamba juice!”
I would give everything I have or will ever have just to feel pain again; to hurt. Thank God for Fiona and her herb garden. One advantage of being kind of dead is that you don’t have to sweat warning labels. There was this one brown liquid that I thought made my nipples tingle for a second but I think it was psychosematic because I polished off the rest of it and didn’t feel shit. I tried every eye of nute and wing of fly until I found something that made me not look like Marilyn Manson anymore.
And that’s the rub of all this, isn’t it? I can’t feel shit. I can’t feel anything. We think that pain is the worst feeling. It isn’t. How could anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me.
I use to not eat for days or eat like crazy then stick my fingers down my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can’t fill this hole inside me.
I can’t take it anymore. I think I’m going batshit. I need to do something.
—  Madison Montgomery, American Horror Story
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“I am a millennial. Generation Y; born between the birth of AIDS and 9/11, give or take. They call us the global generation. We are known for our entitlement and narcissism. Some say it’s because we’re the first generation where every kid gets a trophy just for showing up. Others think it’s because social media allows us to post when we fart or have a sandwich for all the world to see. But it seems our one defining trait is a numbness to the world. An indifference to suffering.

I know I did anything I could to not feel; sex, drugs, booze. Just take away the pain. Take away my mother and my asshole father and the press and all the boys I loved who wouldn’t love me back. Hell, I was gang raped and two days later I was back in class like nothing had ever happened. I mean, that must have hurt like hell, right? Most people never get over stuff like that and I was like, “Let’s go get Jamba juice!”

I would give everything I have or will ever have just to feel pain again; to hurt. Thank God for Fiona and her herb garden. One advantage of being kind of dead is that you don’t have to sweat warning labels. There was this one brown liquid that I thought made my nipples tingle for a second but I think it was psychosematic because I polished off the rest of it and didn’t feel shit. I tried every eye of nute and wing of fly until I found something that made me not look like Marilyn Manson anymore.

And that’s the rub of all this, isn’t it? I can’t feel shit. I can’t feel anything. We think that pain is the worst feeling. It isn’t. How could anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me.

I use to not eat for days or eat like crazy then stick my fingers down my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can’t fill this hole inside me.

I can’t take it anymore. I think I’m going batshit. I need to do something.“

anonymous asked:

hi!! all time favorite pining!lock fics? please and thank you uwu

OH NO I don’t know if you want to go there but…..alright…….prepare to cry A LOT

WARNING: NOT all of these are requited/end happily so tread carefully

I am a millennial. Generation Y; born between the birth of AIDS and 9/11, give or take. They call us the global generation. We are known for our entitlement and narcissism. Some say it’s because we’re the first generation where every kid gets a trophy just for showing up. Others think it’s because social media allows us to post when we fart or have a sandwich for all the world to see. But it seems our one defining trait is a numbness to the world. An indifference to suffering.

I know I did anything I could to not feel; sex, drugs, booze. Just take away the pain. Take away my mother and my asshole father and the press and all the boys I loved who wouldn’t love me back. Hell, I was gang raped and two days later I was back in class like nothing had ever happened. I mean, that must have hurt like hell, right? Most people never get over stuff like that and I was like, “Let’s go get Jamba juice!”
I would give everything I have or will ever have just to feel pain again; to hurt. Thank God for Fiona and her herb garden. One advantage of being kind of dead is that you don’t have to sweat warning labels. There was this one brown liquid that I thought made my nipples tingle for a second but I think it was psychosematic because I polished off the rest of it and didn’t feel shit. I tried every eye of nute and wing of fly until I found something that made me not look like Marilyn Manson anymore.
And that’s the rub of all this, isn’t it? I can’t feel shit. I can’t feel anything. We think that pain is the worst feeling. It isn’t. How could anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me.

I use to not eat for days or eat like crazy then stick my fingers down my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can’t fill this hole inside me.

I can’t take it anymore. I think I’m going batshit. I need to do something.
-Emma Roberts’ monologue as Madison Montgomery in American Horror Story: Coven

Actually I planned doing a really big and fancy ff with different categories and all, but suddenly I was so close to my 1k and I just gave up and made this one.
Holy canoli! 1k?! I just.. wow! When my friend forced me to sign up here and do a blog about my fav youtubers, I’ve never expected that a) I’d end up being hopeless addicted to a stupid tv show called Sherlock and b) 1000 people actually click this button on the upper right corner on my blog. But yeah, here I am, making bad graphics for a 1k-celebration-follow-forever! Thank you so so sooo much!!

mutuals - hover over your url

a - d

acandleinbelgravia - anderscn - andewscott - bachenfall - bakerstr - baskervelli - baskervielle - batched - batchenfall - bachenfall - bbcjohnbenedictly - beeslockblacbirdfly - cluedo - consultive - crimesolving - cumberz - daughterwatson - deaded - defrockedsherlock - dehaahn - delacurs - doctorhooper - drugsbust

e - l

ewjohn - elizabetbennet - estherlune - ffitzgerald - gaydeductions - greglestrade - greqlestrade - halloawhatisthis - hoaxsuicide - holmesiswherethecrimeis - hydrahs - inspectorjohnlock - iverno - janlock - jawnwtsun - klngslayer - lazharuslestrvde - letsplaymurder - lightconductor - negvtive

m - p

madamedaenerys - magnusse - magnussvn - maninthefunnyhat - maraudirs - moranmoriarty - mollyadler - mozsart - mrsexhimself - mycrofd - obberyn - ohcaulfield - omargaery - psychosematic

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reichebach - reichenbachheroes - sallydonovan - scarljohanson - sherleg - sherloce - sherlockholmse - sherlockst - sherlyck - shockholmes - sittything - solvecrimes - subtxts - szopenteacroft - thecumbercollective - thereturnofsherlock - trojanwars - truhdetective - vowofsherlock - vrger - waetson - whykhan - woahlahey - zherlock - 2-2-1-b - 60s

+ blogroll

Ok I expected this to be waaaays longer, so I’m p sure I left tons of people out.. If you feel like you should totally be here, please just send me a msg and I will add you at once!

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remember how two days ago I was like I can’t do a follow forever I follow to many people??? well here I am, my statement still stands, because I probably forgot like ten hundred people - if we’re mutuals and you can’t find yourself in here it’s because I’m trash and I still love and super appreciate you really

anyway this turned out mostly into a mutuals appreciation I love you all Too Much alright, you’re all so very fantastic and I wish you just the very very best in life :*

(mutuals are in italics, I don’t know what bolded means but you’re even more special nerds)

a-d

8oo, aaliyah1979-2001, abessinier, aconissa, adachimerica, agehachou, amperehope, anewkindofthrill, anotherwellkeptsecret, antisepticbandaid, aranea-serket, baconbreath, basildawson, beebunny, bendydicks, bennyslegs, bergamoth, bilbobeutlin, brotoro, buckingrabbit, bumbleshark, butt-0ns, capaow, cinnarabbit, colorfulrussianfireworks, confirmedfurry, cuteknife, czbaterka, daggermandias, danadelions, dangshezza, darklock, detectivelyd, disatisfying, divinedorothy, douglasrichardsonsghost, dragonmad, drakesboyfriend, drfurter, drwtsn, duod

e-j

eggtragedy, emillu, fantomesdenotrelit, fawnjohn, felixandria, flamiekitten, floccinaucinihilipilificationa, floozys, flowerlock, flowers-in-his-hair, flyingrotten, forsciencejohn, francisxie, fuckyoursolarsystem, gaytectives, gethinblake, ghostbees, gingerbronson, gingerthon, gnacat, gnarlypup, graceebooks, greglestrade, halflock, hammerlock, harteus, hislastbough, inchells, indyfalcon, ineffableboyfriends, iriarty, ivorylungs, jamiehenry, janusjupiter, javvn, jingleallthevvay, johix, jonnethreeway69, joolabee, justaholmesboy, justicespank

k-p

katzensprotte, kingcheddarxmas, kingshezza, kinklock, krispy-bits, kyary, leppu, lestratosphere, lifewithanamericanaccent, littlemammal, littlenim, markjl, martainducreff, martinfreemanmartinjfreeman, maryismoran, matushka-rossiya, meimrr, ministryhasfallen, misandry1996, mjolkk, moosefix, moxel, msaether, myfawnwy, natazilla, nescafes, nevernoahh, nonbinaryjohn, nondeducible, notjackwhite, officialjonathanaris, ohvelveteena, ojisea, ooobee, orcabelly, orphanslot, pantlesspumpkin, pollykatt, prycroft, psychologicalmumbojumbo, psychosematic, pupyup,

r-x

rakatakat, rutobuka2, sallydonovan, samandrill, sanjistaboo, scattered-starks, schroedingerz, severalghostbats, sherkeys, shinka, shootbadcabbies, shuttleshark, shutupmerlin, sincerelywrong, speckledhound, subtxts, sweetlittlekitty, taikova, thealogie, thebusylilbee, thecarefree, thekneegrope, thexth, tjlc, trashfoetus, turinqs, ughbenedict, uzumakijpeg, vellium, vvitch-bitch, whristophcaltz, whybenedict, xargon

help! need new blogs 2 follow!!

hello friends it is i, shira elisheva, formely psychosematic/massromantics. yesterday i accidentally deleted my blog (yes, yes, i know) so i need some new blogs to follow. pls reblog if you post the following:

  • art
  • photography
  • fashion
  • architecture
  • interior design
  • sherlock
  • johnlock
  • parks and rec
  • htgawm
  • portlandia
  • 30 rock
  • st. vincent
  • death cab for cutie
  • vampire weekend
  • movies
  • music
  • basically anything

and i’ll check out your blog!!

i love jewish girls who “look jewish”, girls with big brown eyes and large noses and curly curly brown hair, i love jewish girls who look like gentiles who have straight hair and light eyes and tiny features, i love jewish girls. defend jewish girls from having to live up to standards of “looking jewish”, without being “too jewish” and therefore unattractive