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MEMORY_GLITCH - A #Winter Cyborgs AU mini-comic

HYDRA hears rumors of a secret S.H.I.E.L.D. base and sends WS-01 and WS-02 on a quick scouting mission. WS-02 takes an unexpected trip down memory lane.

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Heartlines - Part 5

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness

A/N: this ones a lot longer with a lot more going on! we find out about readers past and her ex, and bucky is cute as hell. also, there’s i’ve written a part 5a for tony and bucky’s little excursion (you’ll understand when you get to it) if you guys wanna read that! let me know :)

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5A, Part 6Part 7, and  Part 8

Part 5

“He was my boyfriend,” you say, pressed into the corner of the couch with a blanket around your shoulders and a hot chocolate in your hands. You stare into it instead of at Bucky, on the opposite end of the couch and keeping a respectful distance even though you wish he wouldn’t.

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08. a living cadaver

Genre: Vamp!AU || Angst.

Content: Min Yoongi. The deplorable musings of a medical student existent since the creation of the Hippocratic Oath. A downwards spiral.

Request: Vamp!Yoongi (warnings: blood, psychological decompensation, etc.)

Word Count: 2,475


This goddamn duplicity,” Yoongi muttered under his breath, tracing a delicate finger over the rendered image of the human heart.

Ziiiiing. He cringed, dragging his nails in pain across the glossy pages of his unused anatomy textbook as the cacophonous scrape of soles against the moldy, government-funded carpet in the library clashed with the resounding sting made by his rumpled bangs pricking his forehead. God, I have to get rid of these split ends before I go deaf.

Blue-green optical auras consumed the rim of his pupils as the poor boy desperately tried to counteract the searing pain by yanking on the darkened roots of his brittle, mint strands.

He was decrepit, now more than ever, and it was all because of them.

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Heartlines - Part 8

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness

A/N: I LOVE BUCKY BARNES

read Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 5APart 6Part 7, and part 9

Part 8

Waiting for everyone to return is hell. The whole Tower went into lockdown as soon as the Iron Legion got everyone from the penthouse to the ground floor, so now you’re stuck in the residential floors, completely in the dark. Well, not completely. Every few minutes a long, pulsing red light lights up the floor, which is just as ominous and terrifying as it sounds.

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There Is No Turning Back For Us (Mystic Messenger, AU)

Characters : Rika, V x Reader (The fanfic is more centered around Rika)

Genre : AU (Alternative Universe)

Warnings : Spoilers, Psychological Illness, Incitement for suicide

In eternity, where there is no time, nothing can grow. Nothing can become. Nothing changes. So death created time to grow the things that it would kill… And you are reborn but into the same life that you’ve always been born into. I mean, how many times have we had this conversation, detectives ? Well, who knows ? When you can’t remember your lives, you can’t change your lives, and that is the terrible and the secret fate of all life. You’re trapped… Like a nightmare you keep waking up into.

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Fanfictions in the Making

Okay.

I’ve had Ideas bouncing around for a while.

Consider this a check into who would read it

Basically: I might write a really messed up psychological horror story, which while not graphic, would still have a giant trigger warning because psychological horror. 

And because of that, it would have it’s own special tag on my fanfic blog, which you can always blacklist if you need/want to.

Essay #4: Kingdom Hearts The Enemies of Kingdom Hearts: The New Freudian Psychology?

Due warning: SPOILERS ahead. If you don’t want them, don’t read on.

Throughout the Kingdom Hearts series, we have come across four different kinds of enemies, in timeline chronological order: the Unversed, the Heartless, the Nobodies, and the Dream Eaters. Each embodies a fragment of a real person, and the essay here today discusses the enemies as representations of the psyche, as envisioned by the Kingdom Hearts universe. It should be noted that since psychology is a complex thing, the representations discussed here are innately highly simplified.

The Unversed: Emotion

As Vanitas states in Birth by Sleep, the Unversed are “fledgling emotions”, born from his negativity. Vanitas was born from Ventus’ heart being split. Since Vanitas is but fragment of Ventus, the Unversed themselves are also parts of Ventus. Therefore, it can said that the Unversed may be born from all beings with whole hearts. Each Unversed has a different pair of eyes, smiling, angry, or crying, further establishing the Unversed are emotion personified. Since they are “Unversed”, those “not well-versed in their own existence”, it follows that emotion as an individual component is useless. Vanitas commands the Unversed, being an intelligent being, which implies that emotion has no inherent direction. Simply put, to feel is not enough, action or direction is required to fully realize it.

The Heartless: Intent or the “Id”

Unlike the Unversed, the Heartless are the darkness, rather than the raw emotion of a person who has been physically compromised. As noted throughout the series, the darkness is not inherently evil or malicious, which seems to be the case in the first Kingdom Hearts. But as the story continues, it is made apparent that the Heartless are mindless, much as the Unversed are. The Heartless on a desire to have a heart. This domination of being by desire is similar to the concept of the “id” in Freudian psychology. The “id” is the part of the personality that directs basic needs and wants. The basic component of a full person in the Kingdom Hearts universe is a heart, which explains the Heartless’ narrow-minded search for hearts. However, without the ego and superego to regulate the id, the Heartless cannot fully grasp having a heart. It is the darkness that shows people what they really want or need, but it is the ego and superego that keeps it in check. It is implied in the Ansem Reports of the first Kingdom Hearts that the Heartless have always existed, since people have always had darkness in their hearts. However, we know that the Emblem Heartless were initially manufactured in experiments, and that the Purebloods such as the Shadow and Neoshadow are byproducts of a natural process. Therefore, it can be said that the Emblem Heartless are twisted or modified versions of actual desire. The Purebloods, such as the Neoshadows, are relatively few, as Xehanort does not release them in Birth By Sleep, except to use them to test Ventus. The comparative rarity and lack of danger of Purebloods indicates the desire is rarely ever malicious or deadly. The Emblem Heartless, which are plentiful, with their armor, weapons, and improved powers over the Purebloods further show that they are desire acted upon in a most twisted or misguided manner.

The Nobodies: Logic or the “Ego”

If the Heartless are the id, then it follows that the Nobodies are the ego, which directs the id, to consider logical consequences of actions (whether physical, mental, or social), and the idea that other people have ids as well. Unlike any of the other enemies in the Kingdom Hearts universe, the Nobodies are intelligent and are driven by their will and ability to plan. There is further evidence that the Nobodies are the psyche’s logic and mental capacity. Nobodies can, with sufficient willpower, become a higher form of a Nobody, namely those that make up Organization XIII. These Nobodies are very intelligent, retaining their memories as people, and desiring a heart to complete them. They can even affect emotion in order to feign having a complete personality. However, their lack of “intent”, or rather an “id”, prevents them from realizing that their goal of completion implies more than restoring their hearts, as explained by Yen Sid. Both the Heartless and the Nobody of a person must be destroyed in order to restore a person to their original form. The higher Nobodies are arrogant and presume to be a higher existence than the Heartless, when their very existence is paradoxical in itself. Given that the Nobodies are the ego, and that the Heartless are the id, the heart is the super ego. This is because just as the Heartless do not have the ego or the superego to regulate them, the Nobodies do not have the id to realize what they need, nor the superego to show them morality. Nobodies are ruthless, particularly those in Organization XIII, not considering whether their actions are right or wrong. This is further supported by the fact that Axel and Roxas were some of the first members to show the “unquestionable signs of a burgeoning replacement [a new heart]”, as noted by Xemnas. Axel’s being was fully restored, whereas Roxas, despite having a new growing heart, had no id “darkness” to show him what he needed was to return to Sora, where his shared id and original superego (Sora’s heart) lay.

The Dream Eaters: Dreams, fears, and aspirations

The Dream Eaters are a more complicated matter. In Dream Drop Distance, Yen Sid explains that they are entities that wander the world of sleep, and they are in constant flux. The Dream Eaters, unlike the other enemies, have two forms: Nightmare and Spirit. Nightmares create problems and harm the world of sleep by creating more nightmares, which keeps the worlds they roam in sleep. The Spirits keep them at bay, and Sora and Riku help them to fully awaken the worlds of sleep. These Dream Eaters take myriad forms, from bats, to horses, to dinosaurs. Similarly, the dreams of people are also varied. Nightmares and dreams are continuous and can occur simultaneously. It could be said that, along with the Unversed, the Dream Eaters are a part of the superego: the conscience. The Unversed are the emotions of people, which are produced in response to various stimuli, and the Dream Eaters are people’s fears and dreams. People dream and have various emotions as a result. People hope and aspire, and that, too, evokes emotion. The heart, or the superego, incorporates emotion and dream in order to sort through one’s conscience, what is right and wrong, and to form one’s own morals.

Heartlines - Part 7

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness

A/N: so some good news, some cute bucky moments, but a bit of a twist at the end… what do we think’s going on with bucky?? what do you think will happen next part?? i love to know what you guys think :) thanks so much for all the feedback so far!!

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 5A, Part 6, and Part 8

Part 7

“Oh my god.”

Your hands are shaking, and your brain has come to a screeching halt as you take in the screens before you. You blink over and over again, but the results don’t change. You squeeze your eyes shut so tightly you see spots (and irrationally worry over burst blood vessels) but when you open them, it’s still there. All you can see is a whole lot of green.

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Heartlines - Part 6

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness

A/N: !!! i love this part so much, and hopefully you guys do too! stuff is finally happening!! woooo!! let me know what you think, and if you wanna be tagged in future parts 

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 Part 4, Part 5, Part 5APart 7, and Part 8

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You’re not surprised you can’t sleep that night. Despite your exhaustion, all the events of the last few days have turned your nightmares into memories and even the safety of the Tower into a danger zone. You find yourself flinching around every corner, like just by being in the same city as him he might as well be right on top of you.

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The Emergency Exit

Description: The reader, captured by demons, is on the verge of snapping and revealing all. It seems too much luck that Sam and Dean could save her. Based off/leading up to this imagine
Words: 2,165
Warnings: Psychological mind games…
Author’s Note: After 4 complete rewrites (don’t even get me started) we’re there! So, anon, you said long but turns out I’m not even at the point of that original imagine yet and I don’t want to make everyone wait for eternity! Enjoy part 1 of 2! There’s a keep reading break but if it doesn’t show on mobile, just click on the post :)

Request: Please make a fic of Crowley based on your last Crowley imagine! I really liked it!
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Please make it as deliciously evil and long as possible

The Winchesters weren’t coming this time. There was no way they’d even know you were being held here.

In fact, there was really only one conclusion you could come to now as you stared at the rotten wooden wall in front of you. You had looking at it for far too long a time now and it was becoming difficult to keep a thought in your head you’d been there so long. Or maybe it wasn’t all that long at all? Crap, you were losing concept of time, that wasn’t a good sign. 

But the conclusion? Right. You pursed your lips, you were getting distracted from what you’d been trying to think about, it was useful when your ‘visitors’ came, but in between it felt as if you were losing yourself. You needed to get your head back in the game. Your hands bound, the cold sweat, the voices… God, those voices. The second you tried to sleep, they were there taunting you. They weren’t what you’d expected, they were you, they were your family and friends, and fuck, they were everywhere. 

It all lead to one thing: You must have finally lost your mind.

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Heartlines - Part 10 (Final!)

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness, sexual content

A/N: so here we are, the final part!! im so sad but happy at the same time bc im really proud of this series and proud that i finished. thank you all so much for your amazing feedback and encouragements and just reading my fic, you all mean so much to me. if you have any comments dont hesitate to message me, and if you’d like to see some sequel drabbles hit me up with ideas! im not done with my babies yet :)

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The day you hand in your completed PhD and project is a lot more anticlimactic than the day of Tony’s party. There’s no screaming, crying, hugging, or Hydra attacks on the Tower. It’s just you and your final conference call with your professors, in your study lab, feeling a mixture of immense pride, relief, and sadness that it’s all finally, impossibly over.

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Heartlines - Part 9

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

Warnings: psychological and physical abuse, torture, panic attacks, mental illness, sexual content

A/N: this is the second last part yall! im so sad :( but i love this part a lot and i think you will too, so hit me up with what you guys think about it! i appreciate any and all feedback. thank you all for being such wonderful readers, you really make my day

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Part Nine

Bucky is withdrawn for days after the Hydra attack. The team managed to get everything under control, no civilians were hurt, and only Clint ended up with any noticeable injuries just because he tripped over his own feet doing a victory dance and smashed his nose. On the surface, everything is fine. But you know that the guilt from leaving the fight is eating away at Bucky, even when he smiles and tells you everything is fine.

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:: if she had known :: rumbelle

Summary: Robin Hood left Belle’s number with the hospital and the doctors give her a call. Belle arrives just in time to see her husband’s unwanted visitor.

!!Warning!!: Psychological Torture, Verbal Abuse, Verbal Humiliation, Implied/Referenced Torture

Words: 2326

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“I’m-I’m sorry, what?” Belle gripped the phone, her brow pinched. That couldn’t be right, she hadn’t heard that right…

“Mrs. Gold, I said your husband’s had a heart attack. He’s here in the hospital now,” the physician on the other line repeated, and Belle had to grip onto the counter for support.

“A-a heart attack? Is he alright? Is he going to be okay?” She demanded, her voice strained. She was already putting on her coat, staring at Emma from across the room.

“He should be alright but we’re keeping him for at least a day to be sure. He’s awake and everything, uh, would you like to talk to him?”

“No! No, that’s…not necessary, thank you,” she assured, grabbing her keys and hanging up. “Emma, I need the scroll.”

Emma frowned. “Scroll, what scroll?”

“The one the Snow Queen used to get back into Storybrooke, I need it,” she implored, wringing her hands.

“Belle, look-”

“I know! I know what he did, I know everything he’s done, but he…he’s sick. He could be dying, and he’s all alone,” her breath shook, tears in her eyes. “Don’t make me leave him there. Please.”  Emma stared at her, still unsure. “Emma, I am leaving here one way or the other and I need you to trust me. Please, he’s my husband.”

Emma sighed, looking at the floor a moment before raising her eyes back to hers. “Don’t make me regret this, okay?”

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Running to Stand Still for Khal

word count: 26784

side pairings: zayn malik/original male character(s)

warnings: emotional/psychological abuse, dubious consent, physical abuse, abusive relationship, brief violence against a child

rating: explicit

He’s a father with the responsibility of two, who’s trying his best to keep all aspects of their life together. He doesn’t get to polish the result. He barely gets to see it.

Or; Zayn has an amazing daughter, an awful boyfriend, and an old friend who might just turn things around.