psychological reflections of self

Uniform development exists, at most, only at the beginning; later,
everything points toward the center. This insight gave me stability,
and gradually my inner peace returned. I knew that in finding the
mandala as an expression of the self I had attained what was for
me the ultimate. Perhaps someone else knows more, but not I.
Some years later (in 1927) I obtained confirmation of my ideas
about the center and the self by way of a dream. I represented its
essence in a mandala which I called “Window on Eternity”.
Carl Gustav Jung “Memories, Dreams, Reflections”

Window on Eternity mandala by Carl Gustav Jung from the Red Book.

Aries is a sign that does not get a lot of credit for their interest in psychology and their ability to delve deep into the human mind, and to examine the dark parts of the psyche, but I think Aries succeeds greatly in doing that. I mean, I’ve heard that this was more applicable for those who have an Aries Midheaven, as in they’d do well in the field of psychology as a profession, but I have an example of an Aries who touched up on psychological stuff. And I kind of like to incorporate film into astrology because I think astrological placements are evident in the films of most directors and whatnot.

So, Michael Haneke is an Austrian director/screenwriter who directed the most disturbing film I’d ever seen, and it’s called The Piano Teacher (2001). I remember prior to watching the movie I was just thinking “wow, this movie is going to be romantic and maybe even interesting because it’s supposed to be about a relationship between a piano teacher and a student, what’s the worst that can happen?! the student doesn’t appear to be a minor anyway!” but apparently it was way more than I’d bargained for. The film focuses on such intense psychological aspects to the point where there were several scenes that stunned me, I had no idea how to react, it was just the wildest thing in the world. Most of it was a portrayal of the effects of sexual repression for a middle-aged woman, other parts of it dealt with sadism/masochism. Michael Haneke also directed another film called Funny Games, one that I have yet to watch, but my boyfriend wrote something about the movie a while back and it was yet another psychological film. The film challenges the viewers to become self-reflective and to question themselves. It poses questions of why we want to see violent things on screen, it questions our expectations of horror films, Haneke wants us to consider who the real villains are; is it us?

There are so many more examples of other Arians who are amazing in the realm of psychology, but that was just something I was thinking about and wanted to share.

aries learn about themselves by exploring their environment and following pure intuition
taurus learn about themselves by centering in the moment and contemplating reverence
geminis learn about themselves by talking to other people
cancers learn about themselves through the memories they hold onto
leos learn about themselves through creative expression and the responses and validation they receive from others about who they are. they may enjoy personality profiles, astrology references, and mbti types etc;
virgos learn about themselves through helping others through their own crisis
libras learn about themselves through projection, observing others, and psychological reflection
scorpios learn about themselves through intense probing of the self, the ego, and the spirit, like a self sought psychiatrist
sagittarians learn about themselves through travel and exploration, soaking into new language and cultures and ways of life and philosophical values
capricorns learn about themselves through withdrawal and solitary contemplation, they surprise themselves by what they can truly accomplish
aquarians learn about themselves by observing the cosmos, science, and ideas, they learn about themselves when they find positive attributes in humanity they can apply to themselves
pisceans learn about themselves through dream, journal writing, the answers they receive in prayer, projection and reflection of others


The human mind works like this: When we see someone in a higher place compared to us; we don’t think ‘I want to be up there too’…but rather 'you should fall down with me’.

Cheon Song Yi.

The ugly truth behind human psychology. We don’t self-reflect to become better; we envy others because we are worse.

Questioning the Combinations: Capricorn Sun x Virgo Moon

“Describe yourself in a few random words”

Solitude, energy, doubt, concern, perfectionism, speaking fast, sarcasm, self-loathing, pessimism, reflective, psychology.

“What do you like best about your personality?”

01. I’ve always been there for anyone who needed moral support or something like that, trying to lift them up, and I also always consider all the possibilities and make the most rational decision. / 02. People usually compliment me on my kindness and loyalty. / 03. I like that I am perceptive about people.

“What’s most contradicting about your personality?”

01. I tend to be pretty much obsessed with this idea that I will sooner or later “find” myself, as if I’m not whole and still need to constantly add something to an already perfectly functioning me. At the same time i actively know that I am already who I need to be and even if not, i shouldn’t focus on this that much. / 02. I am very much of a perfectionist, but I am also very lazy at times and could not care less. Which is a problem, especially in terms of school.

Tips for Applying to Grad School

- study/take the GRE. It’s better to plan ahead- you can take the GRE more than once in case you didn’t do as well as planned or necessary. If the field you’re interested in has a subject GRE test, like psychology, consider taking the subject test even if its not required. 

- Do your research. There are a lot of options for schools to choose from. Have a good idea of what you’re looking for (location, program length, tuition, faculty, research opportunities, job success after graduation, etc). The more you know what you’re looking for, the easier it will be to narrow down your decision. 

- prepare as much as possible while you’re still in undergrad. Get your GPA up  (as grad schools are competitive and more selective than undergrad), try to get an internship in your relative future field, form relationships with professors whose classes you enjoyed and did well in to increase the likelihood they will write you a letter of rec, etc. 

- Plan out your application schedule: make a calendar for application deadlines, when you want your letters of recommendation submitted, interview days, etc. 

- Take advantage of the personal statement section of the application if your program requires it. Quantitative data such as GPA and GRE scores are important but the personal statement allows you to really express your passion and enthusiasm for seeking higher education in that particular field, at that particular institution (this is super important for psychology grad school apps because self-reflection is crucial to be in our field). Overall, use the personal statement to really use your voice. 

Interview Process:

- dress appropriately. If you don’t know what this means, look it up but its fairly straightforward. Remember: it’s always better to overdress than underdress. First impressions are important and grad school is one step closer to being a professional 

- This goes back to the research section when applying but know the program you’re going into. Know what they offer, know what they expect, know about the opportunities they have. 

- Be prepared for questions the interviewer will ask you. There are tons of sample questions you can find on google. 

- Have your own questions prepared; even if you know the answer to it, its better to have a question handy because it shows interest and inquisitiveness. And have backup questions because they may answer the question before its your turn! 

- Talk to the students and faculty while you’re there. Get a good sense of what its like to be a part of the community. 

RELAX!!!!! If you’re given an interview, it means they’re already interested in you and you have the basic expectations they are looking for in their candidates. The interview process is your chance to really show who you are and emit what a piece of paper cannot do. And remember, you’re interviewing the school as much as they’re interviewing you

I hope this helps you! :)

12:21pm, 3/23/2017

…so much paperwork. even on spring break, (is relaxation an impending to-read and to-watch list? L reposts a painful and hilarious video of imperfection that reminds me: my life, my suffering). I’ve done the blood work and traveling, just not the correspondence and actual writing (in another life, I major in administration and give out national grants to local artists for a living; this life, I major in psychology and the arts, there is endless self reflection).

…what the fuck am I going to do with research? thrills me in the best and worst way. more lists.

at least, saturday is coming. saturday is a different unwinding: big girls, queer girls, older girls. big taiwanese dinner and artsy psychological thriller films. I just want to rub my forehead against their shoulders and listen to their smokey voices, laced with sarcasm and wit. I want the promise of sticky rice and no shame and just being. weeks waiting, motivation, my yearning can handle a little more.

Game of Thrones Characters for the Signs + Explanation
  • Aries: Arya Stark // Courageous, unconstrained by social expectations, independent, energetic, rebellious
  • Taurus: Sansa Stark // Devoted, polite, determined, observant, mature, gentle, mentally strong, romantic
  • Gemini: Olenna Tyrell // Wise, great politician, eloquent, argumentative, kind, conscious, resourceful
  • Cancer: Cersei Lannister // Protective, impulsive, acts on feelings, family-oriented, prideful, vengeful
  • Leo: Daenerys Targaryen // Ambitious, psychologically resilient, empathetic, honorable, leader, driven
  • Virgo: Jon Snow // Self-reflective, cautious, humble, analytical, despondent, principled, committed, reserved
  • Libra: Margaery Tyrell // Extremely intelligent, compassionate, peaceful, tactful, tolerant, feminine
  • Scorpio: Jorah Mormont // Incredibly determined, devoted to Daenerys, feeling oriented, resilient, brave
  • Sagittarius: Tyrion Lannister // Humorous, charismatic, great with words, truthful, straightforward, loyal
  • Capricorn: Brienne of Tarth // Socially awkward, brave, seeks recognition, honest, loyal, genuine, determined
  • Aquarius: Ygritte // Independent, funny, quick-witted, talkative, easy going, compassionate, freedom lover
  • Pisces: Bran Stark // Mystical, big dreamer, people-oriented, merciful, has visions and prophetic dreams
Every human has four endowments - self-awareness, conscience, independent will, creative imagination. These give us the ultimate human freedom - the power to choose, to respond, and to change.
—  Stephen R. Covey, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

Sexy-Consciously Awake Men are everywhere, most of you just can’t see us. We are mirrors. Without full acceptance of who you are, as you are, in your entirety, you will never see us. In the reflection we provide you will see yourself fully. In order to see us, you must be able to see beyond yourself and your emotions. If you feel good, we’ll amplify that and if you feel bad, our presence will amplify that too. If you can’t embrace that and thank us for it you’re not ready to have us in your life. We hold the entire planet in our hearts and that means that we can handle you and your emotions, the question is can you? ~ Paul Cooper