psalms 105:37

freedom is not reckless

let me breathe. let me out. let me be free to roam. to fly. to flitter to the left to the right. up above and down below. let me move at a diagonal once in a while. why can’t you see that you’re limiting me? do you remain oblivious to the exhaustion on my face? you’re holding me back, caging me in. defeated. spiritless. downed. you might as well go ahead and clip my wings. why do you demand my absolute submission? why is it that the exhibition of my love for you must come in the form of obedience in action? am i simply not enough for you?  

these were the thoughts of an immature me. when i once believed true freedom was doing as i former definition of freedom meant exactly this. consenting to my every emotion and my every need. allowing my desires to override His desires for me. attempting to fulfill psalms 37:4 without Him. freedom meant filling my cup of selfishness to the brim and overflow. little did i know that this rationale of freedom completely contradicted its true form.

through words of revelations that i’ve received from the wisdom of fellow colleagues the Lord redefined this term for me. He brought in new insight and unveiled the very word, freedom. freedom didn’t mean full access to moving to the rhythms of my heart and body. it means that i fully understand that i can do just that BUT possessing the authority to give certain freedoms up for Him and others.
learning how to fly boundlessly within His ancient boundaries. like Jesus, he had the freedom to do as He pleased. He didn’t have to spend time sojourning city to city healing people, feeding people, loving people BUT he chose to give up that freedom for their sake He didn’t have to get on that cross at calvary BUT he chose to give up that freedom too out of obedience and for the freedom of others. true freedom is knowing when to let it go for love’s sake. 

so here i am
as one who had lived with no freedom
to one who came out of reckless freedom
to one who has now entered into a life of glorious freedom

Psalms 37:3-4

Trust the Lord, and do good things.
Live in the land, and practice being faithful.
Be happy with the Lord,
and He will give you the desires of your heart.

To trust is to be confident.
To do is to bring forth; to serve; and to maintain that service
The meaning of “good” in this verse is “beautiful things”
Live in this verse is defined as “to abide or continue” 
Land is defined as firmness/stability 

Be confident in the Lord, and serve/continue to serve beautiful things. 
Continue in the stability [that He has given you], and practice being faithful
Be happy with the Lord,
and He will give you the desires of your heart. 

Psalm 37 (nkjv)

The Heritage of the Righteous and the Calamity of the Wicked

A Psalm of David.

37 Do not fret because of evildoers,
Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity.
2 For they shall soon be cut down like the grass,
And wither as the green herb.
3 Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
4 Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.
7 Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.
9 For evildoers shall be cut off;
But those who wait on the Lord,
They shall inherit the earth.
10 For yet a little while and the wicked shall be no more;
Indeed, you will look carefully for his place,
But it shall be no more.
11 But the meek shall inherit the earth,
And shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.
12 The wicked plots against the just,
And gnashes at him with his teeth.
13 The Lord laughs at him,
For He sees that his day is coming.
14 The wicked have drawn the sword
And have bent their bow,
To cast down the poor and needy,
To slay those who are of upright conduct.
15 Their sword shall enter their own heart,
And their bows shall be broken.
16 A little that a righteous man has
Is better than the riches of many wicked.
17 For the arms of the wicked shall be broken,
But the Lord upholds the righteous.
18 The Lord knows the days of the upright,
And their inheritance shall be forever.
19 They shall not be ashamed in the evil time,
And in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.
20 But the wicked shall perish;
And the enemies of the Lord,
Like the splendor of the meadows, shall vanish.
Into smoke they shall vanish away.
21 The wicked borrows and does not repay,
But the righteous shows mercy and gives.
22 For those blessed by Him shall inherit the earth,
But those cursed by Him shall be cut off.
23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord,
And He delights in his way.
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down;
For the Lord upholds him with His hand.
25 I have been young, and now am old;
Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken,
Nor his descendants begging bread.
26 He is ever merciful, and lends;
And his descendants are blessed.
27 Depart from evil, and do good;
And dwell forevermore.
28 For the Lord loves justice,
And does not forsake His saints;
They are preserved forever,
But the descendants of the wicked shall be cut off.
29 The righteous shall inherit the land,
And dwell in it forever.
30 The mouth of the righteous speaks wisdom,
And his tongue talks of justice.
31 The law of his God is in his heart;
None of his steps shall slide.
32 The wicked watches the righteous,
And seeks to slay him.
33 The Lord will not leave him in his hand,
Nor condemn him when he is judged.
34 Wait on the Lord,
And keep His way,
And He shall exalt you to inherit the land;
When the wicked are cut off, you shall see it.
35 I have seen the wicked in great power,
And spreading himself like a native green tree.
36 Yet he passed away, and behold, he was no more;
Indeed I sought him, but he could not be found.
37 Mark the blameless man, and observe the upright;
For the future of that man is peace.
38 But the transgressors shall be destroyed together;
The future of the wicked shall be cut off.
39 But the salvation of the righteous is from the Lord;
He is their strength in the time of trouble.
40 And the Lord shall help them and deliver them;
He shall deliver them from the wicked,
And save them,
Because they trust in Him.