ps(personal)

Harry: i don’t get girls, they’re crazy. please give some advice before i go crazy

Sirius: have you tried kissing guys instead?

Harry: what?

Sirius: it worked for me

Harry: wait what

Sirius: I’m gay

Harry: what?

Sirius: totally gay. completely gay. just look at me and remus!

Harry: you and remus?

Sirius: for years.

Harry: so remus is gay?

Sirius: no, no, he likes women too. he’s bi. i’m gay

Harry: and you two are together. right?

Sirius: exactly

Harry:

Sirius: but have you tried?

i mean im an adult, i guess, if that’s the word for it. a lot of things i used to care about i just say “Fuck It” and let go. 

but it’s incredible to me that there’s still so many passages to my soul. how just a group of teenagers looking at me and laughing makes my teeth hurt. how someone’s comment sends me back to high school bullying. how i am constantly asking myself are they even really my friends? 

i don’t know. i never throw myself birthday parties because my worst nightmare would be that nobody shows. i just wonder if there’s ever a time that your last insecurities let go. i’ve only ever found that kind of freedom at the honey lips of tequila. i want to be brave at two pm on a sunday. i want to actually not care what they say. i want to be the kind of witch that laughs through the burning.

i don’t know. i hope i’m learning.

How I learnt to study

During High school I was one of those students who never really had to work for my marks, I had the uncanny ability to leave my assignment till the night before and still manage full marks that is ..till I got to university, my first year was a disaster I was barely passing my units I was stressed and depressed, what got me through high school was clearly not working in university. So to stop my second year in university from being a disaster as well and to save my gpa I decided to learn how to study from scratch!  spoiler: It worked and my marks have tripled since I adopted these habits. So here are the things I started doing!

- I invested in school supplies that I NEEDED and not just for aesthetic, example I bought tons and tons of basic cheap notebooks because I knew I was going to do a lot of writing and things like flashcards. My rule of thumb was if its functional its perfect.

- I attended every lecture and every class no matter what the time was! This is essential as it saves time later when you are rushing around trying to catch up. 

- I tried to stay up to date no matter what! Before I would let lecture after lecture pile up but ever since doing this, my study life has been much easier to cope with. 

- UNDERSTANDING EVERYTHING YOU LEARN FROM THAT WEEK, I cannot stress how much this has helped me. If I am learning about a topic in week 5, I have to understand it fully in week 5, not when I am in finals week and stressing out. I use resources such as textbooks and the internet to help me understand or I will ask my teacher. The important thing is I understand it fully.

- Be organised!  Know when you have an assignment due, there are so many ways to do this. Handheld planner, wall planner, phone reminders, there is apps such as my study life. Anything that will remind you to get started on the thing before it is too late.

- Review your notes weekly or fortnightly!!! Memory works by relearning, instead of cramming the night before exams, review weeks before.

- Break down your essays weeks before its due, you don’t have to start writing them right away but at least start thinking about them.

- Utilise any free time, for example instead of listening to music on my 45 min bus ride to uni I started listening to a psych podcast or doing my readings for that day.

- Have mental health days, I found out how difficult it is to study and how necessary it is to take breaks. Studying is stressful, have days/half days where you relax and look after yourself.

-Cut down on caffeine, I was a serial coffee addict, Im talking 4 shots a cup three times a day. Cutting down reduced my anxiety and got me sleeping more, which improved my mood and energy.

- Have a study buddy/group, find someone who is serious about their study and have study sessions with them, you get to study and have a social life.

- Find a study schedule that suits you, don’t feel pressure to get up at 5 am if you find it easier to study at 6pm.

- Have a study place, that you know you will study in! It can be your local library, your desk, your bed. Anything that you find will work for you!

fic recs

edited: july 4, 2017

so far i have only read bts fics on tumblr and i barely even remember the exo, b2st/highlight, infinite fics i have read so this is basically just a bts fanfic recommendation.

warning: most of them are fluffs because i’m such a hoe for it and some has descriptive smuts (it’ll be specified on each link). barely any angst.

this is just a collection of my favorite fics, i hope you like them as much as i do.

most of them are jungkook’s but i surprisingly have kind of a lot ?? of yoongi’s too.

also pls recommend me more hoseok fics he’s like my 2nd ult but i have not read a lot of hobi fics :( and also recommend me some of joon’s and jin’s too! especially jin bc i have none. but basically just recommend me any fics you like!!


ps.

♥ means they’re my personal favorite

♥♥ means the same but i might like them a bit more?? idk


enjoy!


BTS

Kim Seokjin


Min Yoongi

Crazy In Love ♥♥ by @zephyoongist

Seigneur-terraces ♥ by @taesthetes

Cerise by @taesthetes

Eight by @workofteaguk

Heart On Your Sleeve by @minsvga

With Benefits by @minsvga

First, Last by @floofyeol


Jung Hoseok

Always A Bridesmaid Never A Bride by @jeonseok

War Game by @dailydoseofdia

T-shirt Weather by @jeonseok


Kim Namjoon

Copybook by @jeonseok


Park Jimin

Metanoia ♥♥ by @taesthetes

Dionysus by @jungkxook

Poster Boy by @versigny

Selcouth by @lushguk

Between The Devil And The Deep Blue Sea ♥♥ by @jungkxook


Kim Taehyung

Frisson by @taesthetes

Should I by @floofyeol

Pour Up by @jungkxook 

Zaddy by @btssmutgalore


Jeon Jungkook

Arranged Love ♥♥ (20/20) by @jungkxook

Tinder 2.0 by @tayegi

“I have a proposition” by @imaginesbts

Black Magick ♥ by @dreamscript

Amortentia ♥♥ by @jungkxook

Date #7 ♥ by @zephyoongist

Amour by @taesthetes , @dreamscript@zephyoongist

Proposals by @pjxmin

Pour Up by @jungkxook

I Will Not Lose ♥ by @jimlingss

Yuanfen by @zephyoongist

Bet by @seokvie

Epiphany (3/3) by @nightbts

Say It by @houseofbangtaninternational

Monster ♥♥ by @btssmutgalore

Keyed by @taemyg

Damn The Delivery Boy ♥ by @deerguk

It’s All Fun & Games ♥♥ (5/5) by @workofteaguk

Roommate ♥ by @minsvga

Perseverance ♥ by @freehoseoksdick

Love Me Like You Love Chicken Nuggets by @hijoonie

Red Ink by @floofyeol

Sweeter Than Sugar by @jungkxook

fwb!jungkook by @an-exotic-writer

Illusion Of Choice by @hobibliophile

Irresistible ♥♥ by @jungkxook  

50 Kisses by @an-exotic-writer

Jungkook Next Door on AO3

Threats & Paybacks ♥ by @pantaemonium (this was so fucking hot)

Three Reasons by @lthyl

Ink And Kisses ♥♥ (2/2) @oppamansae

Rebound ♥♥ by @lushguk

Heart Lattes by @maytae

Oblivious by @lushguk

Cardiovascular Palpitations ♥♥ (3/3) by @hayjeon

In Media Res by @workofteaguk

We’ll Be Alright by @virgguk

Lust & Errors by @imaginethisbts

Behind These Walls ♥ by @workofteaguk